i was disabled 5 years ago when a drunk hit me on my motorcycle and just cant control my emotions since. medication sucks. always groggy and stoned.panic attacks, sleep problems. just dammed depressed all the time. i have a fine family and a good home in smalltown texas, all looks well but i just feel trapped. please send any advise, thanks,Roy
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I know how hard it is to be depressed because of a drunk driving situation because my uncle died in a car crash on the way home one night from a drunk driver. My aunt has coped with depression and we gave her the advice to try new things like go to a casino if you dont like to gamble and get out and meet new people and make some friends and people who make you feel good and so far it has worked even if you are 35+ years old you can still have friends and have fun my other uncle is 55 and is enjoing life to the fullest just being around friends (people who care and make you feel good).\n\nHope this Helps!!! Sorry about your wreck
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Look, I am a fourteen year old kid and i have also had a pretty rough year, but let me tell you something, do not give up. This past year has been a struggle for me and my family, but once we found out the problems i was having, we were able to find the proper doctors and medication. I know that it seems tough right now, but you have to hang in there. Nothing is going to happen over night, but if you work hard anything is possible. Please trust me, if I could overcome my problems I am sure you can. As far as your job goes, you will have to make the choice whether or not to go back to school or live with what you have. Maybe it would be a good idea to go see a physiologist or psychiatrist to help work out your problems. Whatever you do, don't eat bad food just because you are depressed, or upset with something. Just say no to junk food. I also suggest that you spend more time with your son. Just remember that he will only be a baby once, so don't spoil that. No matter what always find time for you and your family. Bring your kid to the park or read books with him and always encourage him to do better. Never discourage him or ignore him, that will just make him feel bad, trust me I have a five year old brother. One day soon, sit down with your husband and discuss with him what you think the two of you should do in the future. I hope all of this helps and I wish you the best of luck.
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first of all you should go see a mental health doctor. they can diagnos you if you do in deed have a.d.d. my son was diagnosed at 5 yr old and is now 11 years old . its nothing to be ashamed of.. no matter what people say...he took meds for almost 5 years and now does not . . he is a very senitive ,bright, energetic.creative and very smart.but he struggles every day.its nothing to be scared of its not a disease..it just means you have to focus and work harder . thats all. if you end up on meds and you feel drugged or doped -up  . tell your doctor because that means its not the right medicine for you.there are lots of meds on the market 1 of them is bound to work for you if you and your mom decide to go that route.. hope ive helped
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Honey it would help if I knew what you were taking and believe me I know what you're going through.  This has been a rough year for me and the reality of life, the day-to-day is very difficult.  I'm being treated by a doctor and a therapist and additionally I'm working with a sort of spiritual guide who doesn't charge for her services.  She's really helped me learn to meditate and focus on what's good in my life and how to change what I don't like about it.  I don't know if that's for you but either way I want you to know that I understand what you're going through.  If you need to talk just message me and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.\n\nOK I know how it is then.  I was on Zoloft too and it nearly drove me up a wall.  My doctor did several blood tests and he found out that I needed two types of anti-depressants to not only even each other out but help me quit smoking and he put me on an insulin regulator (I'm not diabetic I have PCOS and for the first time in my life my cycles are "regular")\n\nHoney, it's a miserable feeling not just in the fatigue, the mood, the overwhelming sensation of everything and everyone demanding what you just don't have in you to give at this moment.  You are a Good Mom!  This happens to a lot of people.  My best friend has three from 1 and a half to six and was fine with the first one and the last one but her second was really hard on her and it took awhile to get back on her feet.\n\nMy cousins wife had post partum with her son and then again with her twin girls and was treated each time.  Last year she had a NB and she was committed.\n\nI just don't want you to think you are alone or that no one cares about you.  Whether you believe it or not I DO CARE ABOUT YOU!  You can msg me anytime you want and I'll get back with you the first thing!  I'm going to pray for you today and send good thoughts of love and support and encouragement your way.  \n\nYou can get through this!  I know you can!  You probably just need to get your meds either changed or adjusted.  Maybe some counseling would help too and if you want to talk to my spiritual guide she is more than willing to help you and she will not charge you one dime EVER!  She said I could give you her email and it's master_amara@yahoo.com\n\nThere's alot of people in the world who care about you.  You did the right thing by speaking up about how you feel.  It's the first step.  Sometimes we can't handle things all by ourself and we need the support of others.  I'm here if you need me and so is Master Amara but you can just call her Amara.
