I have suicidal thoughts everyday. I have never done suicide and I don't want to die at all. I don't tell anyone about it though. Is there something wrong with me?
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I have no idea what is wrong with you.  You should seek professional help.  Could be an imbalance in your chemical make up and maybe a drug could help.  I think you should just look for the positives in life and also do what makes you happy.  if you do drugs, stop.  if you drink too much, stop.  if you are in an abusive relationship, dump him.  Surround yourself with positivity is all I can tell you, and I really wish you well and that you do not act on your suicidal feelings.  Maybe god can help.  ( am not religious by the way)
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Glad you aren't related to me! Yikes!  But, really though you do sound like you have some problems you need help with before you do something you will regret.  Call a mental help line or your doctor or if you really think you might hurt somebody just call the police & they will take you to a place where you can get help.  Please call them BEFORE you hurt or kill anybody ok?
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You need to talk to someone that has survived suicide.\nLike me. 5 years ago at age 41 out of the blue my husband left me for another women.\nI was totally comsumed with pain. I can not explain to you how it felt,more pain than I have ever tried to withstand.I lost 18 pounds in 3 weeks,I slept all the time-at least when I was not crying.\nIt had nothing to do with wanting to be dead-I just wanted the hurt to stop because I could no longer stand it.\nDue to a miracle I was saved (yes, my dr. used that term) and I checked myself into a psychartic hospital for the sucidial where I meet lots of people like me.I was there 2 weeks.\nI learned so much from those people and often think of them.\nIn the hospital was a children's ward and the kids would come to the cafeteria as a group-all those teenage girls some with there wrists bandaged.\nBut one sticks in my mind-the youngest one there-a 3 year old boy who had cut his wrists with a knife. The nurse told me it was not his first attempt.\nSuicidal people do not have the same thought process as "normal" people.They can be born that way or have a tramatic experience that "changes" there thought process.\nEveryone I met in the hospital said the same thing-not one of us WANTED to die we didn't think we had a RIGHT to die.\nSuicide is about a person being in so much pain,crushing pain,unbearbale pain,non-stop pain that death is a way to relieve the pain.\nYou may use any of this in your paper or email any questions to me.
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I don't worry. worry doesn't ever fix anything. There's nothing I can do to stop it, so why worry? I intend on enjoying every day that I am given, and letting other people do the worrying.
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Call 911 to get in contact with a suicide hotline. Then follow up with the appointment they make for you at your local mental health clinic. There is no shame in doing so, and is doesn't mean you are "crazy"...just a little confused. Do it now if you are thinking about hurting yourself. I mean RIGHT THIS MINUTE! AS SOON AS YOU FINISH READING THIS.
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All these are intertwined, Its good that you have discussed to someone but more importantly , like most people have mentioned here; you need to seek professional help and also disclose this feeling to your near and dear one provided you trust them as many a times it can make matters worse. It is not unusual to feel down in dumps, depressed and anxious at times, most people do some of the times, but suicidal feeling are rare and indication that things have gone far enough. I would suggest you to seek professional help asap and make your feelings and thoughts aware to your near and dear ones, your colleagues or neighbours but go and see your GP today
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Get some help:\n\nCall some on this list that can help you!\nIf you kill yourself, your dead.  Then nobody can help you, you can't even help yourself.  My brother committed suicide.  Not the best option!\n\nSuicide: Don't let despair obscure other options\nDespair and hopelessness may lead you to think about suicide. But you have other options, from weathering an immediate crisis to creating a long-term safety plan.\n\nWhen life doesn't seem worth living anymore or your problems seem insurmountable, you may think that the only way to find relief is through suicide.\n\nYou might not believe it, but you do have other options — options to stay alive and feel better about your life. Maybe you think you've already tried them all and now you've had enough. Or maybe you think your family and friends would be better off without you.\n\nIt's OK to feel bad, but try to separate your emotions from your actions for the moment. Realize that depression, other mental disorders or long-lasting despair can distort your perceptions and impair your ability to make sound decisions. Suicidal feelings are the result of treatable illnesses. So try to act as if there are other options, even if you may not see them right now.\n\nNo, it probably won't be easy. You may not feel better overnight. Eventually, though, the sense of hopelessness can lift. You can find support, appropriate treatment and reasons for living.\nWhen you need immediate help for thoughts of suicide\n\nIf you're considering suicide right now and have the means available, talk to someone first. The best choice is to call 911 or your local emergency services number.