Why do I cut myself underpressure and thinking about the past?
599151
You souldn't cut ur self. it's gonna make something bad happen or something. I'm sorry ur parents are decorced, but don't get urself in the middle of it. it's not like it's ur fault!
192898
Maybe it's like, you're wanting to rid yourself of all baggage and anything that is weighing you down, and just running away from it. (in this case, the clothes are representing everything that you regret... because I suppose in some sense clothes DO weigh you down.  You could move much better with out them.)  That is actually really interesting.  You want to get away from everything that is holding you back from moving on... but, i'm not a psychologist so if you want to hear a professional idea, you could always go to one.  I wonder if they've heard things like that before?  I bet they have!
96039
Why did you have to bring that up?  I'm having flashbacks now and I have to go throw up.\n\nNo, no long term scars.
1070486
I'm making a guess here, but you may be suffering from a form of panic attack syndrome.  It's been my experience that with PAS, people will oftentimes develop an irrational fear that springs from one identifiable event (or not so easily identifiable) that hits them with such force  that from then on, a feeling of dread comes over them each time they find themselves in a similar situation.  I had a friend who would clutch every time they were driving, but only when they went over a long bridge.  Another person I knew, who couldn't have been a more loving mom, had a thought once of picking up scissors and doing something to her child. She was mortified, but now can't completely get the offending thought out of her mind.  Is this what you're experiencing with driving.  If so, think seriously about this question:  was there a defining moment when you were driving or thinking about driving that this thought of killing someone or getting killed yourself "swept" over you?  I've discovered with PAS, that you might have had similar thoughts before and easily dismissed them, but at a particularly vulnerable point the same thought has much greater sway over you, and is frightening at that point.  What makes it frightening is that along with the thought comes the PANIC ATTACK or sense of dread, and we react to the instigating thought in a much more fearful way because of the sensation of panic that attends the thought.  Why it becomes difficult is that we often lose sight of the initial moment when this PANIC(or dread) first hit us, and especially fail to notice that we may have been uniquely (for us) vulnerable at that moment due to prior lack of sleep, excess caffeine intake, outside stress, painful life events, etc. Hope this wasn't too rambling an answer, but the things that best helped me were 1) letting the "feeling" that comes along with the fear wash over me rather that fighting it or trying to shut it off - it loses its sting that way, or 2) the proper antidepressant.
346664
you shouldn't cut yourself.\n\nAre you doing it for attention?\n\nIf you're doing it when you're angry, you need to find another way to control your anger.  For example, get a punching bag and go crazy on it (or just a pillow works too).
971062
Hello: I would like to make a suggestion. If at all possible please look for a therapist. I'm not suggesting this to be rude. You say that there was a lot of fighting in your life as a child. That is emotional abuse. Yelling, name calling, fighting, screaming matches that is abuse. If you are having flashbacks and repressed memories to me as a survivor of abuse both emotional, and other it seems like there are things that maybe you need unburden your heart with. There seems like there could be a lot of pain to perhaps work out. I have P.T.S.d and flashbacks are something that I deal with  I have anxiety and I have repressed memories. I encourage you to please talk to someone. A pastor, relative, friend, or therapist. Please for if nothing else at all then to help with your blood pressure. I have worked through many problems and still have a long way to go. If it seems like I am reading to much in to this then perhaps I could be. It just sounds like something is troubling your heart.\nGood Luck and I'll keep you in thought and prayer.
819794
Yes, most definitely. What concerns me now is that you ask "if GOING through something traumatic".......which indicates to me you are still in the middle of this traumatic event. i would strongly suggest talking to a professional to begin helping you while you are going through this. I have been through it and it is painful to be in the middle and to suffer. Please take good care of yourself.
1069540
you are very depress and hurt behind something that has happen in your life or you are just a hateful individual that only See's the negatives things in life or in a person . your self-esteem is extremely low and you don't think so much about yourself or even love yourself . talk to your doctor , or even your parents someone in the family that will listen to you or even someone from church . please get help . or you could be bi-polar . talk to your doctor and tell him everything you told us here . wish you the best & good luck . god bless you .
988431
You have said it in the first line of your question here, that this problem seems to be based on your past. You seemed to have been wounded by something that has already happened before. Its best you sit and think. Go back to that part of your past and mentally think as to what you could have done to make things better. I know doing so will be painful but it is something that you must do in order to ease the pain. Continuous suspicions, mistrust issues are not to be looped over such a long period of time, especially when you have beautiful people around you who I am positive are caring and concerned more than you know. There is absolutely nothing to be afraid of and most of all there's nothing more frightening than fear itself. Another question here from my side is why is it that you are afraid to love? I am asking this because we all know that what you give is definitely what you get back in return. If you provide love and affection, it is guaranteed that it will come back to you too. If you have any further questions or need someone to talk to, please don't hesitate to e-mail me. Remember, there are so many wonderful people around and you should give them a chance before you can think of anything else. Before that, please try and do what I've mentioned earlier about looking back and thinking for a moment. Until then, take care. :)
138957
Sounds like you are having typical thoughts for somebody your age where you realize that you are not going to live forever and wonder if you have wasted your life. You see that the time you have left is getting shorter and there is so much you would still like to do.\n\nSometimes when we get older, we have to realize that it is probably too late to do anything earth shattering or to undo the things we regret. Still you are young enough to put your energies into helping those around you and shining where you are.
