i am 19 living on my own i am so sad and angry i just want to die. what am i to do?
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Please call a hotline right now. There are mental health hot lines. There are suicide hot lines. There are abuse hotlines.  Open your telephone book right now and look in the front. There are listings there for help and you need to call one of the numbers now. I don't know where you live but I know in Florida that if you have a mental problem and you cannot afford the medications, then some of the mental clinics and hospitals will give you the medications at little or no cost. My daughter has had mental problems all her life and the times when I could not afford her medications or blood tests, they provided them to me for as little as $3.00 per month. \n\nIf you were in a residential treatment facility, then whay aren't you on medicaide?  You could be on S.S.I disability and that would automatically get you the medicade. \n\nBut the important thing is to call and get help now.  In Florida there is a baker act law, it just means that if the courts or doctors or a family memb er ar friend, thinks that you are a danger to yourself or anyone else, then you are put in a facility until they can evaluate you and get you back on your medications. My daughter has been baker acted 9 times and only once by me and my husband. \n\nIf you can't find a mental health place tonight that will help you, then you should find out which hospital in your area has a psych unit and go to their emergancy room tonight. You are asking for help and here it is. Now GO.
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Hello there! I am sorry to hear you are feeling so down. People are so quick to say someone has depression. You say that you act like you are the happiest person on earth, but you aren't happy on the inside. You just have to believe that you do deserve happiness! I believe that you just have low self-esteem and self worth. 17 is a hard age! Believe me...looking back I felt the same way and wondered what the heck was wrong with myself. Just the pressures nowadays that are being put on young people is enough to make someone want to give up! I know to be happy is easier said than done sometimes, and it is a lot of work sometimes. Once you start believing in yourself it will get more simple. Life is too short not to have fun--experience life. I am not saying go out there and do foolish things, but enjoy the silly stuff. I am an adult and I still like to go to toy stores and play with the puppets! Because it makes me happy. I am not here to make anyone happy but myself. It sounds selfish, but before we can help others, we have to help ourselves. Just the fact that you asked the question on here shows that you are ready and willing to make a change for yourself. I have done a lot of "stupid" things in my life, but I have learned that loved ones are there for you no matter what you do. If people really love you, they are there for you no matter what! You can make little changes in your life. Use positive affirmation..when you start to feel those thoughts of hopelessness creep in--say to yourself that you are not listening anymore. If you are still feeling beyond hopelessness, there are many people you can go to to talk about it. It is not a sign of weakness to ask for some help and guidance. It is you standing up and saying you are sick of being that way and taking control of your life. I wish you luck and hope that I helped a little! Take care!
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Very kind of you to ask us Ladies, my Son. It's normal to feel depressed or as if life is passing you by. You're 22 years old and it seems that you have it all right where you want it. You just don't know what to do with it. Be happy that you have what you do. If you continue to be unhappy go and volunteer at a soup kitchen or a shelter. Trend towards doing something useful rather than sitting around feeling sorry for yourself. Give money to a library or to a humane society. Do something for someone else. You don't need medication. You need a purpose. You have "things" but you need to give of yourself to appreciate them. Good luck, child. I hope you find what you're looking for.
