I just sit and wonder why am i here. I feel like i'm left with this misery and pain. I belive in God, and I love Jesus, but i don't like his so called follower's. His follower's are nothing like. Humble, loving guy that wasn't selfish. Then i also think about why Gods putting me through so much pain of being alone.  I don't have any real christian friends. I want love, i feel so empty and cold. what to do?
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I have came to understand the why of the question you ask.  This world is not our home, we are just passing through.  The more we endure and experience, the more we cling to JESUS CHRIST and seek to do the will of FATHER GOD.  These things we go through, the loneliness we feel here, are all part of the plan.  If we were too comfortable here, then we wouldn't have a reason to want to go to heaven would we?\n\n\nI have said this several times here to several people, and as yet have had no takers...you can feel free to access my profile page and drop an email through there.  We can fellowship if you so desire.\n\nGOD BLESS YOU
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Absolutely, 100% YES! Sometimes you feel alone and you feel that God might be ignoring you, but I bet that if you pray and talk to Jesus you WILL feel Him in your heart. Remember the Footprints in the Sand story, that when we feel our lowest it is then that Jesus is carrying you. It might sound hokey and to let you know, I am not a bible thumper and I do not attend Church on a regular basis, but I do believe in my heart and soul that God is ALWAYS with us, it's just that we don't take the time to "hear" what He is saying to us. Just listen.
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I understand that a lot of times, internal pain gets so severe that you just don't know what to do with yourself...i understand feeling so overwhelmed with pain you feel like hurting yourself on the outside would ease the pain, and i'm glad you're recovering from that.  but, you have a Father in heaven who loves you far far beyond what words can say or you can understand, and He created a man for you that will fit with you absolutely more perfectly than you've ever dreamed, and if you wait for him, he will love and adore everything about you, and you won't have to feel self conscious or worried about what he'll think of you, because he'll only think the best of you.  you may think that the whole God thing/the whole -God loves you -thing is a bunch of bull crap, but the only reason i came out of my depression was because i trusted God when He told me He loved me, and i didn't allow myself to believe the lies of the enemy saying I was worthless/i deserved to be in pain.  God showed me that there always will be someone (especially the devil) who wants nothing less than to see me fall on my but from failure, but that He wants nothing more than to see me succeed.  it's been a long, HARD road, and i would NOT have made it if I didn't trust God to get me through it.  My point: look to God for your validation, and He'll NEVER let you down.  HE's promised you that.  Don't ever comromise. Treasure your purity, God will bless you ABUNDANTLY if you do.  Don't worry about anything except for putting all your trust in God.  When you do that, He's promised He'll take care of you in evry way imaginable. \n\nI'd love to help you in any way i can.  feel free to email me, please - chichuskeychick_89@yahoo.com
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Good Morning! You mentioned that you are religous, this may be part of the problem. Jesus warned us to beware of religous leaders, and He was persecuted by them. Most religions of this day and age, would still not welcome Him, in my humble opinion. Now to the point:\n\nJesus said if you ask anything, of The Father, through His name,  with just a small measure, of faith, you will receive it. Try getting on your knees, confessing your sins to God, asking Jesus to truly enter your heart, and to give you faith. The New Testament also says we have not because we ask not. Ask Him, and I am sure He will answer.\n\nAnother reason may be that you are not truly surrendered to Jesus. You may have went through the motions, but did you truly ask Jesus to enter your heart, be Lord of your life, and surrender everything to Him?\n\nYour works may be lacking. The Bible clearly states that "Faith without works, is dead." Dont get me wrong, works wont save you,  but they will increase your faith. God's word says it. Try to do more for the Kingdom of God. Help someone, or some people. Be nice to someone whom every one else is mean to. Volunteer at a local charity, homeless shelter, or a mission. Knock on doors, and spread the Good News. If you feel too shy to do this, hand out tracts. There are many ways to work for God. Look around, they are not hard to see.\n\nLastly, you are still young. Your testimony may not be developed enough. You are being bombarded with the ways of the world, where the path of destruction is. The world is saying belief in Christ is ridiculous, and that man is his own god. Everywhere you turn, you see evil, and blasphemy. Until you are gropunded in your belief in Christ, these worldly matters will cause you to have doubts.