My dad died of cancer 2 years ago.  Ever since then I have been struggling with my faith.........?
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My deepest sympathies for your loss. It is easy for us to tell you it is all in God's plan... but when tragedy happens at our door step its not such an easy bullet to bite.\n\nIt IS OK to feel angry with God, I assume you are Christian, and in Christianity God calls himself the Father. \n\nIn human terms, sometimes our human parents will do something to us and for us, beyond what we can see, like limiting our TV time so that we can complete our schoolwork or help us save our money for college and in the mean time we do notget to buy the really expensive Dress from Prada.\n\nIn saying so, I cannot say for sure God has a plan or what that plan is, but if your beloved father placed full trust in God, then I am thinking you would too... seeing sometimes God gives us situations that we do not like... as a Child my TV time was like a Pot of Pure Gold. I did not see the value of homework and such. \n\nNow that the loss of your Dad is so arresting... maybe its God's whisper to you to continue serving him by honoring your mom? God takes care of your Dad in heaven, while you be the caretaker of yourself and your mom on Earth, until you are able to have a family reunion once again somewhere in the future.\n\nWho is to say, that your loss does not propel you to be as great a man as your Daddy once was, the hundreds if not more people he had inspired as a minister towards faith in the Divine, Love towards Humanity and Devotion towards his Family? Maybe God has great plans in store for you and for greatness to be won, all the sages and prophets of the past had to go through much trials and tribulations, like the forging of a lump of raw iron into a pristine Sword that protects the weak and defends those in despair.\n\nMaybe YOU are going to be that Sword, it doesn't diminish the severity of your loss, but this loss can be used to strengthen you more or degenerate you, the choice is in your hands... \n\nBe Angry! Be upset! Mourn! But once you are more at ease, Heal! Honor those around you... Love those who are with you... and honor the momory of your late father by being as wonderful a man as I am sure he was... For no man can invoke such great devotion and love from a child, unless he himself was truly a great man...\n\nHope all will be well soon.
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I hope I can help you in some small way. First, I believe that Faith is a journey each day of your life. Try to read your Bible some each day particularly the New Testament. Live your life under the Golden Rule: "Do unto others as you would have others do unto you". Pray without ceasing....you can talk to GOD anytime you want. HE is always there with you. Will you always get what you want? Of course not....for HE knows what you need. Each day notice the world around you and try to do good things for others. Thank God each day for giving you this day. Have you noticed what a perfect artist GOD is, by the way? Look at the sky, the sunset, the leaves on the trees, the snow, the animals on this earth. What beauty HE has brought to this world. Meditate and be alone with yourself and simply ask GOD for help in guiding you.  I know with all of the horrible stuff going on in this world, sometimes it is hard to have Faith in God. HE, however, did not create this mess. HE gave us free choice and, obviously, we have made many mistakes. Ask GOD to forgive all of us and to show us the way. Each day that you do this, your faith will grow but remember, as I said earlier....Faith in God is a journey til the day you die. Ask HIM to be with you now and always even if you feel like your faith is shakey sometimes. As you grow older, your faith will strengthen. GOD is GOOD and LOVING. May GOD BLESS YOU in your JOURNEY!!!!
