I lately feel death all around me, when I sometimes search for actors or actresses and it shows their day of birth and their day of death I just feel a creep all over my body.I feel sadness is biting me off. my soul is so fragile and I am haunted by different thoughts....drawning..getting hit by a car...choking....\nfor serious answers only..please don't make fun
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I died when I was 9, just for 2 minutes and then I came back. It was not scarey at all. Stop being so morbid and enjoy life while you have it. You are not feeling death, you are depressed or bi polar, you need to see a therapist.
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Oh wow - that is so sad.  I am really sorry that you have gone through SOOOO much in this recent past.  I am sure it must feel like your world has just about crushed in around you.  :(  \n\nI can really see now why you wish you could just have it all be over with.  What you are feeling is completely normal.  I wish there was a quick fix for the way you were - but there really isn't.  :(   \n\nOne thing that you may or may not be into doing is this -  exercise... I know that you may not want to at this time - but it really is good for you - it elevates the endorphins which in turn helps to elevate your mood.  So while it won't make everything better - it can help you to cope with it a bit better than you might be right now.  \n\nI will keep you in my prayers tonight and pray for that "hole" in your heart to be healed and filled with the Love of God.  I had that "hole" at one point in my life... It is lonely and sad - it makes you feel like you just have no reason to exist... "what is the point of it all" I would ask my self all the time.  But I have survived that time.  Life has improved and I have seen the blessings of the Lord in my life. If I had died or never existed I would have never known what I know now -  I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason - both good and bad things.  We Learn from the bad in order to be able to help others to the other side... to be a shoulder to cry on - or to gain wisdom through it.  \n\nKeep truckin' along - you will get to a better place - it may take a long time - but you will get there.  Keep your eyes on the blue sky and try to look at positive things in life.  I know they may seem like few and far between, but they are there... take the moment to look at the beautiful pink or yellow blossom as it blooms into the new spring of this year.  Take the time to look at the white fluff clouds as they float around the blue sky and a lady bug lands on the leaf - or a butterfly flutters by.  Take joy in these small things... small improvements will help you.  \n\nWhen you have negative feelings try your hardest to push them out and possibly pray at that time if you have a relationship with God.  Ask for help and peace in this difficult time.  \n\nyou will be happy one day Hiedi23\n♥
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I was always afraid of my father's death when I was growing up. My dad was my world (mom didn't want me so my dad raised me by himself). My biggest fear was him passing away. One night he left to go to the store for coffee, and was killed by a drunk driver. It hit me like a ton of bricks. No matter how much I tried to prepare myself for that day, it was nothing compared to how I actually felt. My world had crumbled the second that my step brother called me. I got depressed, and closed everyone out. No one understood me like my dad did. Everyone thought I had gone nuts, but it was my way of dealing with it. In two days it'll be three years since it happened. Things haven't been the same since. I got married and didn't have him there to walk me down the aisle, he never got to see his grandson. There's times I'm glad he's not here now because he would beat my husband to death for hitting me, and if he didn't then, he would've after we divorced. Anyways, the best advice I can offer is make the best out of every moment you spend with her and always cherish the times you've had with her. Her death is inevitable, and there is no way to prepare yourself. When it happens, talk to someone, anyone you think my have even the tiniest idea on how you're feeling. Talk about her because remembering her the way she was is the best way to deal with death. It won't get better immediately, but give it time. Since my dad's death I truly feel alone in this world, but I've found out that I do have some true friends who have helped me out through this. If you don't have someone you can talk to, if you like, you can IM me anytime...my yahoo ID is under my profile....think I'm making this too long winded as it is :D.