\n\nIf you simply don't want to do that, for whatever reason, you have other choices for reaching out to someone:\n\n    * Contact a family member or friend\n    * Contact a doctor, mental health professional or other health care professional\n    * Contact a minister, spiritual leader or someone in your faith community\n    * Go to your local hospital emergency room\n    * Call a crisis center or hot line\n\nCrisis centers or suicide hot lines are often listed in the front of your phone book or on the Internet. They generally offer trained counselors — usually volunteers — who can help you through an immediate crisis. Some crisis centers with an Internet presence offer e-mail contact, but remember that responses may not be as prompt as they are with telephone support.\n\nTalking to someone about your feelings — connecting with someone — can help relieve the burden of despair and isolation, even if just temporarily. It may help you shift perspective and more clearly see that you have options beyond suicide.\nDaily coping strategies to manage thoughts of suicide\n\nYou may struggle with suicidal feelings frequently, perhaps many times a day. Develop a strategy to cope with those feelings in a healthy way. Consider asking a doctor, family member or friend to help create a strategy tailored to your specific situation.\n\n\nThat strategy may mean doing things you don't feel like doing, such as talking to friends when you'd rather hole up in your bedroom all day with the curtains drawn. Or it may mean going to the hospital for a mental health evaluation. But stick to your strategy, especially when you're in the grips of despair and hopelessness.\n\nAs part of your strategy, consider these measures:\n\n    * Keep a list of contact names and numbers readily available, including doctors, therapists and crisis centers.\n    * If your suicide plans include taking an overdose, give your medications to someone who can safeguard them for you and help you take them appropriately.\n    * Rid your home of knives, guns, razors or other weapons you may consider using for self-destructive purposes.\n    * Schedule daily activities for yourself that have brought you even small pleasure in the past, such as taking a walk, listening to music, watching a funny movie, knitting or visiting a
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It would be better if you take life as it is. This had happened to me : I would always feel that somebody is always watching me and I got to behave nicely always. But the truth is that, its my own self-thinking. I had wondered always what would others think about me... But have come to know now that world is like this and we got to go forward whatever we meet.\n\nI think you are worried about everything. Try thinking over what makes you worried. Try to stop gradually the activites which makes you worried. If necessary, you may go to a psychiatrist. There is really nothing wrong in going to such a doctor. I know by experience that its better to approach such doctors when needed. \n\n\nAfter everything, I will pray for you.
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Never okay about suicide.  The fact that my heart went out to you despite not even knowing who you are I hope in some way will show you that your presence here on earth is valuable.  Life is hard.  Everyone has problems, you are not alone in that. Sometimes you can't help but thinking that you want to just throw in the towel and say the hell with everything but that is the easy way out.  Life is precious.  Millions of people everywhere in hospital beds, on battle fields, you name it, are fighting to preserve their lives right now.  You must find a reason to carry on.  Lonliness is easily cured.  Meet people, get out there. Happiness is never constant but we can't be ready to end it all when our lives aren't going as we'd like.  I am sorry that you have no wife and family and your parents are dead and that you and your siblings are not speaking and your finances aren't so good right now. But God still has a purpose for you.  You may be just what someone else needs in the form of a friend or companion.  I hope I have helped you in some way. It breaks my heart when I hear that someone has taken their own life. May God bless you and help you see the gift that you are regardless of your current circumstances. You are in my prayers.
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Well, suicide is never a great option in my honest opinion, but here is a great list of why one wouldn't want to kill themselves.\n\nhttp://www.wingsoffiresurvivors.com/reasons.htm
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You maybe are just having a 'death' phase.\nSome people have that when something is really going wrong with their life, or they are sad or tired, or even stressed out. Just wait for a month or so, and hopefully it will get better.\nIf not, i would suggest you go to a phychologist. That would help a lot. \nMaybe its just some type of fear of death. Could be anyhing.
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I don't know  you but i value your life.\nyou need to seek someone to talk to or can help you.\n\nhttp://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/crisis.aspx\n\nplease look out for yourself.
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Talk to someone....call a free help line. Talk to someone before doing something drastic. Suicide is a selfish choice - look at all those that you would leave behind. I strongly urge you to talk to someone...give it a shot. It takes no effort to make a call.