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Get some help:\n\nCall some on this list that can help you!\nIf you kill yourself, your dead.  Then nobody can help you, you can't even help yourself.  My brother committed suicide.  Not the best option!\n\nSuicide: Don't let despair obscure other options\nDespair and hopelessness may lead you to think about suicide. But you have other options, from weathering an immediate crisis to creating a long-term safety plan.\n\nWhen life doesn't seem worth living anymore or your problems seem insurmountable, you may think that the only way to find relief is through suicide.\n\nYou might not believe it, but you do have other options — options to stay alive and feel better about your life. Maybe you think you've already tried them all and now you've had enough. Or maybe you think your family and friends would be better off without you.\n\nIt's OK to feel bad, but try to separate your emotions from your actions for the moment. Realize that depression, other mental disorders or long-lasting despair can distort your perceptions and impair your ability to make sound decisions. Suicidal feelings are the result of treatable illnesses. So try to act as if there are other options, even if you may not see them right now.\n\nNo, it probably won't be easy. You may not feel better overnight. Eventually, though, the sense of hopelessness can lift. You can find support, appropriate treatment and reasons for living.\nWhen you need immediate help for thoughts of suicide\n\nIf you're considering suicide right now and have the means available, talk to someone first. The best choice is to call 911 or your local emergency services number.\n\nIf you simply don't want to do that, for whatever reason, you have other choices for reaching out to someone:\n\n    * Contact a family member or friend\n    * Contact a doctor, mental health professional or other health care professional\n    * Contact a minister, spiritual leader or someone in your faith community\n    * Go to your local hospital emergency room\n    * Call a crisis center or hot line\n\nCrisis centers or suicide hot lines are often listed in the front of your phone book or on the Internet. They generally offer trained counselors — usually volunteers — who can help you through an immediate crisis. Some crisis centers with an Internet presence offer e-mail contact, but remember that responses may not be as prompt as they are with telephone support.\n\nTalking to someone about your feelings — connecting with someone — can help relieve the burden of despair and isolation, even if just temporarily. It may help you shift perspective and more clearly see that you have options beyond suicide.\nDaily coping strategies to manage thoughts of suicide\n\nYou may struggle with suicidal feelings frequently, perhaps many times a day. Develop a strategy to cope with those feelings in a healthy way. Consider asking a doctor, family member or friend to help create a strategy tailored to your specific situation.\n\n\nThat strategy may mean doing things you don't feel like doing, such as talking to friends when you'd rather hole up in your bedroom all day with the curtains drawn. Or it may mean going to the hospital for a mental health evaluation. But stick to your strategy, especially when you're in the grips of despair and hopelessness.\n\nAs part of your strategy, consider these measures:\n\n    * Keep a list of contact names and numbers readily available, including doctors, therapists and crisis centers.\n    * If your suicide plans include taking an overdose, give your medications to someone who can safeguard them for you and help you take them appropriately.\n    * Rid your home of knives, guns, razors or other weapons you may consider using for self-destructive purposes.\n    * Schedule daily activities for yourself that have brought you even small pleasure in the past, such as taking a walk, listening to music, watching a funny movie, knitting or visiting a
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I dont know the laws in Onterio so I cant help you out with knowing the legal age to be adult.  \n\nBut I have to say that if you are unhappy and feel unsafe at home then you need to leave.  But you need to do it legal or you will get in trouble and that will not help you at all.\n\nIf you mother really does have a tumor that is probably why she is acting the way she is.  Have you thought about that.?
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your just taking the easiest way out. if you end it, then your parents will be sad and everyone who knows you will be sad, b/c you havent had a chance to experience life at all. just talk to somone, like your parents, siblings, or somone you can rely on to help you. if you end it, then your a WIMP, b/c your not dealing with your problems! just talk to someone like me: amchaseltine@yahoo.com\ni can help you. just write me, and ill help!\npleze no 1 else write me
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CONTINUE LOVING YOURSELF. YOU ARE VERY FORTUNATE TO BE IN THIS SITUATION. MANY people out there are committing suicide because they thought nobody loves them. You are blessed.
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Go on the internet and take a depression survey.  I bet you are depressed.  If you are depressed, seek treatment.
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What the hell's the matter with you? I've looked at your other posts and it seems you're just looney tunes. Maybe you should find psychiatric help, go back on your medication, do whatever the hell it takes to focus your anger and hatred toward yourself, where it belongs. Where do you get off thinking you have the friggin' right to kill anyone else? Who gave YOU the right to take another life??? Freak
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You need to be on anti-depressents if you are feeling that horrible. \nI have made attempts and it just results in getting my stomache pumped (which hurts like hell the times I've been awake for it). I learned that when I felt that bad and thought that I would not be able to control my impulses to hurt myself, I would go to the emergency room and let them know that I was thinking about killing myself. They will hospitalize you for about a week but it could be a great thing because they have psychiatrists that you would see on a daily basis they would start you on some medications that hopefully, in time, would make you feel better.\nIf you have depression that bad then you probably need to be in therapy also.\nPlease check yourself into the hospital before doing anything stupid. Usually you don't really want to die you just want the horrible way that you are feeling to go away and you get so desperate that it seems that is the only solution.\nTry to stay strong. Good Luck.
