I know some of us are familiar with, the everyday mortal confusion,  when existence really has you at the end of your wits, as well as you began to think that life has cancelled those happy little thoughts for you, in addition to think that somehow God may have forgot all about you. As well left you as fodder for the Devil, and he is giving you all the pain of life, sorrow of love, resentment of trust. Your soul, you would gladly give him for a day of peace and the life you grow so enviously desire for, and from out of nowhere, you feel some force touch you, a force that wipes away tears and lets you know that things will be ok! I know with the strongest convictions truly believe that Angels defend us every second of the day from the crap cakes of life, I believe, do you? sorry for my rant!
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i believe that we, ourselves are as you call them, angels. yes, there is evil in the world, but there is this amazing capacity in eveything and everyone for so much good! i think that in the very smallest acts, others can uplift souls, mend broken hearts, and draw those who have ever known naught but darkness into the light of life, and the joy and sorrow it brings daily.i do not pretend to know anything about what lies beyond our small understanding of the world around us, but yes, i do believe in angels. just the everyday kind.
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I lost my oldest son just over 5 years ago.  He was murdered.  I am still not over it & never will be.  The best thing I can tell you is turn to your religion.  That has helped me.  I think God gives us answers on how to go on without our loved ones in everyday things.  Like, this might sound wierd to most, but sometimes I hear (in the back of my mind) my son talking to me or answering a question that I've only asked myself.  I take it as he's giving me advise.  I think I'm living life as my son would have wanted me to live it.  I'm making decisions that if he were here & I'd asked him for his advice, they are ones that he's tell me.  I don't know hon, life goes on & so must we.  Sorry to hear about your loss.  A son, aunt, mother or father, its never easy & nobody has all the answers.  Just take it day by day.  You'll have good ones & bad one.  I've learned to deal with it cause all the tears & sorrow or angry feelings isn't going to bring my son back, just make me a bitter person.  He wouldn't have wanted that.  He was a good young man, 23 at the time & had his whole life with a wonderful career in his sites.  He was brutally murdered.  We just had the trial back in September '05.  It still hurts but like I said... he would want me to do just what I'm doing... trying to be the best person I can be.  Good luck to you sweetie!
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Dear Kat,\nWords are so inadequate. I want you to know that I am thinking of you and praying for you. I don't know why some people seem to get way more pain and anguish dealt to them in their lives. I don't think God is doing it to you, my belief is that sorrows are part of life on earth, just like death. No one lives forever, no one is happy all the time. You have been blessed with a wonderful marriage it sounds like, and I pray it goes on for many more years, but at least you know that you have known real love and been loved in return. That is a truly marvelous thing and pretty rare, I think.\nChildren are not supposed to predecease their parents and yet they often do. I wonder, was your daughter very close to you? Because she may be glad now that she is in heaven, helping to prepare a place for you.  I was devastated when my mother died, even though I knew that was the natural order of things, and couldn't even mention it without breaking down into tears for the first ten years afterwards. Forgive me for speculating here. I don't know you at all, of course.  But you sound like a loving, caring woman, whose family is blessed to have you. You are probably the rock everyone depends on, not realizing that you need a shoulder to cry on just like everyone. Well, come here anytime. I will look to see how your husband and uncle are doing. God bless you and keep you, I know He will never forget you in your time of need.
