Why am I only destructive when I have had very nice subject matter that is in a jam and everyone is yucky?
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Why do some people confuse obscure wordplay with being genuinely intelligent?
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Well, you have already nailed it pretty well, and under the circumstances you are doing a whale of a lot better managing this that I ever would! You're further ahead of the game than you realize. You are also tired and need a breather. You need to schedule some down time for just you. You are the one that is important here. And self care is job one. Always. You have been ambushed, so when that happens you always step back and regroup. And the best way to self care your way through this one is to be by or hang around yourself a little more. Find your center once again. Centering. A wonderful concept. And correct, too, on every level. Diet, bubble baths, rest, fresh air, cleaning your bedroom, checking your wardrobe and getting free of old stuff you will never wear again - in other words, spend a little time reinventing yourself. You are already pretty strong because you have a good mind with which to sort out all this foolishness and get your bearings, but the unfortunate truth in life is that when we are tired, anyone can take a whack at us and it is like they could blow us over with a feather. You can feel that sensitive, and it is because you are smart, really. It is the downside of being smart. You can be too sensitive. So when you find your center once again you will also find more strength to call this what it is: abuse. Others here on Yahoo! Answers are giving you some fine answers about actions you can take, but I am focusing solely on you taking care of you. Self care. Make more time to pamper yourself and start feeling good about who you really are, because look at what you are doing here: you are  working on your degree. I mean, my God, all this other chaff is just fuel. Be very alert and see it for what it is - a prime distraction and begin - just begin, to look for a better place to bring yourself for work. That does not, fortunately, need to be put in place before the end of the week. If worse comes to worse, you can just walk away. A social worker once told me, "Chris, sometimes all you can do is walk away." I never forgot that one. Under most circumstances, I get the impression you are normally extremely self-reliant and independent of mind, so it is probably just because this whole mess has worn you down a bit that feeling it is a lilttle rough on you right now. I am sending you good energies and my heart goes out to you hoping you find the perspective to see the bigger picture and put you back into it in the dignified and self-respecting way you rightly deserve. Get your self-esteem back intact and believe in who you really are. And for God's sake, get some rest. None of us thinks well when we are exhausted. The other thing is emotionally draining, and only time will heal that one.  God Bless You, too.     - Chris.
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I'll be your friend! Anytime! Don't worry, everyone feels like a loser at some point in their life. I used to, too. Then I kinda got over it and tried to be pestimistic at all times. I still feel like garbage sometimes, but hey, lifes good. Send me a message if you wanna talk and I'll give you my IM.
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i think everyone goes through that stage but usually when they're younger and only for awhile, you know? just try and remember that the world never revolves around a single person. psychologically, we are prone to think everyone is always focused on us, but in reality people have their own lives to worry about. do you constantly make fun of other ppl in your head? probably not. you have other stuff to do. so it's the same w/ other people. other things are more important to them. if this doesn't get better for you though, i would seek a professional. this sounds like a very consuming problem. good luck :)
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sadly yes and i live alone so i am getting really bad at being independant and not relying on others, this is bad.
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man i undestand totally where you are coming from...like you do your best to please them and its just not good enough. well i say if the best you ddi was good enough for you then you should be happy, b/c trying to please people that aren't going to be happy for you either way...is just a lost cause. it will cause more stress for you in the long run. All i can say is keep you head high, its hard, but be strong, you'll be a better person in the long run. and feel free to email me or yahoo messenger
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Yes, my past comes and bites me in the ass all the time...some days I wish I could have a "do over"..so I could make better choices...I know youre not feeling sorry for yourself, it's just so frustrating sometimes...like you want to scream"I'm Sorry, I'm trying my best, I'm not the same person !" Hang in there and keep making good choices and doing the right thing now...
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Everyone is unique in their own ways, fashions, and forms. We all have our story, none is alike. Why some people have a more difficult life than others, I cannot truly answer correctly other than saying that Our GOD works in mysterious ways and will never give us a cross we cannot bear. \n      You say that everyone around you is associated with something negative from your past. Facing your past is one step to turning bad things into positive things. You will always have bad things happen to you and around you, you will then have several different paths you can take on your journey through life. The way you let the negative affect you will directly affect what path you will take. Learn from the experience, try to find a way to turn it positive. Remember where there is an action, there is always a equal and opposite reaction. Keep your chin up. Trust me worrying about it doesn't help, live your life to the fullest. \n      Remember God is with you and will help you, pray and ask Him to give you guidance through your troubles.