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I think that maybe for a while you need to stop focusing on religion and just focus on God. Take some time and read the bible(King James Version)
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Oh my sis... Hugs to my sis in the Lord.  I can't imagine how tough it must be.  But girl our Lord is STRONG and He is walkin with you every step of the way... And he's with your family too...  Sometimes the Lord chooses to heal us so that Everyone can see such awesome Proof of His power.  But sometimes... we well endure much so that those around us can see how our Faith sustains.  Look at Joni Eareckson Tada She's been a quadrapoligic for what 30 years... and people can look at her and say Look at the joy she has look at the love she shares despite what she has to deal with everyday.   You can be a WITNESS to how God heals the SPIRIT.... Let Him use you to be a lamp Shining bright.  I don't know if I understand all you have to go through or what your family is going through.  Just make sure that you KNOW and your family Knows... that God is going to give you  Healing no matter what.  Either you'll be healed of this illness and beable to testify to it for years to come... or you'll testify of the peace the Lord gives beyond understand you and HEAL you completely and bring you home... Too many forget that death for a christian isn't God letting you down... it's God giving the Best and COMPLETE healing and being present with the Lord alone could give.  As much as it breaks our hearts when the Lord brings someone home we can rejoice for them.  I'm gonna post you a few scripture addresses so you can look them up...or this email will take you a month to read.  God bless you sister... even by just this... short note from you I can see the Holy Spirit in you and I know He will tell you what to do with your family.  I know he will comfort you and them and hold you all in comfort and peace.  You are in my prayers.   you lil sis in HIM  -- jen
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my dad got liver cancer when i was born and he said he asked Christ to heal him and to give him 20 years to raise me. the terminal cancer went away 100% without chemotherapy and he died when i was 20. Praise God.
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My heart goes out to you and your Dad and your whole family. This must be really hard for you all. Especially around the holidays. I believe that everybody and every living thing on this earth has an energy about them. If I were you I would take his hand in yours and pour your energy into him. Give him as much as energy as you can. I cannot tell you how to do it because for me, it just happens. I can feel the love and the warmth intertwining with the other.\nThis is the time you of all people need to keep the faith, whichever faith that is. By you keeping the faith and sharing it with your Dad, it will help to keep his faith. More faith means more positive energy and a stronger recovery. Share your energy with your family and friends. It will be passed onto your Dad as well. \nDo not be sad. Sadness is not a good energy. You must believe all will be well. Know your Dad wants to be well. Deep inside he doesn't want to let you down. Show him how positive you are about it. Don't act it. Believe it and when all is said and done, things will be what they were. Maybe now, they will even be better. As a Dad myself, there is nothing more important to me than to make my daughter happy and I am sure your Dad is the same way.\nKeep the faith. Be positive. BELIEVE in your Dad recovery. Share your energy with him each and every time you see him. Tell him you love and not just in passing. Take an actual moment of time to convey this to him.\nChin up. Take note the beautiful day that is out there. Take a walk in nature. Let natures energy revive you, charge you, and bring that back to your Dad.\nTake care and remember. "Don't worry, be happy"!
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Dear One, Your pain must be almost unbearable at times.I am so sorry for your losses.God does not promise a life with out pain here on earth, he does promise his grace and his mercy, and peace.He does promise that someday all this will be made known to us, which for some as yourself is so hard to understand as you go through this. He has never stopped loving you, he has never left you, he has never stopped loving your wife...he was with her holding her hand as he took her home. Life is hard, painfull and confusing, please hold on to God he is Loving so so much,  he is waiting for you so he can take your pain. Call on him...... you are in my prayers...
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Please try not to worry. Its shows a lack of faith. Just pray and be strong. Take it one day at a time.
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Congratulations on your strong spirit. You should know you've crossed a great distance to being an adult, and rightly so.\n\nI lost my dad when I was 14, and it was hard. Real hard. However, in your case, you have no one of your parents left to comfort you anymore. Just knowing that is your first step into being a real human. God is testing you, and He will make it up for you, if not in this life, well, that's why we believe in Him.\n\nNo one can say anything to make you feel better. Many will try though, but look around, what about the maimed victims of war who lost their entire families? What about millions of poor individuals who know someday they're going to die a slow death, and that day isn't far away? God is testing them as well, believe me, the only thing that can help you is faith, faith in God, and in yourself.\n\nBe strong, and know you are not alone. Focus on your studies, and every time your eyes fill with tears from memories, let it be. Strong men also cry. It only makes them stronger.\n\nRegards,
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First, know that you are not alone. We all go through times where our faith seems really weak. Many people in the bible did as well. I'd like to ask if you have been baptized in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit? Receiving the spirit of God will help you through difficult times. I also wish I knew more about your situation. Is your faith weak because of hardships or pain? Or is it weak because of comfort and things being too easy? I know that sounds strange but I'm such a hard head that I have more problems with my faith during times of plenty. When difficulty comes I've learned to rely on God. Once he gets me through it my faith is stronger. It may not be pleasant during these times but knowing that I will be closer to God helps. On the other hand sometimes I feel my faith is so strong that I could go toe to toe with satan and he would never get a glove on me. I think at those times he does not fight. Instead satan tells me how great I'm doing and trys to fill me up with arrogance.  So when I'm strong, I'm weak. When I'm weak, I'm strong. Just turn it over to God constantly, he is strong always. Get with friends who love God so they can help you through this.
