I am a 19 year old gay male, non-comunicated with family and living away from home, I never graduated from high school and I really wish I could but because of monetary reasons I cannot, I live in Puerto Rico (U.S.A.) and well I am a very unhappy person, when I am with friends wich truely are very limited, I tend to be more relaxed when I am with other people, I have a vey violent relationship were every thing goes wrong, my partner is 23 years older then me and he never agrees on anything I say or do, I have a very bad temper and well I loose control very eassy, sometimes I wish I could just leave him but I am so afraid of such act, I feel I wont be able to make it since I have no car or support from anyone at all, I am really not sure what I can do or what is wrong with me please tell me what is happening with me, I have gotten heavier in the past few months, I am very unplesent, I am allways mad or sad or deppressed and I dont want to live like this I sometimes I really just go mad
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dont take this the wrong way but do u have a job because u wouldnt be near him all the time and maybe u would begin to appritiate each other more. also with the money u could get a car n hopefully get back to school. then u could leave him if u r still unhappy n u would be on ur feet cuz of ur job. \n\nif u cant get a job then i know this seems hard but make the most of every situation that u can. have u talked to ur partner about being unhappy. have u tried to get contact with ur family or do they not except u. have u asked if they except u if thats the case. n 23 years is quite a lot isnt there some1 a little younger because that is a huge a ge difference. \n\ni may be a little unexperienced with dating but if ur truely unhappy u need to fix the situation and u need to do it before something happens to u.\n\ni really hope everything works out for u.
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Of course you're not too young to feel depression!  What you feel is very real.  I'm 42 but I'll tell you right now, I remember when I was 17 and felt my life was in total and complete turmoil and I said to myself 'I'll never, ever forget how I'm feeling right now and how difficult it is to cope with life'.  At the time it was so overwhelming.  The changes you're experiencing with your hormones at the age of 13 is probably one of the most difficult periods of time you'll experience YOUR ENTIRE LIFE!  The good thing about that is, it can (and will) get better.  I feel for you like you wouldn't beleive.  My best advice would be 'ride the wave' of life.  Yes, it's unbelivably hard but I promise you, you'll feel better and things will be in better perspective as you grow a bit older.  Truthfully, there's no quick solution.  Please try to accept that it's very, very natural to feel like you do.  Try to find a girlfriend who's going through the same thing so you can voice your feelings.  If you feel you can't confide in anyone, remember your strengths and focus on them.  You are a valuable, worthy person who, like many adults, is going through a difficult time.  We're all faced with challenges no matter what our age but I'll be the first to say, those years between 13-17 are the most challenging.  Think of it as looking towards the light at the end of the tunnel where you'll grow into adulthood and this difficult time will just be part of your journey.  I wish you all the luck in the world but I know you'll do o.k. :-)
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chill dude!\nyou sound young and you have plenty of time to work things out in your head\nanyhows why did your head tell you that you was gay?
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I'm not sure what you're having is a mid-life crisis. I've always felt a mid-life crisis had to do with a man hitting an age where he became obsessed with the fact that his best years were behind him. Maybe you feel that way due to the issues you've faced at just 19. Either way you should talk to someone, friend & family are the place to start but if that's not an option seek professional help.\n\nLife is too short to spend it worried about death.\n\nGood luck.
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I m a 44 year old married man with Borderline personality.\n\nIt s not a gift from god.\nI dont trust anyone.\nI have very strong mod swing.\nI fell sad or very down or very happy and dancing and making joke all the time. my mod change back and forth in minutes.\n\nI hate people who does not like me.\nThat disorder is hard on my familly, wife, kids and mom.\nI don't like to go out anymore, i get stress just to go see a movie.\n\nI use to be a big marijuana smoker, a once and a half a week.\nI use to have sex with a different person every day without protection for a year or so.\n\nI would like to live in a forest all alone in a cabin.\nMe an my wife are fighting very often for nothing\nI have been arrested by the cops for selling pot, lost my job.\nI wanted for at least a year too kill the guy who call the cops\n\nI dont do drugs no more, it's been 3 year on july 18 2003.\nI dont have sex no more, at all,, im scare to have sex even with my wife.\n\non the 18 of may 2006  i was rush to the hospital, i tryed to suicide myself.\nbefore that day, i was consulting a psy, he never saw it comming\n\ni have a 15 year old girl, i think she might be like me .... \ni also have a child with downsydrom, she's 12.\ni love her very much.\n\nI know for my condition, for about 5 years now, and i does not seem to get better.\nNow i know why i had so much problems :\nWhy i was always quitting my job after an argument with my boss. i nerver last more than 2 year at one place\nIm out of job now, it's been 3 year, and im scared to death to find another one. Im scare of me, of how i will interact with people.\nWill it be ok ?\nMy last job, working in an office as computer support.\nI don't want to go back, i want to work alone.\n\nI would rather be unmarried and alone in the world, so i would not hurt these guys all the time.\n\nIt seem that ther is no magic pills to help us really.\nJust few candy and therapy\n\nSorry but i dont have the time and energy to sit around a table with peoples to talk about the way i feel.\nI went to a therapy at Albert-Prévost in Montréal\nIt was a bunch of 8 guys sitting around a table and talking about theres problems.  I don't give a Sh** about theres problems.\nAnd if one of them talk for too long, one of us did not have the time to talk in that hour time frame.\nAnd what more convinient that a meeting a 3 PM.\nI had to stop working at 1h30 pm to get at that meeting on time.\nThis is there web site anyways  : http://www.crhsc.umontreal.ca/pap/index.html\n\ni still think of suicide has a way out.\n\nThank you   Off.\nMontréal 27 november 20:49
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I REALLY suggest you see a counsellor. And do some 'self expression' and 'cognitive thinking', when your counsellor is with you, for safety.\n\nAND: **Life is full of ups and downs. And hey pad yourself, you 'have hand' some rough years, that mean you pass them, you made it thru. Also, it's 'have had', it's pass tense, it's history, so tell youself, it's 2006 June 22.**\n\nI understands how you feel, because some here. I been thru more than 10 years of rough time. Even now I still have to practice telling myself ** **.