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I really felt like I should respond to you.  If you have\nbeen feeling down for over a year, why are you waiting so\nlong for meds?  Yes, I understand there can be lots of reasons. But, you may have some unresolved issues that you\n1. either are not aware of, or 2. you are stuffing inside.\n\nListen, I too am shy.  I became depressed after losing a\nhusband and a job.  Boom!  I sat on the edge of my bed with\na loaded gun, & was going to end it. But my belief in Jesus\ntold me I really can't do that, so I entered the hospital &\nwas put on meds.  I really needed to talk to someone.  I\nhad to go on meds.  I couldn't handle the crap I was getting\nfrom others.  I went to a local Mental Health facility.  They are probably the best for you, because most of them work on a "sliding fee scale" they have Psychiatrists and also Counselors.  You cannot go on antidepressants without\na Doctor.  Are you sleeping? Waking up too early?  Or are\nyou sleeping too much?  and too late in the day?  I also\nfound it difficult to relay my feelings. Know what I did?\nI kept a journal.  And also, I write poetry.  That really\nhelps you relate what you want to say.  If you don't have\nthe gift of rhyme like I do, then just write down what you\nare feeling in a journal.  I went through 3 Counselors before I found the woman I now see every week.  She is a\nGodsend!!! :)  Listen I was so shy I couldn't even go into\nmy church without someone with me, so I know where you are.\nBut, if you find a good counselor, & believe me if you are\nshy, it is gonna take some time before you are comfortable\nenough to relay your feelings.  But do you see that that\nis because you may be dealing with self-esteem issues.  You\nare worth it!  I believe in you!  Jesus loves you!  You just\nneed a little time in a setting with a counselor, and donot\nlet them put you into a "group" setting - put your foot down\nif your shy, insist on a one on one setting. That will help\nyou.  They are bound by law not to judge you or to reveal\nwhat you say to anyone.  Please! Tell me you will at least\ntry!  You'll find it worth it.  And don't think what you\nwill say is the 1st time they have heard it - nope!  They\nhave heard it all my friend, so its no surprise!  And if you\nfeel like raising your voice, do it!  Get it out!  just \ndon't scream like a goofball!  do it within reason.  You\ncan make yourself known - believe me.  Do you drive??  If\nyou often feel like you can't take this crap anymore - know\nwhat I do?  I get in the car and I scream until I feel a\nrelief!  (on the freeway of course!) I know no one will be\naround so what the heck??  You gotta get the focus off of\n"you"  I'm not saying that's bad, cause it isn't.  Do you\nhave a hobby?  I take pictures. I go to the park and I have\na nice time. I also am making a scrapbook, so I display my\npictures.  Creative Memories.com - go there they are great!\nIf you need some advice, they can hook you up with a great\nconsultant who can invite you to a "crop" where you work on\nyour scrapbook & you have fun!  I do it the 1st Fri. of the\nmonth.  I am doing one on my life right now!  :)\n\nBut, if you still find it difficult, I am told that there\nis a herb called St. John's Wart that is supposed to help in\ndepression.  I don't know.  You can't take a antidepressant\nand this at the same time.  It isn't safe.  This one is the\nmost widely used herb in this area.  I am not aware of any\nothers.  Go to Mayo Clinic.com - they have searches on this\ntype of thing.  Good luck!
