Early highschool, I was a really bad anoerxic/bulemic.  Late highschool, I got healthy.  I went to college, graduated, and had been in a steady relationship for over 2 years.  I just broke up with that guy (I was unhappy).  I think its just the fact that I'm single now... I've been falling back into that behavior, I KNOW its unhealthy and disgusting.  I've purged 3x this week.  And once the week before.  I don't want to spiral down that road again.  But its like the only thing I have control of. The rest of my life is really good, I have good friends, ok relationship with my family, I work alot. I guess I don't do "Single" well.  I considered going to the doctor for help, but I'm scared they'll just laugh at me.  I don't really know what to do.  I would like some advise/words of wisdom.
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I can totally understand what you are saying.  All through high school i had really bad bulemia. Defintely go and see your doctor, no way they will laugh at you.  In fact if i hadnt gone to see my doctor when i did, I have no doubt in my mind i would not be here today. This is something i think you should discuss with your family, when you are going through something such as bulemia or anorexia its important to have your familys support to help you through it.  Good Luck
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Sounds like you are just very upset over the break up. Surround yourself with positive people and things. Do something nice for yourself to take your mind off it. \n\nThe boost or ensure is a good idea. I personally like smoothies when I can't eat. Easy on the system and you get good protien that your body needs. \n\nBest wishes and take care of yourself. hugs.
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I don't want to be critical, but I want to be honest in my answer.\n\nI had this same fear after my 2nd marriage ended.  Thank goodness I had a dear friend who saw what I was experiencing and helped me rebuild my self-esteem and helped me "find myself".  I realized that I was not happy with myself and that I needed to be before I got involved again.  This was not a quick process.  And it was a lonely one.  But I thank God every day that I went through it.  When I quit looking and found out that I actually liked myself, I found a great guy.  He and I are no longer together, but I found that I am a complete person without a man.  This has given me a whole new perspective on life and relationships.  Since then, I have met and dated a much higher quality of men.  The man I'm seeing now is a wonderful and thoughtful man who is a good father and is concerned about the people around him.  This is want I wanted and what found me.\n\nI hope my experience can help!
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I totally understand what you are going through. I've found that the best medicine is just get extremely busy doing what you like doing, spoil yourself, take more time for YOU. Deciding that you do not have to have a boyfriend, but keeping your heart open if a wonderful man just happens to walk into your life soon! I went through what you are going through a year ago, and now I am married to my best friend and the most wonderful mate I could ever have asked for, and we are truly in love!!! So never give up on your dreams to find the right mate, and meanwhile just enjoy life!!!                                                  You will find that the perfect mate was waiting around the corner for you. So just love yourself and love others and be the best person you can be right now. Have fun, life is what you make of it!
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being bulimic is said to be a mental disease. you should really talk to someone about it, because tryin to fix it by yourself wont help. you need an outside help. its good that you want stop from a early stage. just get help and fight it, and be determined. it seems like youll be ok, but plese get help.
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I've done that in the past 3 years.  You need to find yourself again.  Me and my ex-wife split and I had a difficult time getting on my feet.  But I eventuly did and everything is great now.  I'm going back to college and trying to make my life better.  Maybe a little to prove I can.  It may take time but don't give up and always remember you are a great person and can do great things.
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Geographical Cure....ever heard of it?  This is when your life is crappy where you are, so you think moving away from all the mess will make things better.  Before you make a big move, really assess your motivation for leaving your family and all you know to change your life completely.  Is it because of a relationship break up?  Is it because you've done something that you feel badly about and can't face people?  If the problem is within yourself, you'll just be taking the problem with you wherever you go.  Think twice and if need be, get some help to discover why you want to walk away from your current life.  Good Luck.