\n\nRead your Bible, and pray, each and every day. Try to learn as much as you can from the Bible, it is your sword, a part of the armour every Christian needs. Get grounded in God's Word, learn things on your own, dont wait for someone to teach them to you. You will be waiting a long time to learn what you need, if you rely on a religion, or on any other person to teach you. In The Book of James, God tells us, if we lack wisdom, to ask of Him, and He will give it to us.\n\nI hope this helps. Its really early, and I just learned, at 3:15 that my step dad has died. His passing was horrible. He had liver cancer, and was in extreme pain, especially the last 4 days. However, I know, for a fact, he settled his eternal issue, with God, and that when his eyes closed here, they opened in paradise, and he is not hurting anymore, and that he never will hurt again, because of the fact that he surrendered his heart and life to Jesus Christ.\n\nIf I can be of further help, please send me an email. I will be glad to help.\n\nYours Truly, \nOld Soldier \n\nP.S. Dont get me wrong about religion. Not all are off the track. Settle your issues with God, and find a truly Bible based church, where you feel comfortable. The Bible says, "you will know them by their fruit", seek and find out the character of the church, before you join, just dont stop seeking and become a lone ranger Christian. The Bible says that we are to not "forsake the gathering of ourselves", so be sure to find a good Bible based church. God Bless you!
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Pray, pray, pray!  Don't forget that God loves you very much.  He could never forget you.  But you are here on this earth to learn and grow.  The best way to learn is by experience.  Bad things happen, and they happen to everybody.  The testing point is how you answer these challenges.\n\nRemember that even Jesus felt abandoned by God for a moment during the atonement and crusafiction.  \n\nThe best thing you can do now is continue to have faith.  The scriptures say to endure to the end in faith, right?  That's what we are asked to do, not 'endure to the bad parts in faith'.  Just stay strong.  Good luck.
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what you're doing is very kind and compassionate. the world needs more like us, huh? *Hug* if you want to talk to someone who may encourage and pray with YOU let me know. bekki117@yahoo.com or bekki117 on aim or YIM...and yes, i am a born-again christian. on fire for God.
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Oh wow - that is so sad.  I am really sorry that you have gone through SOOOO much in this recent past.  I am sure it must feel like your world has just about crushed in around you.  :(  \n\nI can really see now why you wish you could just have it all be over with.  What you are feeling is completely normal.  I wish there was a quick fix for the way you were - but there really isn't.  :(   \n\nOne thing that you may or may not be into doing is this -  exercise... I know that you may not want to at this time - but it really is good for you - it elevates the endorphins which in turn helps to elevate your mood.  So while it won't make everything better - it can help you to cope with it a bit better than you might be right now.  \n\nI will keep you in my prayers tonight and pray for that "hole" in your heart to be healed and filled with the Love of God.  I had that "hole" at one point in my life... It is lonely and sad - it makes you feel like you just have no reason to exist... "what is the point of it all" I would ask my self all the time.  But I have survived that time.  Life has improved and I have seen the blessings of the Lord in my life. If I had died or never existed I would have never known what I know now -  I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason - both good and bad things.  We Learn from the bad in order to be able to help others to the other side... to be a shoulder to cry on - or to gain wisdom through it.  \n\nKeep truckin' along - you will get to a better place - it may take a long time - but you will get there.  Keep your eyes on the blue sky and try to look at positive things in life.  I know they may seem like few and far between, but they are there... take the moment to look at the beautiful pink or yellow blossom as it blooms into the new spring of this year.  Take the time to look at the white fluff clouds as they float around the blue sky and a lady bug lands on the leaf - or a butterfly flutters by.  Take joy in these small things... small improvements will help you.  \n\nWhen you have negative feelings try your hardest to push them out and possibly pray at that time if you have a relationship with God.  Ask for help and peace in this difficult time.  \n\nyou will be happy one day Hiedi23\n♥