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First of all I am a mother and I still have been overbearing to my 19 year. old but little by little I have let her be on her own, she is a hard worker, and when I was 18 I just moved out without telling my parents, but my mother looked into my purse and found the agreement letter for my apt. So I believe the best thing to do is tell your parents you are moving out on April 15, for example. Believe me they will be Hurt and mad, but if you believe in God. God will take care of your mom and dad. And move out. Later my mom wasn't mad at me any longer. So they will get over it. Just pray when u tell ur parents. But set up a move out date first..They will be upset for a little while so expect that..good luck.. a 50 yrs. old Mother that understands what your going threw..
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Don't Worry...Be Happy!\nWell, just calm down, if you spend all your life worrying,,, you will never really get to live!
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Is there someone in your family you can talk to about how you're feeling? A close friend? If not, there are hot lines you can call where they have experts available to help you, and help you find solutions to your problems. When people talk about killing themselves, it's usually a cry for help. You need to seek out that help (you've already taken the first step.) There are experts with a lot of experience that can honestly help you deal with whatever pressures, difficulties, or depression is causing you to feel this way. A lot of people have felt exactly the same way you are feeling, and have gotten through it. You're definitely not alone, and happiness is not something that is unattainable, even though it may seem that way now. I wish I could offer you better advice. I certainly know how you feel.
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Sweety go see a doctor as soon as possible and then ask for a referral to a phycoligist or even a councillor.\nThere are some great help out there but it wont come to you as you have to use your mouth and ask for it as this is one small step in helping your self?\nthe second step is telling your parents and asking them for support as they love you i am sure and I don't think any parent would want there daughter feeling like this or son?\nThird step is getting a good friend to help and just tell her/him how you feeling?\nDepression can make you mad because its like a black shadow it wont go away until you seek help and step out in the light?\nThere is nothing wrong with you except your attitude towards yourself thinking there is?\ngo for a walk and look around your self and see the real world with out the colour glasses on?\nHun nothing is worse than thinking your sick when you have a bright and happy future ahead if you just come out and ask like you have here.\nThere is also herbal medication you can take to life your spirits as well as medication you get from a doctor!\nbrowse on the net and look in web sites for depression or Anxiety?\nHun keep thinking positive and remember only you can ask for help.\ngood luck and please don't let this linger for another 4 years without help.
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You need to go see your family dr. Or you can call around to find a free clinic in your area. If you go to a free clinic then your family wont find out. But to tell you the truth, you should talk to someone in your family. Your mom or sister, someone, or a friend. Someone you trust. Its not your fault for feeling this way, and no one should be mad at you, or not understand.  Also look for a mental health place in or near your town. They might be able to head you in the right way to getting what you need, without your parents. Depending on your age, your parents may need to know.
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i know exactly how you feel...i'm sorry, but ending our lives isn't the answer we would leave behind people who truly love us, i wish i knew what the right words to say...if you believe in god just pray to him to make you feel better & try to think positive that things will eventually be better....i feel ya...if you need to talk just email me, my email is available on here....just don't hurt yourself, god bless
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First of all, you seem very intelligent and well-written for 19 year old.  Good for you.\n\nSecondly, your mom sounds like she's a bit on the self-absorbed side (not at all unique these days) and she sees every problem you have as a failure on her part to raise you properly.  She takes everything wrong with you as a personal slap in the face.\n\nMy two cents: See if you can get into therapy with your mom.  You need to build a team with your parents and together beat this.  Depression really sucks.  I know.  Sometimes you have to care about others more than yourself to dig your way out of it.