I am thinking that after so long fighting it that maybe I should obey it!!?? I mean I have fought it for long enough now, it isn't fair either.
211919
Keep fighting! You can't give up, no matter how hard it is. You are loved, and there are people who would miss you, no matter how bad it looks. And truly, if you haven't already, do get help, because as humiliating or weak as it may sound, it is not. I got help and you will never know how good life is until you have lived without depression. If you had a disease, would you feel shame going to the doctor for it? Depression is a disease, and you don't have to fight it alone. Please, don't give up.
220024
I think like you said you want to control your life, but the steps you are taking are not good for you, I think its time for you to see and speak to someone about what you are doing to yourself. When something bad happens to you try to make it worse to make you feel better I believe you explained very well of what your a feeling and doing to yourself.. please speak to someone you feel safe with and trust..please!!!!!
361970
Even as recently as the 19th century in Britain my wife to be would have had to have obeyed me, and done everything i told her. I could have beaten her if she disobeyed. I guess this all stems from religion. Thank goodness we have moved on.
311188
Hey bro don't worry...as the years go by you will gain more control over your emotions.I use to be the same way as you...I'm alot more mellow now but still destructive at times and have the urge to want to cause havoc onto the world.However,I know right from wrong and use more "reasoning" and try thinking twice these days before making rash decisions...this type of mentality had developed over the years and I still have much to learn.I myself had a decent upbringing with a religious background and all,but because I'm such a hothead I must battle with the demons inside...most times I defeat them but every now & then the bad will get a hold of me.At your age with all the testosterone and adrenaline flowing it's going to be tough to overcome all the things you're feeling inside.That is why as we age we tend to make wiser and better decisions...it's all about trial & error.You seem to have a good head on your shoulders-I mean you at least have decency to come in here and seek help from total strangers...and you're concerned about these things that seem to bother you.At your age I don't think I gave it much thought,but then again I was really rebelious & out of control!You seem to be better than that...so good luck with your journey into manhood and trial & error-that's what growing up is all about............
298625
. . . I am in deep denial about my own responsibilities toward creating, maintaining and evaluating my own life.  I choose to believe that outside forces control me, rather than that I choose the vast majority of my own destiny.  I have so far refused to face this responsibility.  I need to understand that while I can't always control the things that happen to me and around me, I always have the power to control my own reactions and thoughts.
139957
I am christian and I feel it's not right to think like that it's because your flesh wants it so you should not give in, Satan works in our thought so be careful.
669501
I say, keep fighting the good fight. You may not be able to change the world, but don't let it change you. The more of us who live by this creedo, the more likely it is that we will change the way people think. Wouldn't it be wonderful to know that somewhere down the line you actually saved a life?
349999
I imagine you feel quite betrayed at the moment. The fact that you are waiting to send this mail is interesting, though. I think that if you wait a couple of days, you might find yourself able to think a little more clearly. Be patient, and you will be able to answer your own question.
471441
It could be an addiction, maybe there should be some sort of rehab or counseling. I had never really given it that much thought before.
356279
Yes, you did the right thing. You may not feel very proud of yourself right now, but be assured, that many people ARE! It takes a bigger, smarter, more mature person to not fight when someone is taunting you, than to fight. YOU RULE!!!!
456840
Well honestly speaking, most of the time i do good for my satisfaction , feeling that yes i can be useful to some one else.....\n Ooops such a difficult condition but i ,ll go for the second option, though its very difficult to live in hell but its even  more difficult to get selfish n let others burn in hell , i ,ll try to sacrifice  myself for the comfort of others.. this is wht i m thinking now..i realy have no idea wht will i do if it happend actualy,
166187
You know, I'm myself have done this a time or two now that you've made me think about it.  Its wrong and I should stop doing it. I just get so frusterated as people ignorance sometimes that it leaks out.  I'll try to be more aware of it.  Thank you for your question, its made me think about myself and how I can be a better person.  \n\n*hugs*
399631
I personally never waste my time on something hard to get. If they make it complicated - this is disrespectful towards me. THEY should be fighting for me, not the opposite/ They always do, by the way.
667882
dude...i kinda know how you feel. just follow that voice inside....\n\nthink this way.... if you can live with the fact that you didnt do it....then dont. but if you dont think u'll be able to stand not beiong in that ring......well, then do wat u think is best
484014
I've answered this question for you before.  What are you doing?  Waiting until someone agrees with the way you want to handle it?\n\nIf I see this question from you again, I'm going to be checking that you're abusing the system.
353466
I allow it, but I'm not very happy about it.
350853
Get over it.  Sometimes we have to bite our tongue and not give in so easily.  It will hurt now, but it will make you stronger in the long run.