Right now I'm 16, but at the age of 11 i had encephalitis and everything turned around. I was hospitalized for 3 months, paralyzed, almost blind, and in a respiratory arrest. I went from being the fastest kid in my grade to nothing. I lost all faith in god and sometimes ask myslef why i didn't die. I would have been better off dead. Right now I have recovered but only i know the true diabilities that have been left. I am really depressed and no one understands. My life is a complete mess and i don't know what I should do with it.
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You may have post-traumatic stress disorder since you were old enough to appreciate the seriousness of your situation when you had encephalitis. \n\nYou should talk to your GP about how you feel & either get some councelling or medication to help you since it does not sound as though you ever recovered properly.\n\nIt may help to get in touch with others who have been throught the same trauma you have suffered as you will probably feel that only they can truely understand how you feel.\n\nYou will be happy & have loads of good experiences in time to come when this will seem a thing of your 'childhood', but to get to that point it sounds like you'll have to actively try & get there not just wait for time to heal. \nGood luck!!
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HI! I will definitely pray for you two. I am so sorry about your illnesses. That is so tragic. There is power in prayers and strength in numbers. My brother was written off as 'terminal' when he was 15. He's now 49! He had many prayers and is wonderful and healthy now. I wrote your names down and will contact others to pray for you as well. God bless!
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I lost my oldest son just over 5 years ago.  He was murdered.  I am still not over it & never will be.  The best thing I can tell you is turn to your religion.  That has helped me.  I think God gives us answers on how to go on without our loved ones in everyday things.  Like, this might sound wierd to most, but sometimes I hear (in the back of my mind) my son talking to me or answering a question that I've only asked myself.  I take it as he's giving me advise.  I think I'm living life as my son would have wanted me to live it.  I'm making decisions that if he were here & I'd asked him for his advice, they are ones that he's tell me.  I don't know hon, life goes on & so must we.  Sorry to hear about your loss.  A son, aunt, mother or father, its never easy & nobody has all the answers.  Just take it day by day.  You'll have good ones & bad one.  I've learned to deal with it cause all the tears & sorrow or angry feelings isn't going to bring my son back, just make me a bitter person.  He wouldn't have wanted that.  He was a good young man, 23 at the time & had his whole life with a wonderful career in his sites.  He was brutally murdered.  We just had the trial back in September '05.  It still hurts but like I said... he would want me to do just what I'm doing... trying to be the best person I can be.  Good luck to you sweetie!
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I hear where your coming from.  You have cone to the point in life when you feel no longer like superwomen.  I felt the same way. now i'm 48 and new disease's is what my doctor has discovered. Lupas, diabetes and everything else is going wrong. I have depression too, I feel isolated.\nBut my feeling are like this, God is in Controll of my self being, even though I've had to slow myself down quite a bit.\nI have learned to seek out Nature, take pictures, paint\nshells and leave a few for other people to find on the beach. Especially the kids to find something pretty that they can take home. do things that give back to nature.\nYou will feel yourself at your very best. I wish you well, and let happiness shine thru you. Prayers to God will really help you to get ready! God Bless you Spiritually!
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when I was born my mothers brother had just got home from the Army, he got hurt severely in the war.but was my new baby sitter now.so I kind of grew up in his house..and he had a  head injury from the war..and as young as 5 years old I can remember walking up town to go to the stores, an all of a sudden he would just black out completely and fall face first into the sidewalk or the street, and here I was a 5 year old with cars honking their horns yelling to get out of the street and holding onto my uncle yelling for someone to help us...and then a cop would come and then the ambulance and off the the hospital..and then he got fixed up and they found what was causing it and they gave him medicines..lots of medicines,.so he continued to be my baby sitter and some where around a year later we took a chance and ran across the street in between cars and down again smashing his face and blood everywhere..and this would happen off and on through out my life with him..in church in the house and so forth..and as a child you grow up fast and learn how to protect and all for help.and this will never ever get out of my mind, I have night mares sometimes about this now.\nand wake myself up screaming for help.\nso this is my story, it is a true one.\nand thank you all..\nsmile\ngood luck\nand\nGod Bless
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I definetely understand your situation. I did something like that one time, and a friend called the cops on me! And true, I don't like people to know how screwed up my life is. But you know what? Things have gotten better, and I look back on those times and wonder how I survived. I'm just saying that this will pass, and one day you will feel SO together. Just hang in there.
