I had to care for a dying patient yesterday.  When he passed, I was hysterical.  I know he is in a better place but I am still so sad for him and his family.  It was totally expected that he was going to die but still.  Just thought if I heard stories from your job not matter what it is it may make me feel better or even laugh.
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You are an awesome person. To have love for someone you barley knew. Don't be sad, and keep up the great work. To have someone at your beside that really cares for the last moments is rare. Anyone would be blessed to have you there for them at that time. You probably made that persons late minutes comfortable and peaceful.
71218
I'm so sorry to hear this. Well i know how you feel i have gone through 4 loved ones deaths. It will be hard to go through, what i love to do was surround my self with friends and family, and remember the person who just passed on. ITs good to cry, makes you feel better. Sometimes writing can help. but i blive that friends and family around is the best thing, they can cheer you!!! I am praying for you and god bless you all. im so sorry!
503007
yes! A REALISTIC HONEST PERSON ON THIS GD DAMND SITE! my aunt died a few years ago and was dead for a while. she came back and said she saw nothing as well. but ask anyone else in my family, and she saw a miraculous light with angels reaching out to her. i guess the fact THAT YOU WERE BROUGHT BACK TO LIFE isn't a big enough "miracle." now you have to lie!
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Well, this girl at work, her son's fish died and she took the day off to console him.  We had a good laugh when she got back because she had to have a fish funeral. Her son was distraught and she just couldn't leave him.\n\nLater, she learned from a friend that she should have just said the fish had belly-up flu and that she'd take him to the doctor on the way to work, get him fixed and he'll be fine in a day or two.
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I'm sorry to hear of your loss.  As a cancer patient myself I personally feel that you handled the situation very well and that your mother understood the depth of your love for her.  I'm happiest when my family is doing normal things and not concentrating on cancer.  Big hugs to you.
1974
wow, sorry to hear about your girl, thats sad. I dont know why you cannot tell the difference but maybe its because you are in a lot of pain right now and you feel like you are hurting all over.  Again I'm sorry for your loss, and I hope things start looking up for you soon! :)
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I was always afraid of my father's death when I was growing up. My dad was my world (mom didn't want me so my dad raised me by himself). My biggest fear was him passing away. One night he left to go to the store for coffee, and was killed by a drunk driver. It hit me like a ton of bricks. No matter how much I tried to prepare myself for that day, it was nothing compared to how I actually felt. My world had crumbled the second that my step brother called me. I got depressed, and closed everyone out. No one understood me like my dad did. Everyone thought I had gone nuts, but it was my way of dealing with it. In two days it'll be three years since it happened. Things haven't been the same since. I got married and didn't have him there to walk me down the aisle, he never got to see his grandson. There's times I'm glad he's not here now because he would beat my husband to death for hitting me, and if he didn't then, he would've after we divorced. Anyways, the best advice I can offer is make the best out of every moment you spend with her and always cherish the times you've had with her. Her death is inevitable, and there is no way to prepare yourself. When it happens, talk to someone, anyone you think my have even the tiniest idea on how you're feeling. Talk about her because remembering her the way she was is the best way to deal with death. It won't get better immediately, but give it time. Since my dad's death I truly feel alone in this world, but I've found out that I do have some true friends who have helped me out through this. If you don't have someone you can talk to, if you like, you can IM me anytime...my yahoo ID is under my profile....think I'm making this too long winded as it is :D.
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a couple of years ago when my father passed away, he didn't want to leave my mother.  all kinds of phenomena took place such as, lights strobing, tv turning on and off by itself,  interference with the telephone, hearing aids etc.  i had taken 2 sympathy cards to mom from both myself and my daughter.  they had been placed on the mantle over the fireplace.  when i came back in the living room, the cards were face up in dad's chair which was the last place i saw him alive.  no one else could have been responsible for the activity as it was only mom and me in the house and she was upstairs sleeping.  i  checked with the neighbours to see if their power had been flickering or their phones not working and they told me they hadn't had any trouble.  my brother confirmed that there were no electrical problems with the house when i questioned him.   i finally convinced dad that mom would be ok and we would all take care of her.  it took about 2 days but he finally went to the light.  at that point, all of the activity stopped.   the strange thing is i was so conflicted emotionally when he left.  i felt sad that he had gone, but also relieved he had finally made the transition.  i miss him very much but know he is always with me.  i am sure there are skeptics out there that will not believe what i experienced but that is their issue.  i know what occurred and that is what is important to me.  take care.
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Sick....But funny...\nI was stopped in the street late week by a charity worker...\nHe said can you spare a moment for cancer research....\nOK i said but i won't find out much....