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Wow sorry about your perception, allow me to change a few things, as i did not intend to seem hateful.\n\n most Christians believe that where God is absent, evil lies. Do i mean this to you directly? well, lets say i reviewed your Q&A and 360 before my post. You basically say you are demon possessed.  Does this mean that you have absence of God in your life, yes i believe so, so im just im just sharing a common general belief there right? no need to feel defensive, honestly.  We could all be closer to God.\nsecondly here i write,\n\n"You poor thing, you have serious issues, its no wonder, you wont let the true LOrd Hold you and save you and coddle you and share his peace and love with you, well how can you expect to be nurtured? and grow into the wonderful being that he planned for you?"\nHave you pushed the Lord away? I know you have, and  I want you to know that you can have all of the above if you let Him in. Does a part of me tell myself that you need that? Yes it does. I see you as hurting. and let me say on a kind gentle note, you dont have to, there are better ways than the sarcastics stated below.\n\n"Now go alienate yourself from all that is Good, take the EASY way; without question,listen to the LIES, deny the ache and stench in your heart, youll feel much more comfortable im sure. "\n\nsarcastic as heck here sweetie do you understand why? Because I have looked at your Q&A,and 360, i am not reacting blindly to this question alone as i would just be sharing what everone else tries to share, to save you, that you are OBVIOUSLY not hearing, anyway.\n\nso i got your attention....GOOD.\n\nSo I peek into who you are and i see, "demon posessed, my demon masters child, death rocks" attitutude.\nand i say,\n"and of course youre nice honey, nice always comes when manipulation is needed,"\n\nguess what? its the truth, generally speaking, it is, and  do i feel it would apply to you, heck yes, it applies to ALL, people dont even realize it.  They sugar coat crap all the time to get the desired outcome, and this too does not come from God.\n\nI hope and pray you have good in you, but isnt that difficult with the demon ruling and all? doesnt he want to make it all about you? if that part of you can undertand good is still in there, bring it out sister, Get strong, and fight, do you realize what bondage you are in?  If you dont think its that easy its because your head is filled with lies.\nI, pregowtwins promise never to fill someones head with lies or spew hatred, but do you know that?\nI wont however pity you or speak  to you condescendingly. You are not a baby, and I (nor was Jesus for that matter), not a pushover.\n\n\n"look at the answerer above me, awww, how true and heartfelt are his comments, he could surely be your best friend."\n\nwell thats just as clear to day as me. Look whos side hes on?\n\nand do you understand in closing that if you..\n "Trust the lies, believe in the false power, there is so much more to gain right?"\n\nyes a bit sarcastic, but you know, you seem pretty steadfast in who you are.\n\nUmmmmm, No.  \nPray for Truth, it will literally set you freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.\n\nBest advice i can give. To me its all about TRUTH, and no i wont sugar coat it, i dont have to, if you cant see it, then youve truly, and respectfully got to deal. No one can save you from the enemy but yourself.\n\nNow if you truly want to know how to do that, if theres something good inside, that wants out, i can "help" you. But you need to fight the Battle, and it  wont be easy. \nGods grace is free, it costs nothing, no price, but its the renewing of your mind, and learning to discern that might be rough.\nyou know the enemy wants you to have and to hold, \nbut trust me, God wants you more, Hes your REAL Father, and He wants you home. you  stated i hate you, but i dont. do i love you, as much as i love myself.  but God, honey he  loves us MORE. look to Him, not
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I can somewhat say that I understand how you feel or where you are coming from.  But you know, we shouldn't be living only for the riches of this world. God is still looking over you, do not be fooled by the devil trying to make every problem seem like the end of your life as though you are all alone in the world and no one cares.  He thrives at that.  The Holy Spirit is there, right with you.  Please talk to Him right now and ask Him to make His presence felt.\n\nAt times, I've have to do some silly things just to see if God was still listening to my prayers.  Once I asked Him to send down a piece of plain white cloth from no where. Less than a minute later I saw a beautiful all white bird flying down to my bedroom window. That was so comforting, even though I was going through the toughest time in my life.  I just knew that God was with me and loves me.\nRemember this...\nHeb 11:13 All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth.\n\nI'll make you another example.  My grandma prayed for over 35 years for my grandpa to be saved. Everyone thought she was crazy (including their children). But one morning, I saw him take all his expensive bottles of whiskey and pour them out on the drain. From then on, he never looked back.  He loved the Lord till his death.  \n\nJesus Loves You and I do too
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I think some people simply feel like they have reached the end of their rope and have no choice but to take their own lives. I do not believe God has left them, I think they are to depressed to realize his presence. He aches for each and every one of his children as they are tested and he hopes we all pass each test as that is what makes our faith stronger. But for those who do not pass it or who bow out of the competition, I think he takes into consideration your state of mind at the time and your overall existence while you were here. I do not believe he automatically sends that person to Hell. My daughter was 13 when her 14 year old boyfriend shot himself in the head. I believe God knows what pain that child was going through and would take him into Heaven and give him comfort from whatever it was that weighed so heavily on his thin young shoulders. I hope this helps some.
