My dad died and I`m not crying  but pissed off cauze....?
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Don't be afraid of your feelings - they aren't wrong. The difference can be how you react to them. You shouldn't have to pretend to be more upset than you. When I lost my dad, my siblings were all upset and a mess, but I felt like I knew it was coming although it was quick and sudden, and I loved my dad a whole lot. Hang in there, you'll feel better in time!
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No, I think it's a part of the whole grieving process.  When I lost my dad, I went through months of clinging to my mom and wanting to talk to her every day, etc.  The reality of losing your parents is what is scaring you; not you dying.  I'm sure you're sick of people telling you that it will get easier...honestly, it will.  I feel for you because of the holidays and all...it will be rough, but you will get through it.  Take care!
216778
Im very sorry about your neice.  I havent seen my dad since i was 5. i know how it feels
1000932
Oh shoot you're making me wanna cry. I prayed for you this morning and all people who have lost or never knew their fathers, or whose fathers are distant or absent.  YES my father is alive and over the years (I was bit by the acting bug a long time ago) if I needed to cry on cue, I'd think how I'd feel if I ever lost my Dad, the coolest most loving unique and original guy I've ever known. My dad had quadruple bipass surgery 2 years ago but is up and around still, thank God. His health is failing but I hope he stays around much longer.  I will call him right now to tell him again how much I love him.  I'll spend more time with him, too when I'm in my hometown to visit my family again next month. Thanks and God's Speed to You!
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Oh, I'm so sorry to hear about your Mom, but I think your response to honor her memory is awesome. Yes, it's quite normal, even after all the years have gone by. I just lost my Dad last month and I feel that he touched my life like nobody else ever could. I hope to feel that same way forever too. Memories are meant to cherish. Your Mom was lucky to have a devoted daughter like you. I think when we lose a parent it's a gap that no one else can ever fill. And it's important to pass along those memories and traditions to our children.
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I FEEL FOR YOU. I LOST MY MOM TO PANCREATIC CANCER. I TOO MISSED HER FINAL MOMENT ON THIS WORLD..IT'S NOT EASY.. BUT TALK TO PEOPLE DON'T HOLD ANYTHING IN. LET IT ALL OUT...GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!
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honey let me tell you something ok if you blame yourself stop doing that it ain't your fault ok. let the pain go away and remember the good times you guys had together keep the memories in your heart and never let them go. always see it this way God needed him to be an angel and that is what he is always now he is in a way better place and looking down on you and the family. I am really srry you had to go threw this and my heart goes out to you and your family and you all will be in my prayers as well take care of yourself.
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It is a sad thing to loose a parent.  It leave a mark on you and a pain that you really never get over.  I happen to be a funeral director and when I lost my parents, I went through the exact same thing.  I know it is of no comfort to you, but as time goes by, you will find that other things in your life keep you occupied.  You will never forget her, but in time God works a miracle in which the sharp pain associated with your loss gets a little less and you can reflect upon the joyous and happy times with a feeling of love and appreciation.  I know you probably find this hard to believe, and so did I, but it does happen.  My father died in 1987 and my mother in 1999, and at times is seems like it was only yesterday.  I hope you are able to find peace and understanding very soon.
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I'm so sorry for your loss.  When my dad died, I was comforted by the fact that he joined the "great cloud of witnesses" in heaven and that he could see me and cheer me on.  I'm sure that your popo would like to see you succeed in your life.  Think of him each day in a positive way and work to make him proud.  Remember the good times and focus on the good memories.  Ask your teacher(s) if there is any way you could do some extra credit to bring your grades back up.  You can do this -- one day at a time.
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Curious to read your answers as I just lost my Dad this week and feel the same as you.  My Dad was only 62 and suffered lots in the end.  We put our pets to sleep when they suffer a 10th of what my Dad went through.  I hope you are able to find a peaceful place in your heart.