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I am sorry,  my grandmother has lost her will to live after my father died three years ago, I do not believe you will ever get over it, I think you may be able to one day accept your child died,  but you will always grieve and feel your loss, I am not sure the goal is too get over it, I was devastated when my father died and I know this cannot compare honestly if my children died, I would probably semi lose my mind at least temporarily. and I know I would become a humanitarian worker on the international scene for human rights watch or red cross, in the thick of things. and I would have a very nomadic lifestyle, however I still  feel the hole that was ripped open in my soul the day my father died, I do not believe it will ever go away, church made me feel worse. the funeral was horrible .I told the priest he was full of it ,and so was his religion ,which offered no comfort .and I informed him  that my father detested religion,I can relate to not wanting to hear the empty god comments. what surprisingly helped me , was a support group for grief victims ,people who had the same or similar experiences .I would have never  joined a group like this, but it was a service offered ,because I donated his organs.and amazingly just the pamphlets generated from the group touched me and helped ease my grief, I know it sounds like it will do no good, but It is truly worth a try, for you to get in touch with other parents who lost their children, I know I saw a persons 360 page on yahoo ,the mans child died and the support from the online community was amazing .I am not sure this will help you as much as a real group ,but not feeling alone in your anger is crucial to feeling better, it is most difficult to hold on to yourself or soul ,if you believe in that, when you are filled with misery ,it is so much harder to love yourself,life, or anything than it is to hate .and making that human connection with others that can truly understand you rather than dismissively wish you well or try to say something they think you want to hear, is the first step in regaining the feeling of control and a new perspective , I also encourage you to visit my 360 page and dont read it ,cause I am bad and while I try to remain positive, I do tend to gravitate to the darkside at times, but go to my friends list  find Skyes avatar click on it and visit skyes page, this beautiful woman is a well of positivity, and spiritual well being .and just reading her blogs make me feel better and I am sure they can touch your heart as well
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Yep I do. One day I felt someone tap my shoulder so I turned around but when I did no-one was to be seen. So the next day I found out one of my good friends mother had died in a car accident. I asked some-one when she had died and it was the same time I felt the tap.
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You need to first of all take a deep breath and try to relax.\nIt can be really scary when someone you love is sick and on life support. Talk to your friends and family about how you feel. It is really important not to keep your feelings bottled up. If you have a religion or a belief in God you should pray about your feelings of being afraid. Sometimes when things are hard or scary or sad it is good to write down your feelings in a notebook or private place. It can make you feel better to get your feelings out in writing, especially if you don't feel like you have anyone to talk to. I can't tell you that everything is going to be ok. I wish I could. But sometimes things work out and people get better. Sometimes they don't and people we care about don't always get better. I will pray for your dad and I will pray for you. Good luck and best wishes.
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you just really need totalk to someone. i lost a frien to suicide unfortunately i was in the room when it happened. i know how hard it is. i also had to attend 23 funerals in 10 months jst a few years ago between friends and family i wasn't surei wold make it either i really felt like my world was caving in on me. the thing that got me throgh it was my husband he always talked me through things, to this day he still makes sure i don't forget thememories of those friends and family members. one other thing i did was write letters to the people i was closest to especially my mom when i was feeling as you are now. i've read them at later times some i just keep in a box. good luck and please talk to someone!
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We all think about death, what might come afterwards.  I guess the best way to tackle any fear is to hit it head on. Ask yourself what it will matter after you are dead.  You won't feel anything, you won't know anything.  And there are alternatives to coffins, like cremation.  It sounds to me like you need to stop thinking about death and start living life.  Make yourself make the most of each day, think toward making life on this earth the best it can be while you're here.\n  I find that sometimes making fun of it helps too.  Like I say that I don't want a funeral, which everyone insists that I should have.  I finally consented on the condition that I have a spring under my back that can be activated in half hour intervals where I pop up holding a sign that says "What are you looking at?"  My son suggested that I be cremated in Priority mail boxes since I do ebay.  That made me smile.  Plan it, make it fun, then move on.
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Trust me I know exactly what your talking about. I'm a fellow Sag myself. (Dec. 18th)!!!!!!!!!!! I find that I need change constantly because I get bored very easily. I'm from one thing to the next. It's like I feel like I'm missing something if I don't try to broaden my horizons. I also don't like to feel caged in no matter what the situation. We Sags love our freedom very much. I love to travel just like you. If I could have my way I would travel 95% of the time everywhere in the world. I want to learn things, meet unique and different people. Most of us Sags want to learn the truth behind things and we love meeting new people and places, especially if it's different cultures. Don't worry sweetie your not the only one that feels this way. By the way Happy Birthday in advance!!!!!!
