Unlike most,on Mother's day I will be going to the cementary,anyone else in this painful  situation??
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I'm sorry for your loss, many Holidays must be very difficult for you. If you don't feel this is too strange , when you go to visit her on Mothers Day bring a blanket with you and just sit there for a while. My Dad died when I was 13 months old, so when I need to feel closer to him, I take a warm summer day {Hopefully Mothers Day will be warm} a blanket, maybe a book or photo album and visit. Its amazing how peaceful it might make you feel. I'm sure she loved you very much and I'm very sorry your still so sad. I hope the rest of your family is a support to you. Take care and best of everything to you.
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I'm sorry to hear of your loss. Yes, it is okay that you don't want to be a pall bearer. I think they will understand that you are just not up to doing so. may her memories comfort you at this sad time. \n\nTake Care!!
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I FEEL FOR YOU. I LOST MY MOM TO PANCREATIC CANCER. I TOO MISSED HER FINAL MOMENT ON THIS WORLD..IT'S NOT EASY.. BUT TALK TO PEOPLE DON'T HOLD ANYTHING IN. LET IT ALL OUT...GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!
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to me right now... it feels like love is digging my own grave :(
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I hate to say this, but you are probably up "sheep's creek without a paddle"!\nI am presently going through the same ordeal. My mom passed away and left a will, so we thought! Sometime in her last days my brother managed to coerce her into doing a new will that left him as power of attorney, executor of the will, and recipient of all her bank accounts! I knew for a fact that my mother was not capable "mentally" of doing this due to her condition! I protested to no avail and the court refused to budge unless I hired an attorney. The attorney wanted a $25,000 retainer fee that would "begin" the objection and more than likely result in a law suit against my brother that would have cost far more! It just wasn't worth the effort. However, with all said, the man above sees all and punishes those who go against his word! So in my heart I know his day is coming and we can all celebrate when the moment arises!!!!
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First, Im sorry that you are going through such a horrific experience. However, Your are comforting your mother in the best way possible. Telling her the truth helps her prepare and say and do the things she needs to before leaving this place. Your honesty will let her lay in peace and your love will keep her alive longer warm and happy!\n\nMy thoughts are are with you and your family! xoxox
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I am the mom, and am afraid it will be a very lonely day for me.  Some of my children live here and nearby, but either they must work or have other plans for the day.\n\nIt's okay, I know I'm loved--just would like to have a special day.
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Firstly I hope you have fun with your mother. Maybe something like this would make you feel better so that you won't have to be thinking about it during your visit:\nTalk to your father and make a back up plan. Of course I don't know how far it is from your mom's to the airport, that being said, perhaps you can make sure you have money for a cab to the airport, So if mom refuses you can call a cab.
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me omg its soooooooooooo painful
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Hey your story touched me so i thought i would take the time to answer it, at least as best as i can! x\n\nFirstly, it must be dreadful to feel empty and lonely-as in a sense, perhaps you feel like you have lost half of your identity, as obviousley your mum is half of your biological makeup-and half of you!\n\nBut on the opposide side of this, is the fact that in that sense, she will always be a part of you, as you are half of her, which should give you some comfort. You are one of the closest people to her; so when you feel lonely and down think about this!\n\nAlso Never say Never either, and keep an open mind! Who is to say there isnt an afterlife? Its best not to think pessimistic, and say that you will never see her again. If she died, perhaps she died for a reason and is no longer in pain and is in peace.\n\nTry to talk to a close member of your family who would perhaps understand. Try not to dwell on the past and embrace the family that you have presently. At the end of the day your mum is in your heart and is a part of you, and that will never fade.\n\nxx
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It is a sad thing to loose a parent.  It leave a mark on you and a pain that you really never get over.  I happen to be a funeral director and when I lost my parents, I went through the exact same thing.  I know it is of no comfort to you, but as time goes by, you will find that other things in your life keep you occupied.  You will never forget her, but in time God works a miracle in which the sharp pain associated with your loss gets a little less and you can reflect upon the joyous and happy times with a feeling of love and appreciation.  I know you probably find this hard to believe, and so did I, but it does happen.  My father died in 1987 and my mother in 1999, and at times is seems like it was only yesterday.  I hope you are able to find peace and understanding very soon.
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You are not alone. I will pray for you to find the strength to be the kind of person you know you can be, loving, caring and giving. I pray that you can overcome your addiction to drugs, that are clouding your vision of being a loving mother. Remember God is with you at all times. Please pray for me also. God Bless You and keep you safe.
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my dear my heart goes out to you and your family, i know exactly well no i cant say i kn ow how u feel we all grieve in our own ways, visit my website a page i dedicated to my mother in the sources below, maybe this will help? i dont know, but its been 5 years this year since my mother has passed im am 28, your heart will mend in time, ask God to help you through your tough times, its not gonna be easy but he will be there for you when you are down I PROMISE IF U DO SEE MY WEBSITE PLEASE SIGN GUESTBOOK, AGAIN MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU AND UR FAMILY WELL IM TRYIN TO PUT MY HOMEPAGE BUT IF U WANT TO KNOW IT JUST PM ME ON YAHOO WITH THIS PROFILE NAME OK THANKS
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LOL @ Pagan.\n\nI'm sorry you are stressed but you did bring this on yourself. Pray will do nothing. Take responsibility for your actions, keep your legs closed and be the best mother you can for your children. You are your own strength
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same as yours! i feel your pain, its hard!
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Yes I am sad because I was there and have to go all the way back into Boston today.....
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Well it doesn't sound like she's the "listening" type. So even if you tell her that she's hurting you it may not make a difference but its worth a try. Do you have any nearby relatives? maybe you should take some time to breathe also. Remember you are only sixteen and may not be mature enough to make a life changing decision so be careful because it may upset her. Also remember that you only get one mother and should respect and cherish the one you do have even when they're intolerable. Don't keep this bottled up inside express your feelings freely but respectably and may God bless you in doing so. Good Luck!