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Well, life has it's tough roads. But the man upstairs will always guide you. You may feel lost and all alone, BUT YOU ARE NOT! As for the girl, GOOD RIDDENS! Remember, IT IS HER LOSS!!! NOT YOURS! Contact your lung associtionabout support groups in your area. As for the funeral, there was a reason you were kept from attending Only god knows the reason. If it really bothers you, write a nice letter to your dad telling him how you feel about missing the funeral. Then fold it up, Place it in an envelope and put away for safe keeping. Everytime you feel bad about dad, Pull out the letter and read it! DON'T GIVE UP!! keep going with school... Everything else will fall into place.
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I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a hard time.  I am also estranged from an abusive father, and I dont know how I would feel if he died.  I think about this all the time.  Perhaps the issue is that you never got a chance to resolve your situation with him.  Perhaps you're still waiting to hear him say 'I'm sorry'.  Or, more likely, you're not necessarily mourning for him, but for the father you never had and truly deserved.  I mourn for this all the time.
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My dad, but he died so I know he's not talkin
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well, for one, i am VERY sorry for the loss of your mom. I think you need a break from your family, before things get worse and time to heal your wounds. Try and prove to the police that your father is innocent, i am truely sorry this happened to your mother.\n\nget well.
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I am very sorry for your loss.  You must be devastated.\n\nIt will be hard to get over and move on right away.  Just take one day at a time.  Grief is very hard because sometimes it can feel as though you are being consumed by it.\n\nMake sure you keep the lines of communication open with any siblings you have.  Also if your dad is in the picture.  he may be hurting too and it may be hard for him to express his loss.\n\nDon't try to replace your mother for your siblings because it isn't your responsibility.  Also realize that you and your mother still have a special relationship even though she has died she is still with you.\n\nWhen my dad died I felt him with me.  Sometimes I know he is there watching over me.  Your mother's love for you will always be there.  Try to remember the good times that you had together and realize that those will never be taken away from you.\n\nDeath is a transitional state and you will be going through a transition to adjust to being without your mother.  Just let the emotions come, if you are sad cry, if you are happy laugh.  In time things will level out and you will be able to face the world.\n\nA counselor once told me that grief is like the waves of the ocean.  Sometimes they come in fast and furious, sometimes the grief is slow and gentle.  It is always there but after awhile the waves are slower and farther between.\n\nMay peace and love be with you and surround you.  I hope that you have the friends and support that you need at this time.  If you need someone to bounce things off of then please feel free to email me.
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I was always afraid of my father's death when I was growing up. My dad was my world (mom didn't want me so my dad raised me by himself). My biggest fear was him passing away. One night he left to go to the store for coffee, and was killed by a drunk driver. It hit me like a ton of bricks. No matter how much I tried to prepare myself for that day, it was nothing compared to how I actually felt. My world had crumbled the second that my step brother called me. I got depressed, and closed everyone out. No one understood me like my dad did. Everyone thought I had gone nuts, but it was my way of dealing with it. In two days it'll be three years since it happened. Things haven't been the same since. I got married and didn't have him there to walk me down the aisle, he never got to see his grandson. There's times I'm glad he's not here now because he would beat my husband to death for hitting me, and if he didn't then, he would've after we divorced. Anyways, the best advice I can offer is make the best out of every moment you spend with her and always cherish the times you've had with her. Her death is inevitable, and there is no way to prepare yourself. When it happens, talk to someone, anyone you think my have even the tiniest idea on how you're feeling. Talk about her because remembering her the way she was is the best way to deal with death. It won't get better immediately, but give it time. Since my dad's death I truly feel alone in this world, but I've found out that I do have some true friends who have helped me out through this. If you don't have someone you can talk to, if you like, you can IM me anytime...my yahoo ID is under my profile....think I'm making this too long winded as it is :D.
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I am so sorry to hear of your loss.  It's so hard when a parent dies.  My Dad just died last month.  My cousin told me that the first 2 weeks would be the hardest and he was right, but it may be different for everyone. Personally, I got so much strength from remembering him as the great person he always was. Think of all the wonderful memories and ways that you admired him. Everyday you'll find happy little reminders of him and that will help to ease your pain. Of course everyone needs a mourning period but it doesn't have to be a totally dark experience. Take time to remember the lighter parts of life you had with him.  I found that keeping myself busy helped me a lot too.  Please remember that he would want you to remember these times and to live the rest of your life as he would have lived his.  I hope this helps your transition.