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I'm sorry if you're experiencing something that's upsetting you so much that you hate most all people right now.  I hope it's not the way you feel on a daily basis.  That would be a tough existence indeed.\n\nI do not choose to define you by this one question, as most the rest of the answerers seem to have.\n\nYou may be interested to know - or you may already know - God has destroyed relatively large groups of people in the past who were involved in wicked things such as child sacrifice (as in the case of the Canaanites), debased sexual wrongs (as in the case of Sodom and Gomorrah) and extreme violence and physical abuse (as in the case of the flood) among other things.\n\nIt certainly is unfair that righteous, meek people must be constantly affected by people who choose to ruin themselves, others and this planet.  But the Bible, at Revelation 11:18, explains that God will soon "bring to ruin those ruining the earth."\n\nPsalm 37:10, 11, 29 says, "And just a little while longer and the wicked will be no more; and you will certainly give attention to his place and he will not be.  But the meek ones themselves will possess the earth and they will find exquisite delight in the abundance of peace...The righteous themselves will possess the earth and they will reside forever upon it."\n\nJust how many people on the earth today are "wicked" and how many are "righteous?"  We cannot know the number or the percentage precisely, but the Bible makes it clear that the majority of mankind is on the "wide and spacious road leading to destruction" and very few are on the "narrow and cramped road leading to life." (Matthew 7:13)\n\nHowever, you can gain a lot of peace by adopting God's view of the situation.  Though he will do what is necessary to clean up the earth and make life worth living for those who are willing to meet his requirements, "Jehovah is not slow respecting his promise, as some people consider slowness, but he is patient with you because he does not wish any to be destroyed, but desires all to attain to repentance." (2 Peter 3:9)\n\nIf you look at people causing you hardship or pain of any kind as people who potentially will eventually see the light of truth and make changes for the better, just like Saul who later became known as the Apostle Paul, you will find greater joy in life now.\n\nI highly recommend you get yourself a copy of the book called What Does the Bible Really Teach?  I'm sure it will help you deal with troubling situations and so far unanswered questions or unsatisfying answers you've received elsewhere.\n\nI wish you well!
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You are making yourself sick.  Stop letting other people get to you.  I had to develop an "I don't give a f***" attitude and I felt the weight of the world lifted off my shoulders.  Stop explaining yourself to people too.
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Sounds like you are having a tough time dealing with stuff.Try to keep busy. Enjoy  life with your family.My mum died a year agoand I still feel very sad but you just have to get on with life.I am undergoing grief counselling  so maybe you could dothe same. Your doctor might be able to put you in touch with someone that can help you resolve  issues dealing with death and also learning to overcome your fears about death. Take care.
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Maybe you could start doing some charity work, maybe they just think you are lazy, (no offence) But if they see you out and doing something, espically for needy people it might change their view of you. Also If you have hopes and dreams, then you have obviously have done alot of thinking about the stuff you like, so you could probably find something along the lines of the stuff you like to do. All for charity, plus you would be gaining experience for yourself/ your future, and inpressing your folks!
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I have been like this for a while now ,someone told me the worst thing you can do is worry about it so I don't.Keep writing things down and being organised and enjoy your life and have a laugh at yourself when you do something silly.There's worse things could be wrong with you.
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The bad and trouble times affected you the most, that's why it's easier to recall them. You should try to visualise the good times. \nYou are NOT abnormal.
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I think that everyone at least once in their life falls on some bad luck. \n\nIf you really are in a jam and are feeling overwhelmed then I would suggest going to your local Social Services department to ask for help. If you qualify, they can point you to a number of programs that can help you manage the money you do have better and give you assistance. They even offer job training through other county and state agencies.\n\nYou can also consider contacting your local church or religious organization for help. They often can be of great assistance. I have even heard of them helping people make a mortgage or car payment if they are in dire need.
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You need to see a shrink!\n\nStop hanging out with the rejects from the renaissance fair!\n\nYou have read to many books, and need to find a good group of friends to hang out with instead of stocking some dude!
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This is actually pretty common. A lot of people do this. It's not so much you're self-destructive, you're afraid of not meeting expectations. You need to be more in touch with yourself, see yourself as more than you do right now. Once you get that self-confidence up, you'll see you really do deserve a guy who worships you and adores you :)