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When my 2year old twins died from a car accident comeing from the doctor office .They only had a simple cold and we went to the ice cream palor.Then on the way home a drunk driver came rushing by me and pushed me off the road and i hit a wall and was knocked out.When i awoke in the hospital they told me i had 3 crack ribs and a broken anckle.I ask to see my kids they said they were sorry they didnt make it i wished at that time somone would of shot me.the doctor told me that i was also pregnat and i need to have a dnc done because my unborn baby was also dead from internal bleeding.I am still haveing problems but with Gods help ill make it.It will be 8 years in 2 months.thats my story ,thanks for asking.
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No you should not be dead.\nI was recently in your boat.  Reach out to someone.  I know it's hard, but you can do it, and in the long run it will be worth it.\nYou are special, and don't waste such specialty by dying.  If you want to talk, or if you need to talk, email me offline.  \nbatmantis1999@hotmail.com
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You need to talk to someone(physiologist, counseler, etc) be surprised now much they can help. I'm 25 and been fighting cancer for the last 3 years(secound time on chemo now), but I'm happier with my life more than I had been in years. Why? I realy changed the way I looked at the world and life. I spend my free time with my hobbys rather than bars, time with good friends and family not people that don't realy care for me, looked for love rather than sex and found it, etc, etc. Life isn't easy but you can find peace/enjoyment in this life if you live it right(not talking about not drinking, god, etc all that stuff). What's right is realy what you want in your heart and doing everything you can end up where you want to be. Well just rambling now, but hope you get what I'm saying, but realy go talk to someone atleast once.
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that was a very terrible problem...\ni'm sorry for what had happened to your daughter.\n\nsometimes life is unquestionable, even... it's unanswerable.\nwhatever you are going through in this life, god knows. he knows the best for your life, eventhough what had happened to you seemed so unfair. god said, god works in all things for your goodness. can you see the positive side from the problem you have?  if you havent, you will.\n\ni did something bad a few years ago i blame it on god, why did he let me do it. but... today, i know he let me experience it for my own good...\n\nhow can you bring your faith back? it cant leave you, it is inside you, you just have to awake it... ask for gods grace...
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Listen. I'm 16 and im still tryin to find that out. U just gotta keep talkin 2 god and dont stop going 2 church. all u can do is pray. At this age and time im at right now, I feel the same way u do. Just keep being faithful to God the best way u can. HE will eventually give u hints on what to do wit ur life.
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You have this disease for a reason.  God wants to work through you to help other people.  Perhaps there's a purpose still for you in this world.  Sometimes people who are ill and still show love and tell of God's love and kindness can have the greatest effect on others.  That's the way it was for my grandmother who brought more people to believe in God while she was bedridden than she ever did before her brain tumor.  God has a wonderful plan for you, even if it's difficult to see through the pain.  Remember--it is only temporary, even though it seems forever.  I would suggest reading:  Psalm 38, and 91, and the story of Job (in the book of Job)
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I have lost both of my parents and I'm single.  I found that i felt disoriented for about 6 months when each of my parents died.  Then, I began recovering.\n\nEvery person is different, though.  You may take more or less time.  If it goes on for a year, you should probably get some help.  And if it is too tough, find a professional to talk to whether it has been a year or not.\n\nBest wishes to you.
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It's was a really hard time to get through...i know about the suicide because i once had my own death planned...I am know stable and would love to help you...when you feel the way i've felt you feel like the whole world has turned agianst you and that no one cares or wants to understand what's going on with you...i can say that even though i was in a christian i felt like my own parents didn't want me...what got me through is the fact that there is one person worth living for...ME! if i took my own life  i wouldn't be only hurting myself i would start a chain reaction across the nation starting with my friends and their friends and so forth...so i choose to live my life for me and do what i want and fulfill my dreams! so tell your clients there are are people that care and there are people like them out here...i've been there done that...there's no point of ending your own life with the effects it will do in the whole sceem of things...
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i know exactly how you feel...i'm sorry, but ending our lives isn't the answer we would leave behind people who truly love us, i wish i knew what the right words to say...if you believe in god just pray to him to make you feel better & try to think positive that things will eventually be better....i feel ya...if you need to talk just email me, my email is available on here....just don't hurt yourself, god bless
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i've gone through some of the same things in my life. its hard to get over and i know what u are going through. i encourage to go to church and think about christianity. or even just read a bible. at my lowest point in my life it was the thing that saved me.
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Ouch...it sounds like you have been having a really rough time.  The teens are hard, no doubt about it.  When my life crashed it came to a life and death situation, too.  I found that that is the time I was willing to call out to God for help.  I didn't leave it up to Him to help or not, it was an inner scream, "God, if you're really there, help me!" and He did. Ask Him...sometimes we are brought to these situations so that we WILL call on Him for help.  Some others think it's a crutch, but when you're desperate and only One can help it's not a crutch its a lifeline.  I'll keep you in prayer, too.