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Keep giving people this testimony of yours and it is this way that you will be winning souls for Jesus. You are feeling the presence of God and it is on you thick. Keep doing whatever it is that you are doing. I pray that the presence of God will continue to shower you that you will be able to bless others that cross your path. I pray that God will bless you mentally, spiritually, financially, emotionally and physically all to His glory. God loves you so much and you will be blessed as long as you keep you eyes fixed on the Father and keep serving the Lord like you never have before. God is gonna use you and He has a divine purpose for your life. Since His presence is on you so heavy began to ask Him what your purpose is for your life and how and when you should begin fulfilling it. Talk to God daily. He's your Father in Heaven and he wants you to communicate with Him, afterall, it's to benefit you.\n\nBe Blessed
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God is more than that. While God is always there waiting at the doorway to your heart, he will never force Himself upon you. God is a way of life, a state of being. When you  truly accept the gift that He is offering, you will feel it. And yes you will still feel pain, you will still experience hurt, and you will still suffer loss. However, the best part about this decision is the fact that NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO He is ALWAYS waiting for you to come back. God is love dear, and Love is patient, Love is Kind, Love never fails. That is God. God will never fail you when you truly need Him. I can tell you honestly, that I have been in many situations when I have prayed and His answer was no, and although I didn't like that answer I soon came to realize why. And every time I am reminded that He always knows what is best for me. And he wants the best for you too. God is not as simple as deciding do you want mashed potatoes with dinner. God is unending joy in the acceptance of what life brings, knowing that He will carry you through it.
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Kiara, no.  You are not alone in your feeling.  But may I make a suggestion?\n\nI grew up in a family where people routinely stabbed each other in the back.  It was a very unhappy place, and for most of our lives, certain people within the family came to resent others....this has lasted a lifetime in some instances.\n\nBut you have a choice to make, and let me tell you how I made mine; I came to know the love of Jesus Christ.  So no longer is my life about, who did what to me.  My life is about how to learn to love others unconditionally, as God loves me.\n\nYou have a choice to make too; which end of the pencil do you wish to use in your life?  The one that is continally writing down the offenses people give you...or the one that is continually erasing offenses, always forgiving, showing kindness with no expectation of return?  I can tell you one thing for sure; the second choice above will bring a life of peace and fulfillment; the first a life of bitterness and resentment.  The choice is yours to make.
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unfortunately these kind of things happen, In your place I would be offended also, I feel for you, and am sorry for the loss, it is hard to get over things like this. The only thing I can say is try not to dwell, I know it is easy to say and another to do, but If it will make you feel better you can go infront of the church. And again I am sorry for your loss!
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I'm sorry for what happened to you as a child. I feel that many, many, many organized religions hide behind the word of God. They all preach the word but do not care to live by it. God is real sweetheart, and you seem to be a very strong person. Keep your faith in HIM and he will carry you through. It may not seem like it to you because of all the evil in the world today, but hold true to HIM. In the end Jesus will call out your name. Good Luck and don't give up on God, for God has not given up on people yet.
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I know without any doubt that God Loves us..ask yourself this question? Do you ever feel like something is missing in your life? Can marrying the right person fill that gap? Can having enough money fill it? Can having good health fill the emptiness? For everyone that has asked themselves that question and they have found out that the answer is no..The emptiness that we feel is the separation from God, when we accept His son Jesus into our lives, then the Holy Spirit will come into our hearts, then a veil is lifted from your eyes, and the Truth shall be revealed, and the pit in your stomach shall be made whole..For God is Love..and satan is death..Amen!!\n\nIn answer to your question, I was not brought up in any church, God was NEVER mentioned in our home, my mom abused me as a child, my dad molested me also..I was going to commit suicide when my brother asked me to go to church, so I went to make him happy, I hated being in church, I called everyone there Jesus freaks..the next Sunday, I could not stand the emptiness any longer, so I said well I tried everything else, I will try God..Praise the Lord..I am glad I did..Amen!!