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I see this poem as a heart felt poem with a lot of deep sorrow, If this is your life experience I am very sorry that this has happened to you.\nLoosing a child can be very painful, which I'm sure it would be for you if this is what happened, for you but I would also like to say to you that the true and Almighty God is aware of and feeling your pain in compassion and that is also the reason for his promise, many people who have gone or are going through a similar experience, and asking why?This promise I just spoke of is found in Revelation Ch21:verse4)and it is a very heartwarming one where God promises to wipe away every tear from mankind's eyes, and that he will actually swallow up death, mourning and sorrow,and pain will be no more.The dead will be resurrected to life again becoming conscious again, is this not a wonder full promise from a very loving God, who cares very deeply for us, and our pains even past experiences will have gone from our minds, and the ones that caused those pains will be punished, so any who have perpetrated pain to others, will be dealt with justly
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i feel sorry 4 u coz nothing can be more difficult than the absence of love , true and pure love , in our life , but just think about it this way , God would never chose the bad thing 4 us , so maybe it isn't the time yet and who knows , you may be living next to " the one " i believe that all it takes is some patience and the ability to make right choices
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I think that we all struggle in our faith one way or another. Questioning God's existence doesn't really cross most of our minds. We may question why He allows things to happen or we may even question our own Christian walk and our relationship with God. My pastors -and I've had a few in my life -haven't been perfect. In fact there was one who was my Dad's boss that treated his underlings shabbily and used the church vehicle for personal business. I think he may've even taken some of the better donations given to the church for his own. I do know that he was eventually caught by his bosses with his hand in the cookie jar and in adultery. He was speedily fired. As for weird things in a worship service? I recall visiting a Charismatic service to see what it was like. I met one of those pastors who held rather rambunctious healing services. You know the type.; they call you forward for healing even though you haven't volunteered or asked for it. He claimed -a few times- to be given a word of knowledge about some type of secret sin in some person's life. I found this made me extremely uncomfortable because I do not believe that God would humiliate an individual in this manner. Nor do I think that Jesus would compel anyone to come for healing. God is a Gentleman, and He never forces Himself on anybody. Neither should His servants
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Have you ever read about Job.  He went through many many many trials and he still prevailed.  I know life can be rough at times and unfortunatly you will continue to go through hard times, they really never end.  But remember, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.  Turning away from your faith would be the wrong thing to do.  It's not that God isn't listening or answering your prayers.  He does listen and he will answer them.  God loves you very much, even when no one else seems to.  You should try talking to your preacher or someone in your church that you can trust. Tell them how you are feeling.  I suggest getting a prayer partner, someone who will help you pray for your needs.  Try smiling as much as you can today.  That will make you feel better too.  Good luck and God bless.
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I admire people who think like you! You have painted the current turmoil in world beautifully in words. I am also wondering whether the answer lies in RELIGION, POLITICS or HUMAN FOLY in itself. I also agree that life is too precious and too short for squables.
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You are Blessed to know god. Some are not Gods own for some reason they choose to go through life in limbo. But remember God loved you first, and we cannot  change any one, but our self ,but God can. He changed me. So keep praying for the salvation of many souls.