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As a nurse I have had a few encounters of the spirit world.  One time in ICU a pt saw a Angel sitting in the corner over my shoulder, I was talking to her and a chill ran down my spine and I shivered, that's when she told me that there was an angel in her room, it was there to comfort her and let her know her time was coming soon and to make things right with her family.  She called them all and after her last kid came in she died.  There was no problem medically that would indicate that death was eminent.  Another time I walked past a room with a patient who was unable to control the lights in his room but a light shone out from under the door but not in the window of the door. And more personally, My mother had an angel wake her up and tell her to change some things in her life or she was going to die.  I truly believe that we humans are not the only ones who walk the earth.
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I will pray for you.  You have my sympathy.  I have bone cancer, and it is terminal.  I focus on what I CAN do, each day.  Some days all I can do is lay in bed.  Other days, although rarely, I feel almost good. I believe we send messages to our bodies, subconsciously.  If we think the worst, the worst will happen.  I am a registered nurse, and even though I could easily look up every aspect of my disease, I choose not to.  Only God knows when our time is up.
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yes...I laughed at a funeral, too.  My husband's grandfather's....who lived with us and I loved him dearly.  His daughter had done the funeral arrangements and while we were at the graveside someone started playing the bagpipes.  Don't get me wrong, I love bagpipes, but this was sooooooo not something that Grandpa would have had any interest in that I just started laughing....hard...and couldn't stop.
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I have not lost a parent. I have lost a brother. We were approx. 12 months apart in age. He died drinking and driving when I was 20 and he was 19. I was devastated, but never cried about it. He and I had talked about death but not our own. There isn't a day goes by I don't think about him. I am sad, on the inside, but not depressed. I can talk about him with great pride and conviction without crying a drop. And about the loss..... is there anyway to describe the feeling of emptiness and loss? No, but we can not dwell on what we can not change. I do know that my life would be completely different if he were here. I moved 1000 miles from home, just to get away from the sadness, it didn't help. But it did change the whole direction of my life. I will not say that it is a mental illness to have feeling like this, but it is very difficult to express the way you truly feel. I try not to talk about it but feel better when I do. His birthday was last week 10/25. Mine is today.
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Curious to read your answers as I just lost my Dad this week and feel the same as you.  My Dad was only 62 and suffered lots in the end.  We put our pets to sleep when they suffer a 10th of what my Dad went through.  I hope you are able to find a peaceful place in your heart.
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I really hate to here of your father falling ill once again. Let me tell you just last week my father was told that he has cancer of the pancreas.It is a scary time for all involed but most of all the patient. I went to see my father just last year after 24 years, we had some bad issuses between us as well does my sister and brother does with him. I feel better that I went I can honestly say that I have no regrets. You feel how you feel and you can only do what you feel is best towards your dad. Always remember that you tried your very best towards him. May god bless you and your father, put your trust in him and he will lead the way. Good luck.
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When my Grandpa died the day after my 14th birthday, I wanted to die. I spent my birthday in hospital watching him. He was in a coma, and was for 4 days before passing away. It's the most horrific pain i've experienced in my life. It's now been 7.5years and although the pain has subsided, i still find that sometimes I'll just sit and cry because I miss him so much. I was his favourite of 16 grandchildren, and he was my favourite person in the world, and now i'll never know if he really knew how much he meant to me. The pain will change, but it will never go away. I am SO sorry for your loss, and I completely understand what you're going through. My thoughts are with you.
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yes, my story is rather differant, My Aunt Ann was dying of cancer and after all attempts for a cure she was given only a few months which ended up being 3 weeks. well the night of her death my Mother 'Anns sister' and my Aunt Bonnie 'also Anns baby sister' and I went to Anns House after her husband called and said it was time, we got there to find Ann unconcious and in her Bed. we sat with her for Oh maybe an hour when suddenly she sat straight up and smilled 'with tears in her eyes' and said Oh How beautiful they all are, Look at them, 'she then looked at us and said Cant you see them, and my Mother said No Ann I cant see them,. all this was bizzar within itself because she had brain cancer and had'nt been able to speak for over a week, and now she was speaking very clearly. After my mom said she did'nt see anyone, Ann started to talk to someone and was very very excited , She suddenly said 'But someones missing' and as if she was looking and listening to someone speaking She smiled and said ' Oh-' slowly laid back, looked up and gripped the corner of her blanket and slowly pulled it up over her head and she died. BUT To your Question this is the reason for my answer, 1 week after her death I was asleep and Ann was in my dreams, we was sitting outside having Tea like we would do in the summer, and she was smiling and said, so what Name will you give Him, and I said Aaron, Just as if I knew what she was saying. when I woke up I was floored, So a week after that I found out I was pregnant and was even more shocked , because my husband and I had tried for almost 11 years and was Told I could never have children.. I would continue to say what I believe and why I think there was 'someone' missing when my Aunt made that statement but maybe somethings are better left unsaid. ~_~