395814
It's alot more than just cutting yourself. Many people do it because you need to feel, and they become emotionally numb. Self Injury, SI, is common believe it or not, many people do not advertise the scars or use medicine to help heal the wound to cover it up. All of my scars can easily be covered by shorts and a tee shirt. The worst thing you can do is be negative to the person. It sometimes is the only thing that can make you feel alive! I do not agree it is about the pain, most of the time you do not feel pain, it is more about the blood. People who SI usually do it more than once, they dont die the first time. A common misconception is that is is a call out similar to suicide. SI does not mean the person is suicidal! SI is different for many people, men and women both SI. If you are interested in more information I have included a website below that should help. The website was written by SI's for SI's and their families and friends. I'll put this question on my watch list if you have anymore questions please ask.
724478
Hi honey,\nI've been there where you are. You really need to talk to someone - a friend or family member or a doctor about what's going on, both in terms of what you're doing and your feelings that are leading you to do this in the first place. Sometimes when you're cutting you can cut deeper than you intended to, especially if you're really angry and get carried away. Please don't go there because the consequences can be awful. At best you'll be scarred for life and at worst it doesn't bear thinking about. \nI don't know what it is that's making you feel down now - sometimes just being a teenager can be really stressful. But do remember that even if things feel bleak at the moment you have got your whole life ahead of you and lots of potentially happy times to come.\nSometimes getting out and doing some exercise is good to relieve tension - so maybe try swimming or tennis, whatever you like to do. Also I've found that a healthy diet can also help - I know it sounds boring but cutting down on sugary or junk food and increasing fish and fresh fruit and veg in your diet.\nWhen you feel like cutting - try and distract yourself or do something nice for yourself. Sometimes calling a friend can just make you snap out of that mood. Remind yourself of all your good points. If this doesn't work then some people say crushing ice in your hands can create the same sensation but is not dangerous.\n Sometimes when you might feel like cutting its because you feel frustrated that you're not perfect in someway - but remember nobody is and we all have the right to live on this earth and look for happiness and don't deserve to be damaged.\n Take Care
334643
No you are not weird for doing this. There are, it seems, quite a few people on here who do. The reason most people self harm is because they haven't found a way to self sooth. Like when we were kids and had our favorite blankie or stuffed animal. Some where along the way we forgot how to sooth ourselves in a good way. I believe many people self harm because they lack assertiveness. Being able to tell people how you really feel without feeling guilty or worrying your going to hurt them is important in allowing your feelings out instead of holding them in and hurting yourself. Don't be ashamed of your scars, if they are still there years later, once you have stopped someday, look them and it can be a reminder of where you were and where you will never go again.
388913
For some reason, self injurious behavior is very addicting. Once you start, it's very hard to stop. I started cutting when I was 12--I'm now 28 and still fight the urge.  Since you just started, you need to work really hard at stopping.  If you feel like you really need help, you need to reach out to an adult that you trust and can talk to.  When you feel the urge to cut, call a friend or find another outlet---sports, drawing, working out, music, writing your feelings down, hobbies.  You need to get control over this now because the longer you do it, the harder it is to stop.\n\nI have an adult friend who also cuts.  She cuts to the point of having to go to ER.  So, this is very serious--if you don't gain some control, it'll control you and only get worse.\nIf you're suicidal, you really need to talk to your parents.  You may need some different meds.\n\nPlease find someone you can reach out to! And never feel like people don't/can't understand because there are many people who do this.  You're not alone.\n\nBest of luck to you!\n\nhttp://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/injury.html\nhttp://www.focusas.com/SelfInjury.html\nhttp://teenagerstoday.com/resources/articles/mutilate.htm\nhttp://www.coolnurse.com/self-injury.htm
846919
That is a difficult thing to do.  Every time you feel yourself go back to the past, stop, tell yourself to let it go and maybe that will help.  If not, maybe talk to someone?  I hope you can work it out.  Don't be TOO hard on yourself.  Peace!
1078586
The bad and trouble times affected you the most, that's why it's easier to recall them. You should try to visualise the good times. \nYou are NOT abnormal.
914869
it's common to think about it.  I did for a long time, then when it finally happened, I was relieved and a few months later, I wished I could go back in time.\nTry getting into a sport or activity.  If you aren't good at sports, (I never was) then try writing or keeping a diary of your thoughts...or get a boyfriend, they are a great way of keeping your mind off all those things in life.