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Several years ago I had an unusual experience concerning an uncle, a distant relative who lived over a thousand miles away. \n\nWhile driving my car I suddenly felt the unmistakable presence of this relative that I hardly even knew. He was more like someone I had heard about than someone I knew. It was very strange; it felt as though I was momentarily lifted right out of my physical body. I seemed to be suspended somehow beyond space and time, bathed in a love so intense It felt like I could have just disappear into it at any moment if It would have let me. It only lasted for a few seconds, but it seemed to last forever at the same time. I realize how crazy this must sound. The experience was so strong that at first I was afraid I was loosing my grip on reality. I finally managed to chalk it up to an over active imagination.\n\nThree days later I got a call from my aunt telling me that this uncle we are talking about had gone into a coma and died the day I had the experience. It felt like ice water had been poured down my back when she told me this. I had lost any real ideas of God or faith and had become somewhat of an atheist. Needless to say this experience caused me to rethink some of the conclusions I had come to. \n\nI feel blessed to now understand that even in our darkest confusion something loves us so much that it went out of its way to assist me and bring me back to a state of absolute certainty about Gods love for us.\nDuring the experience it seemed like there was a vast amount of information that I was somehow allowed access to. One thing that I came away from this experience understanding beyond any shadow of a doubt was that any Idea that God is unhappy with us or would judge or allow us to be punished for any reason is simply impossible. \n\nI can’t explain the love I felt with words. They simply don’t make words big enough or complete enough to do this. The only way I can begin to convey this love to you is to say that there was simply nothing else there. Nothing but love. No hint of judgment, no displeasure of any sort. It is as though God sees us as being as perfect as we were the day we were created. It is only in our confused idea of ourselves that we seem to have changed.\n\n I hope this is of some help to you. Good luck. Love and blessings. \n\nYour brother don
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Dear Brown Sugar...My dear, stop listening to the ignorant rantings of a few...it's not "cool" to get on your knees and pray to our Creator who ALLOWS us to breathe and live! Everyone wants some "sign"--perhaps a note on their pillow at night saying,"HEY! I'M GOD! I'M REAL! WON'T YOU BELIEVE ME???" GOD ALMIGHTY has GIVEN US PROOF! Look around you! Do people really believe the magnificent Human Body just happened on it's own? The Brain just FORMED ON IT'S OWN? Yeah, right...and my car just assembled itself--no maker, it just came together out on the road--you would think I was crazy!!! What about the STARS,MOONS, AND SUNS? AN ACCIDENT OF STUPID NATURE? PLEEEEEAAAASSSSEEE!!! I think we are a bit more intelligent than that--at least I do! Of course, there is another being who loves you to keep on having no hope for your life...and he is very clever in disguising himself as a "god". Demons are real, too....and they have many believing life is hopeless and going nowhere. But I tell you now YOU MATTER! What you do in this life DOES have consequences! But they don't have to be BAD! GOD WANTS TO GIVE YOU AND ME THE UNIVERSE!!! That is the absolute truth!!! But He won't give it to rebellious,hateful,disobedient people! He's ALREADY BEEN THROUGH THAT WITH SATAN!
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Like you I pray daily that God would lift me into his arms and carry me home; but then he reminds me that he's not through with what he has for me to do.  I have seizures, as many as 4 to 5 a day, and therefore may lose as many as six hours a day of memory - it is very hard for me as I'm constantly wondering if I even had a day, but knowing full well that I am God's daughter and that the Holy spirit resides within me, and knowing that "I" feel like a burden to my family, God is teaching far greater lessons to those around me.  We may not always like the situation God places us in or how he allows our flesh to be used, but our Spirit is his, so who are we to be anything less than content.  That might not bring you much comfort other than to know you are not alone - you have my permission to contact me if you would like to share more personally you're experiences, as God has had me writing poetry for 20 years that deals with so many issues that I'm sure it is no coincidence he has had me online at this point in time to answer your question.  Heavenly Father, I empathize with this one as you know I too beg with each unconscious state to slip on into your abode, but you keep rudely(!) sending me back to these who I love and who are still needing taught of your mercy and grace, and I am glad each time you send someone into my life, as I can no longer get out, to share how wonderful and merciful you are!  Bring a contentment and peace that passeth understanding into this ones life as you have mine. Amen.
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I believe that God puts people in your life for a reason, and that there are times when there is a connection that can go deeper than that of a sibling relationship. I have had several freinds like that, who will call me and say, I sensed something is wrong, i've been praying for you, or, for me, I will keep 'seeing' them, in my minds eye, or hearing their voice, so I will call to check on them. It's an awesome thing! Be thankful you have the sensitivity to percieve what is going on, because I think most people get so busy they brush it off.
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I think you chose a path that was never going to find true success, but you're definitely onto something now.  Material things can't make you happy but there is so much that can.  I've found a strong relationship in Christ, and through him I am able to love and feel with my whole heart.  I can discern between what is worth the precious little time that I have here on the earth and what is not.  You feel such emptiness because you filled your life with things that are fleeting.    Now that you realize this you should search for something lasting.  For me that was Jesus.  You've tried everything else why not try him too.