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hun listen im right hear with you. like right now im doing the same thing and feeling the same way. but i think im a little a head of you. see im 15, i got cought doing it. and well snow ball from there. alot of people will tell you just to stop and stop feeling like you need to. but hun guess what its a mental problem. we got it and its there. go talk to your counsolor. have a friend go with you, i did. then they will have you make an app. with your family doctor and you will get checked out. weighted and talked to by him or her. from what the doctor thinks some different things can happen, you will go to rehad (most likely not if you get help now) you will get a theropys that what i got. or they will put you on meds. also what i got. you need to be willing to be honest trust me thats hard i know. but i have already lost trust of many for lieing about. but believe me it will get worse if not fixed soon.
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You are gay and you hate gay people?\n\nDamn, you have serious issues. You should see a psychiatrist.
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i feel bad for you it reall cant be that bad. i think if you are going to go anywhere you should go to a doctor and talk to him about your problems. i hope you get the help you need.
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Please listen. He is NOT all you have. He has taken away your self esteem and your willpower so that you think that but it is not true. You have the strength to make a wonderful life for yourself. There is someone out there who will love you and protect you. Get to a shelter immediately. They have counselors who will help you. If you stay in this situation, it will only get worse, much worse. Bless you and get going.
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Steve,\n\n  You might have a chemical inbalance in your brain (just like Moriahho below), perhaps due to genetics or environmental. Is there a history of depression or rage in your families' past? Grandparent or immediate family?\n\n  There might be some medication avialable for you. But I would strongly recommend speaking with a psychologist in order to determine if you are a danger to yourself. I.e. suicide etc...! They will be the best people to help you, not us..!\n\nGood luck!
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I'm sorry this makes you sad.  Take some time to be by yourself and get used to all the different feelings you are having.  You may not be gay, you might be bi, or maybe you are just curious about everything and not sure which way you'll end up.  Slow down and give it all time and relax around the guy you like.  Running away from him is going to leave him feeling like something is wrong with him when it's only that you are feeling shy around him instead.  Maybe you could let him know that.
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This is the curse of our modern society, i really felt it as i read your Q. I have an uneducated theory,that sais give in to it, the regret only gets worse......Unexpressed emotions get inherited by our children... this goes for sexual issues double........ You may explore staying in your confinement but try doing things a little more expressive of how you feel....... shock people.....  but hey i am only 32 and not sure this advice is good,,,,,,,,just a theory,,,,,,,
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Hey Olivia,\n  Yes, you do sound depressed (understandable), no you are not happy and no you are not living a normal life.  But the key words in your question were "I hate life but I think it's worth living because every day is different".  That means to me you are a very smart, emotionally balanced and mature young women that is gonna be "okay".  Just remember what is going on is not your fault or responsibility and that as long as you believe every day is different, you have the ability to overcome this and many more obstacles in your life!  You're gonna be okay kid!
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Contact Evergreen International.  They will be able to give you a lot of help.\nThis is a very hard challenge and it will be a difficult road.  One thing I suggest is to not try to figure it out with all the different theories of men.  There is a lot of political garble out there that can easily confuse a person.  Stay with good books by people you trust, ie, the prophets and those that support them.\nAlso, talk to people about this.  Often you feel secluded in this trial, you shouldn't.  Remember that many people have these feelings and you will be surprised where help can be found.  Talk to your parents, to your Bishop, and possibly to any close friends you trust.  The more open you are about this, the less lonely you will feel.\nGood luck, pray often, and don't give up.  I know that this is hard, but it isn't impossible to live a happy life!
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First I would like to say I'm sorry for your loss of a family member.  Yes, you sound like you are depressed to me.  If you researched the symptoms, you would see yourself.  I've been depressed many times myself, and I can tell you it is no fun.  You get no pleasure out of doing anything, and all you want to do is sleep.  What you got to do is get up and do something for yourself, but before you do that, I want you to think REAL HARD about what I'm going to say.  No one controls your life but you.  What has happend, is in the past, and you live for tomorrow, not yesterday.  Everything that has happened is all water under the bridge, you can't do anything about it, and you need to stop dwelling on the past.  There is no one that can do a single thing about your situation except you.  You can either lay there, and drown in self pitty, or you can get up, and move on with your life.  No its not easy, but remember YOU are in charge of your life, and if you don't point it in a positive direction, then who will?  Sure you have a reason to be depressed, but how many days will you let the sun rise and set on another day without fun in your life?  You may have to make yourself get up and do something, but this you have to do, or loose your mind.  You may have a lot to be depressed about, but you have more to not be depressed about.  A person thats depressed cannot concentrate on school work, and you probably aren't getting anywhere.  You KNOW what the problems are, and you KNOW what you have to do to make them go away.  Get up, and get it done.  Put some fun back into your life.  Keep yourself busy to occupy your mind, and if you have to; please seek medical advice from someone, a doctor, a pastor, or just a friend that you can talk to, but do this before you end up at the bottom of a pit that you can't crawl out of.  Get off your @ss and do it, and do it now!  Don't tell yourself that you will do this tomorrow, because you know good and well that won't happen.  I hope this helps you some way.  Good Luck!!!
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I have been like this for a while now ,someone told me the worst thing you can do is worry about it so I don't.Keep writing things down and being organised and enjoy your life and have a laugh at yourself when you do something silly.There's worse things could be wrong with you.