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I think that if you dont feel ok its okay death and hard situations are all apart of life we just have to cope with them and ask god to help us through these obstacles of life just stay positive and keep your head up and you will be okay just take one day at a time and try to relax take care and I hope all goes well for you
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I've never SEEN anything, but I've FELT a lot of stuff.\nThere are certain areas in my house that just don't feel right: the fireplaces in the living and dining room; when you're standing in the kitchen and looking down the two steps and through the door into my bedroom (which is a re-converted garage); and the part of the driveway under the avocado tree beside my room. Everytime I'm in any of these places at night I feel someone behind me, almost as if they're going to touch my neck above my shoulders.\nAnother incident I had was when I was 12. My elder sister and I were walking to the La Puente Mall after watching a movie in the theater. We had about a mile walk down a winding business street running paralell to the 60 freeway. It was dark, darker than we thought it would be. And thirteen years ago there were only bushes and trees near the sidewalk, with the few buildings quite a distance away. As we were walking this little white pick up truck comes down the street really slow, crawling along with his headlights on. As soon as he catches sight of us, he accelerates and pulls into the driveway we just passed, and jumps out of his car with his truck still running and his lights on. I could hear his feet crunching through the leaves on the sidewalk and I started to pray because I was so frightened, too frightened to run. I asked my Guardian Angel to protect me and my sister, to wrap us in his wings and hide us from this evil man's eyes. As soon as I was finished the footsteps turned direction abruptly! The man ran back to his car, jumped in, and tore off down the street in the opposite direction.\nDid he see something? An angel perhaps, wrapping two girls in his wings?\nI don't know.
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That is a painfully accurate description of what I have felt in my time, in fact many times.  I suspect it is a more familiar feeling than most of us would like to admit.\n\nCertainly there are people who are young enough and have lived sufficiently sheltered lives that such a feeling may never have happened to them.  But I suspect, from my experience with a wide variety of people, that your description rings a lot of sorrowful bells.\n\nSee, you really are NOT alone, even though it certainly seems like it at times.  Your soul -- your innermost Self -- is in touch with other souls.  But sometimes bodies get widely separated, and that physical aloneness represents for us a psychic aloneness at times.\n\nSo go seek out those souls inhabiting bodies that seem most likely to resonate well with your own, and build yourself a circle of friends.
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Although I don't have the answer you want ... I can relate with your feelings. I don't know if just knowing that you are not alone in this helps or not. I went through almost the same exact situation about 6 months ago and it brought back all kinds of feelings of lose and sadness. I am sorry that you are having these feelings and hope you can learn to cope in some way. I still just push all of my hurt to the back of my mind...some days I am kinda ok and other days I cry at the drop of a hat--I guess its just something you have to carry with you for the rest of your life. Once again i am sorry and wish you the best. I am 31 years old myself with no other children-but hang in there and hopefully things will look up for us both.    :)
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awwwwwwwww, i love your pics. :) i feel the same way. :)\n\nbut there are others for me, that i feel are also sad and stuff.\n\n*ill post pics later, cant right now
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Its scary, but its the ultimate truth - death. That is a part of us. And no matter howmuch we fight against it, we may live long lives, be healthy, but that is the cycle you have to go through. It is scary to think of all the people whom you love would pass away too...I can relate to this sort of a feeling, but probably you are taking it a bit too seriously, a bit too soon. Death may be scary, but once it comes, you wouldnt have any fear or any other feelings left in you, right ? I often think that we go to another world, and there are things we may see after death after our life here on earth...but then those are just fantasies, no one knows. But we have to accept. And there is nothing to really be scared of once you have accepted it. You would want to talk to someone about it cos' you sound like you are having some sort of a panic attack, probably something that could be talked over, change your perspective on death....and things would get better, perhaps.\n\ngood luck..
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If you're serious about it, then go for it. Some people really feel like they are in the wrong body. There's a lifetime movie coming on the 19th i'm going to watch about a guy who thinks he's in the wrong body and believes he's really a woman. It's sad but it happens.
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Trust me... it happens!\n\n I just recently turned 16 (Mar.10) and I've been going through this whole change. I feel like I'm sitting on bridge and watching the world pass me by. After all the weird years in life I finally found my Hero - who saved me. My life is numb - I'm not interested in anything anymore. I don't care what someone says. I don't hate but I don't love. The only thing that makes me cry is the fact that I don't know if I'll ever meet my Hero again. He's a Paramedic - the proudest man I've ever known. \n\nHowever if this is serious and you would like to talk but can't seem to trust anyone. I'd advise you to talk to your school counsellor. I know... I used to freak out by the name of them. But when my teacher set an appointment I was actually looking forward to it. It's amazing what a 30 minute talk can do - at the end of it I had a few problems cleared out. Well, the problems didn't clear away but they became clear of how I am supposed to handle them. \n\nHaving said that, Good Luck!