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Hi Josh. I'd like to take a stab at your question, because I am always interested in helping either fellow christians or woould be christians that have an open heart get closer to god in a sincere, but non-pushy way. \n\nThat being said, have you ever felt like you were in a no-win situation? Maybe even a life or death experience, where you thought there was no way out? And yet you could feel ro sense things beyond your control either rescuing you from harm's way or voices or forces pulling you to go in one direction or another that ultimately made the difference in your life?\n\nWell those are points of evidence towards God. They could be angles helping to keep you on the right path or simply preventing you from going under. Whatever the case may be, God is all around us. You can't see bacteria or the wind, but that doesn't mean it doesn't exist, does it?\n\nToo often people who have lost their way or never even knew the way write off things they can't readily see or explain. I feel bad for athiests because they deny or block the love God has for them. They really enjoy being angry. These people are much like the rich: hey are consumed by material things that they can see, and yet even when they seemingly have it all they're still not happy, becuase it's never enough. God won't come to you in a box, or in the form of a house or from a steering wheel. But that doesn't mean he's not there. \n\nPlease don't let the world block out god from your heart and from your life. God is all around you, but he gave you the free will to choose to believe, so have the faith and know that whatever energy you spend on letting him into your life will not go unwasted. It never does and in the end the truth will come out and you will have been better and wiser for knowing it when you meet God someday. \n\nHope this gave you some hope.
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Although I am not religous, my best friend is Christian.  And when I am in a rut, she always gives me the same advice.  Just believe.  Believe that things will get better.  Try to find something to hold on to, and begin praying again.  Try to find something you can join other than a church, or just surround yourself with really good friends and family.
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Your feelings are natural - hurt and betrayed.   \n\nPLAYBOY INTERVIEW: In an interview published in the November 1976 issue of Playboy magazine, then-Governor (Jimmy) Carter talked about the role of religion in his life. In one part he said: \n\n" I try not to commit a deliberate sin. I recognize that I'm going to do it anyhow, because I'm human and I'm tempted. And Christ set some almost impossible standards for us. Christ said, 'I tell you that anyone who looks on a woman with lust has in his heart already committed adultery.'\n"I've looked on a lot of women with lust. I've committed adultery in my heart many times. This is something that God recognizes I will do--and I have done it--and God forgives me for it." \n\nSo, you have three choices: dwell on the past, worry about the future, or live in "here and now" with a completely devoted, loving, adoring husband, who reached out and confessed a deep, dark secret.  I wonder how he has struggled with this all these years. \n\nTo answer your question.  You get through it by going through it - not going around the issue.  Talk to eachother and listen to eachother.   Find out "why?" - not why he did it - but why is he telling you now after all these years.   Feeling Guilty?  Has Cancer?  Being Blackmailed?  Join a new church?  Went to an AA meeting?  If you love other, you should both be greatful that you are still together, build on that love, and help and support eachother during this short time on earth.  It will be over before you know it.
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I have suicidal thoughts throughout the day everyday. I'm a newly saved Christian of one year with a very loving, caring husband and a very loving son. I have a nice apartment and live in the country. I don't have any major illnesses, yet I struggle to find purpose in my life. \n\nI love being a mother and wife and taking care of my family everyday, yet I feel worthless all the time, and wonder how and why anyone could love me. For thirty-one years, my mother mentally and psychologically abused me well into my adult years. Trying to live a normal happy life and or knowing what that is, shortly after getting away from her is next to impossible. I wake everyday and look to Jesus to walk with me and show me the way. I don't seek pity, just answers so I can close that chapter of my life. I choose life because of my Husband, son and Christian woman friends.\n\n**crying** I'm meant to be here for my family and friends. When I hear the happiness in their voice and the smiles on their face as they hug me. When I see the love in my Husbands eyes and the love that I feel when he hugs me, how he's always their encouraging me and guiding me, and the sound of my sons laugh and the love he shows me everyday, I would lose all of this. Killing myself would destroy my family. \n\nI already know what that's like and I love my husband and son too much to hurt them like that, regardless of how painful my life is EVERYDAY. My life is meant to bring joy and love to people around me who need me, and if I can find a little bit of hope, joy and love everyday to give the people around me, then I will live my life, regardless of the pain until God calls me home.