i feel like im the only one whos suffered and endured torment?
916457
No you are not the only one many people around you may seem better off bet there are other people who feel like you I am one of them but to a lesser degree and for a shorter amount of time.
701943
Are you serious? It looks like you have a heavy burden on your shoulders. Nobody hates their life so much without realizing they need help. What happened to you in your childhood?\nYou need help. Professional! Immediately!
537849
I don't blame you for feeling this way.  Many poeple do.  Hang in there.  Don't worry so much about something you can do nothing about.  I guess we'll have to deal with whatever happens.
546744
You must feel pretty much at rock bottom - and I am sorry to hear that.  But, from rock bottom, there is only one way to go - UP.  Every day you cope with this will be one day nearer to getting over this, one more step in an upwards direction.  I try to learn something from every bad experience I have, because experience is what you get in life when you don't get what you want from life.  In the future whatever happens, you will know you can cope, because you will have coped with this.  Talk to your parents, they will be concerned for you and want to help.  Even though they have split up, they still both want the best for you, and hopefully can put aside their differences and be able to work together with you so that you all come through this.   Time heals - I bet you find it hard to remember what worried you 6 months ago, 1 year ago, 2 years ago, so although this is a major crisis in your life, you will come through it I am sure. I hope this helps.
763698
I know that's right.  Satan wants us to think WE are the ONLY ones going through things, like pain.  \n\nBut,There is ALWAYS someone worse off than we are......
1135815
I know wat that feels like...so far in the last two years i have had many curveballs thrown at me...and right away i would get angry and question why god would want me to suffer...but now i truly believe that things happen for a reason and that there is a plan for all of us...its just one we cant see yet.. its like our life is little puzzle peices..and someday when its all put together we're gonna stand back and say "so thats wat its all about"
637512
Please go and talk with someone, this feeling will pass believe me iv'e been there myself, please don't do anything to hurt yourself, there are people that love you.
705628
alright well everyone is tellin u to go see a shrink so i dont hav to say that. \n\niv always hidden how iv felt about everything, my mom dying, getting molested a lot of things and i never got over them. i felt so much pressure from all these things that i was hiding that i started mutilating myself to feel better. now iv been to the mental hospital and i still havnt really talked to anyone. even if u dont talk to a shrink just tellin sum1 u trust how u feel can help ur mind start to accept wat happened. i deny myself wat has happened cuz its easier to say, no thats just a dream, than to say, well yes, that happened and yes it screwed me up. \n\nto help myself i write a lot, poems songs stories and just writing about wat happened helps me. im not gunna recommend hurting urself but that has helped me too, just know that thats a really bad idea. in addition to writing a lot i do a lot of yoga and excerise just to take out frustration and to calm myself. i talk a lot to my best friend cuz i know that she will listen even if she doesnt care and if i cant talk to her then i sit down in front of the mirror and just tell myself yes, this happened and no its not ur fault. a lot of the grief process (at least for me) is to blame urself, i hav been blaming myself for everything in my life and its important to realize its not ur fault. and its no ones fault, it just happened and u cant change it now. he knows u love him, and if ur a religious kind of person then u could say that hes watching over u. \n\nbut mostly just take it slowly and make sure to admit to urself that it happened and its not ur fault. find a productiove way to take out all ur feelings and find sumthin calming to help u keep ur cool. \n\n<3
1176486
The worst thing I ever done was punishing myself..and suffering a lot..
231778
hey! your not alone. i feel the same way. the harder i try to make things better in every aspect of my life and believe me i am a good person who tries doing the right thing but twice as many bad things come back on me. i believe in curses and one has been put on me.
496808
well differerent people suffer different things. i have not met anyone else who was born with a hole in their heart. I do not let this restrict me. i feel more confident about myself than more people. just because us suffer from something not many people do does not mean you should let that hold you back. Find something you love to do and take time doing that. Dont even think about fishes. \nneed to talk to me just email me.
585922
i feel like they think im just pure thick sometimes gets to me real bad its like people who have done 1 better than u grrr
931930
I felt the same way for a long long time, and I still feel that way sometimes. People really are there for you though, you just don't see it. If you were to need them they would be there, they just don't know that you need them now. Talk to someone about it. Anyone you trust. Just ask them if you can talk to them alone and explain that you feel like no one cares. It can be a sign of something serious like depression so be careful and know when it's gone too far. People do care, and they're all over. You just don't realize it when they're not right there beside you.
5412
wow, sorry to hear about your girl, thats sad. I dont know why you cannot tell the difference but maybe its because you are in a lot of pain right now and you feel like you are hurting all over.  Again I'm sorry for your loss, and I hope things start looking up for you soon! :)
601737
i understand where you are coming from i have experienced this and it got to the point of becoming suicidal i reached out for help whether i felt i needed it or not and now looking back on things i regretted doing it because it tears a relationships apart and you are scared for life. if anything seek help and help yourself through counseling and partial hospitalization because you are not alone and there are people to help professionally and if you feel uncomfortable with help seek a minister in a church they can also help but counseling is the best way because the are more open to receive your thoughts emotions and can help you with medications and can do tests to help. they also understand your hurt frustrations anger and no one has to know it is kept between you and them and in the long run reaching out in this manner you may find a friend and a support to help you through and gain back your respect and love that you may feel that is gone
780557
I had a abusive childhood to, my father abused me, even now after 20 years sometimes it still hurts so much, bruses can be seen and heal but scars on the inside remain - they maybe hidden but remain for life. I think when you have been hurt and rejected by a parent it hurts so much because it's not meant to happen, your parents are meant to be the ones that love, support, care for, and protect you no matter what, they are the ones that made you! the fact that they are the ones hurting you is so confussing and wrong. Sometimes even now, i feel why me?  after my father, my mother became ill and rejected me, i had no other family or friends.\n My father contacted me again when i was 18, to confirm that he could find me where ever i was, and to remind me that the abuse was all my fault!, as i was "such a horriable child"! I know this wasnt the case, i was seen and not heard, to scared to be noticed, I went on to marry someone at 17 who was the same as my father, after 11 years of abuse from him too, i had a breakdown, he visited me in hospital just the once while i was on suicide watch to tell me to "go ahead as your useless and unwanted" i had hit rock bottom, so i decided to fight, fight against all the people that told me i was nothing, it has been hard, lonely, frightening sometimes, and like i said you have moments when you feel that twang of pain and desparation, dont dwell on it, they were the bad ones not you. turn your back and walk away, The hardest thing i find is with my little boy, knowing not only does he not have a grandfather,but his father repeated the rejection and fear that happened to me as a child, and that was something i didnt want. Now however, 2 years later i am married again, to the most wonderful man ever, there is happiness out there, but you need to take the chance to believe you deserve it, and fight for it. I dont think i will ever feel perfect, but i know my son and i have the right to happiness, Counselling has helped me alot to, so much so i am on my way to becoming a counsellor myself, Try talking to your doctor to, years of people telling you your nothing takes it toll, antidepressants can help give you that little bit of clear thinking that you need to escape. In answer to your question: Nothing, your human, alot more human than those who hurt you.Good luck
702287
Yeah, I went through that 6th-8th grade. It just feels like everyone hates you. You are an easy target. I had to change schools, my behavior and appearance to find my will to live, and friends. DON'T let others judge your self-worth. Who are they anyway? Everyone is equal.\n\nI heard that people who feel bad about themselves enjoy making other people feel low, so they can feel better about themselves. See how it works?\n\nIgnore them. Only God will love you unconditonally because he understands you inside and out. Draw close to him and ask for friends who will love you for you,