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I feel you little buddy but you know what...keep on Praying God is listening...sometimes like gold before we shine there's a refinement process we have to go through..Stay strong...keep passing those opened windows and always always give God the glory no matter how tough things get...when you praise Him even in the tough times, praise him not complain to him I assure you things will become briter and you will reap the blessing from the seeds you sow.
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Keep giving people this testimony of yours and it is this way that you will be winning souls for Jesus. You are feeling the presence of God and it is on you thick. Keep doing whatever it is that you are doing. I pray that the presence of God will continue to shower you that you will be able to bless others that cross your path. I pray that God will bless you mentally, spiritually, financially, emotionally and physically all to His glory. God loves you so much and you will be blessed as long as you keep you eyes fixed on the Father and keep serving the Lord like you never have before. God is gonna use you and He has a divine purpose for your life. Since His presence is on you so heavy began to ask Him what your purpose is for your life and how and when you should begin fulfilling it. Talk to God daily. He's your Father in Heaven and he wants you to communicate with Him, afterall, it's to benefit you.\n\nBe Blessed
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This sense of loss you feel is real.Everyone grieves for diffferent periods of time.I can relate to how you feel since both my parents died almost 3 years ago. My dad was sick for some time and when he died it was almost a blessing to see him at peace.My mother dies 10 days later and it was such a shock.I tried to deal with my loss by talking about my feelings with my family.I found comfort in making a scrapbook about them. Sometimes it is the little things that will remind you of them. It may be hearing a song, seeing someone who vaguely resembles your loved ones, scents from perfume  or something so commonplace you associate it with your parents.These  memories while they give you sadness at first they later give you comfort when you realized you loved your parents and they loved you.I hope I can share a small prayer that I had read at my parent's funeral ."The Lord shall have their souls to keep, And I their fond memories when I sleep."
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I am facing this too. My husband is in the last stages of cancer. I will be praying for you. They tell me it takes time to recover from grief. If you have faith that God has a plan for your life, I think it helps. There are support groups to help us-people going through the same thing.
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All the time!  I've especially learned to lean on him in the last 2 years since my husband and I split up.  I've especially felt it through the people God has put in my life that have helped me through it.  There have been some really low times, but God has always come through. Sometimes He takes you right to the point where you don't think you can take it any more, then when He answers your prayers just in the nick of time, you realize He was there all along.  But your faith is stronger because of the struggle.  It's like exercising.  When you first start, it hurts, and you're sore all the time.  But if you stick with it it gets easier and you get stronger, and soon it doesn't hurt any more. I know I'm much stronger spiritually than I was 2 years ago.
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my mom passed away six years ago too. i have finally been able to put it behind me... instead of crying all the time and thinking of what i actually lost, i celebrate the life that she did have. i think about all the good times i had when she was alive. i'm not a religious person but i do believe that she is watching over me. \ntry talking to a counselor.. it helped me
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My dad had colon cancer a couple of years ago. He made it through and is now cancer free by the grace of God. Many people prayed for him and still do. I will pray for your dad. God made us and he can fix us if we only ask and believe.