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i know how you feel cuase i maybe just getting out of that right now...\n\nsee i haven't had a real boyfriend for almost 2 years  and about two weeks ago i asked a guy that is a grade younger out, he said yes becuase i knew he really liked me.. we went out for a week then i said i am just a lil over welmed by the feeling and just need to take a lil break.. after a while he started talking to my friends and practically the whoiole school found out we liked each other and now everyone considers us to be dating...  and we just kinda go with everyone cuase everyone else thinks it is great now im not so overwelmed with the feeling... i think the overwelming i use to feel was that i was afraid of being heartbroken again.\n\ndon't worry you will grow out of the feeling a lil while after you begin dating.. depending on however your emotions work..\n\nnothing to really worry about
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Sounds like you may be a bit clinically depressed -- probably should speak to your physician, or at least a trusted family member or friend about this, as it is most unhealthy to continue this type of isolative behavior long-term!  GOOD LUCK!
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I'll toss ya a shovel so you can dig your way out! It sounds like your having a wild ride! I know from some of my close friends how bad depresion can be! But there's not much you can do! I advise to ride it out, or try and think of all the good times you've had without guys, or just the good times ytou've had in general! You seem like a stong, intelligent, young girl, and i'm sure you can through it! Just don't give up, and keep on digging your way out!
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You have been supportive of his ventures, please listen to me i have done this for my man for 12 years and i resent it very much. I feel i have nothing for my self, we almost split up not long ago and realized i had nothing for my self not even a job. Now i have decided to rebuild a life for me as well, he is supportive of it now but i don't thing he likes it very much. Go back to school do what you have to do. He will come to terms with it.
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You'll have the best luck if you employ the assistance of a councellor experienced in eating disorders.\n\nI believe that Bulemic impulses are in large part influenced by psychological factors that include self-esteem and also a strong sense that too many things in life that are important to you are beyond your control.  What you allow your body to consume is often one of the few things that a person can truly control and can thus become a focus of that psychological need.\n\nPsychologists have been dealing with eating disorders for a long time now and that is one area that they no longer struggle to treat effectively.\n\nYou do need to find one you feel comfortable with though.\n\nPlan on visiting two or three regardless of how they strike you, just so you can feel like you chose one you have nice chemistry with.\n\nChances are also really good that this new relationship will end up benefiting you in other areas of your life over the years and be a really positive addition to your support network.\n\nGood luch!
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You would have broken up even if you weren't sick.. She was honest with you and obviously she doesn't wish to support you in your bad times. You must feel very bad now. I think it's better like this, because if she was supporting you, she wouldn't have been honest with you..(and she would break up when you feel better)..Try to search the support of your friends and family or even a psychotherapists. \n\nI'm sorry to hear you're ill - have you considered to start with macrobiotics?
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I used to be like that and all of my friends tried to help me but it was something that I had to learn on my own.  I went through a hard break-up and then I didn't even think about guys for around 6 months.  Now I have a new man and I'm happy but I realize that I could make it on my own and be happy w/out a man.  My situation may be different that your friend's though.
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Don't have any regrets.  Your heart was in the right place, but you are definitely on the right track by keeping it real with yourself.  Definitely do not jump into another relationship yet.  Just chill and someone who will love you for you and not for what you can do for them will just show up one day and you'll be able to breathe again.
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Yes, my past comes and bites me in the ass all the time...some days I wish I could have a "do over"..so I could make better choices...I know youre not feeling sorry for yourself, it's just so frustrating sometimes...like you want to scream"I'm Sorry, I'm trying my best, I'm not the same person !" Hang in there and keep making good choices and doing the right thing now...
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I stayed with my dad until he died.  He wanted me to be safe and to take care of me and me of him.  So it worked out fine.  I was not ready to be independent and that was best for me to do in my situation.  I know other people may have looked down on me but that is their problem.  Just because I was not married or independent did not mean that I was stupid or crazy.  They did not and do not know me to judge me.  I did what I wanted and what was best for me.  Then I realized that as my dad got older and in worse health, that he needed me because he would have been all alone and could not be alone as his illness progressed.  One day he told me that he wanted me to stay and not to marry until he died.  That did make me feel good and useful and have a little more dignity when others would say things to me.  But all in all, I would not have changed a thing.  So you do what is best for you.  Your family is the most important thing, if they are good to you, so treasure them.  You will be out and on your own one day when you marry or find a boyfriend or go to college or move for other reasons.  So, do what is best for you. I think that you are lucky.  :)