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Although, dying is a natural part of life and we all think about it occasionally, if you're obsessively thinking about it, you may need to see a professional. Seeing someone doesn't make you unstable, it can only help you remain stable.  My concern is that your thoughts are persistent but also are intense and graphic at times, and you may need a medication to help with your thinking. If you've had a past history of depression, than this type of thinking is not uncommon. It wouldn't hurt to see a psychiatrist before your thoughts get out of control.    -a psych nurse
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Try calling your insurance company and getting a list of mental health experts in your area that they provide for. Then start seeing one as soon as possible. I have dealt with the same feelings, and help really is out there.\n\nIt could also be that you're on the wrong medication or you need to make some lifestyle changes. As for lifestyle changes, it helps if you:\n-exercise\n-eat a healthy diet\n-have a regular sleep/wake cycle (this is a big one; go to bed at the same time and wake up at the same time every night and day)\n-talk to someone that you love and trust\n-get your mind on something else when you feel bad (exercise, read... it really helped me to do charity work because it helped me think about others and not my depression)\n\nI would recommend seeing a good psychiatrist who can make sure that you're on the right medication, and a good therapist who can teach you coping skills and thought blocking. Thought blocking is really important if you think about death or suicide a lot.\n\nI hope that you can get the help you need. Just have hope that help is out there! And most importantly, get to know the Lord Jesus. That has helped me immensely and it'll help you too. He loves you for who you are and wants to help you. I urge you to accept the Lord as your savior if you haven't already and have a meaningful relationship with Him.\n\nIf you are ever having truly suicidal thoughts, PLEASE call this hotline: 1.800.SUICIDE (784-2433)\n\nI know it's hard to believe right now but there really is help out there. I used to have major depression, anxiety, and obsessive-compulsive disorder, and now I'm doing great nearly a year later.\n\nGood luck on your recovery and please try to get the help that you need and want.
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Please, please, please don't kill yourself!  You may feel so hopeless and sad, but killing yourself is not the answer.  You are suffering from depression.  Depression is a disease, it is a chemical imbalance in your brain that can be fixed, sometimes with medication, sometimes just with counseling!  If you have health insurance, please go to your doctor right away and tell him or her how your feel.  He or she will send you to a psychiatrists who can help you.  \n\nYou put this question in religion and spirituality, so I assume you are religious.  If you can't get to a doctor please go to your place of worship and ask your rabbi/priest/etc to help you.  They may be a counselor, or they may know one who can help you for free or for very little cost.  Even if you do have health insurance, if you  are religious you should go to your place of worship because your rabbi/priest/etc might be able to help you by getting you more involved in church activities or other activities where you can make friends.\n\nIf you ever feel that you want to kill yourself, please call a suicide hot line instead.  The people on suicide hot lines can help you find hope, get help, and stay alive!\n\nGood luck, I hope you will keep posting so we know you are OK!
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Hello there! I am sorry to hear you are feeling so down. People are so quick to say someone has depression. You say that you act like you are the happiest person on earth, but you aren't happy on the inside. You just have to believe that you do deserve happiness! I believe that you just have low self-esteem and self worth. 17 is a hard age! Believe me...looking back I felt the same way and wondered what the heck was wrong with myself. Just the pressures nowadays that are being put on young people is enough to make someone want to give up! I know to be happy is easier said than done sometimes, and it is a lot of work sometimes. Once you start believing in yourself it will get more simple. Life is too short not to have fun--experience life. I am not saying go out there and do foolish things, but enjoy the silly stuff. I am an adult and I still like to go to toy stores and play with the puppets! Because it makes me happy. I am not here to make anyone happy but myself. It sounds selfish, but before we can help others, we have to help ourselves. Just the fact that you asked the question on here shows that you are ready and willing to make a change for yourself. I have done a lot of "stupid" things in my life, but I have learned that loved ones are there for you no matter what you do. If people really love you, they are there for you no matter what! You can make little changes in your life. Use positive affirmation..when you start to feel those thoughts of hopelessness creep in--say to yourself that you are not listening anymore. If you are still feeling beyond hopelessness, there are many people you can go to to talk about it. It is not a sign of weakness to ask for some help and guidance. It is you standing up and saying you are sick of being that way and taking control of your life. I wish you luck and hope that I helped a little! Take care!