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I feel your pain.  I hate to sound like everybody else, but suicide does not solve anything.  I am not a therapist, I am simply a guy that knows exactly what you are going through.  I have been dealing with a severe case of depression for a coupple of months now.  I also have had some pretty dark thoughts about how things would be if I was no longer around.  I know you said you don't want to see a theripist.  That is exactly the same way I used to feel.  I at one time felt very alone in this  world.  I thought the entire world was hell-bent of making my life harder than everybody elses.  I would see happy people out and about and it made me want to throw up!  All I wanted was to just have one day where I did not feel any pain, physically or mentally.  I was not wanting to be the richest most popular person in the world, I just wanted to be happy... I did not think that was too much to want out of life.  One day I found myself sitting in my car looking for a good place to put an end to my suffering.  For some strange reason, I just drove home.  The next day I woke up and made an appointment with a theripist to try to get some help.  I have been seeing her for a few months now, and I am feeling pretty good.  I also was perscribed Zoloft.  I used to be against just "masking" symptoms with Meds, but I really do have to say the Zoloft really does seem to smooth out the bumps of everyday life.  \nBack to you... I know you feel all alone in your depression, just know it effects many more people than you would think.  It really does help to talk about what you are feeling with someone you feel comfortable with.  You say you are not afraid of death... I used to say the same thing, I used to think I had already lived "enough" life.  That is untill My best friend from college died a few weeks ago.  We were both the same age, It hit me like a ton of bricks... I have not lived a full life yet.  There are so many things I have yet to experience... I realized I was not ready to end things.  Sure I still get "down" from time to time, but the therapy has taught me to work through things, and not to always put emphisis on the negitive of every situation.  It may sound like a line of pure crap... But Positive Thinking really does work!  You are in controll of your life... try to look for the light at the end of every tunnel.... I assure you, things can get better, but you need to be willing to let those changes happen.  \nI hope I helped you out.  If you ever want to chat to somebody that has been in the same situation you are in, you can always e-mail me jam961@yahoo.com  Sometimes it is easier to open up to a sympathetic ear.  I wish you the best of luck!  I really hope you start to feel better.  Just remember, you are never alone, you have all of us here on Yahoo Answers to talk to.
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I'm glad you're in good health. I wonder if you still have any rehab to go through. It took me a while to recover after a problem a few years back. MADD would probably be glad for you to briefly tell your story at one of their meetings. Maybe high school Driver's Ed. classes could use a word from you as well.
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I have been that lonely.  I know exactly how you feel.  Don't you wish you were in a tent were nobody could enter.  I have anxiety attacks therefore hated being with people.  Im depressed.  I thought everyone was talking about me or laughing at me.  I still hate big places and stay out of them.  I went to a doctor and am on medication.  Now I even drive.   I still get lonely sometimes but i could get out and can stand being in a party for a while.  you may have anxiety disorder with panic attacks.  good luck
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I totally agree with mhoi_mhoi.  You found that you were able to find escape and find pleasure in your horseback riding.  The good news is, you already know that you can help yourself by doing activities.  So, for a start, you can just switch to some other activities and maybe that will help a little bit.  I like taking long walks.  Also, if you like being around children, doing something with them can usually make you laugh even on your worst day.  Any way that you can find to help others will probably make you feel better.  \n\nAnother thing you might try is to start writing down the thoughts and feelings you have so they won't keep "swirling" around in your head so much.  That's a lot of what therapy is anyway - just getting it out.  \n\nBy the way, like a lot of people, I've had the same types of experiences you've had and I don't think there is anything wrong with having a "bad mood swing" for a day or two.  I think we're entitled to that after what we went through.  Just remember, as you've probably experienced, things always get better, even if it's just a little.  The key is to hang in there.  \n\nI'm saying all this only if you aren't feeling like you might hurt yourself or anything.  If you are having any of those thoughts, then, I am forced, as a therapist, to say, "go see a therapist" - if only to help get your mood stabilized a little bit so that you can go on with your life.  If you don't really want to talk to anyone about ALL the "stuff" from your childhood and all that, then just see a psychiatrist to get some medication to stabilize your mood.  Otherwise, you are probably just having the mood swings that all of us have and that's okay - I know it hurts really bad when you're in one, though.\n\nTake care... I'll be thinking of you and I hope you feel better.
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I think alot more people than you realize have felt this way. I have suffered form depression also and I have felt that way from time to time. Read my life story (check my questions about this). I have been in an abusive marriage for 12 years and I have not killed myself even though I have thought about it before. I won't do it either because I know that when i put my mind and spirit to it , i can be happy and accomplish anything that I want in life. I look at all the people that I would hurt and leave behind. Not only my wonderful little children but my family and friends who love me. Do you believe in God? have you tapped into your spiritual side? That is what helps me everyday. My brother killed himself 2 years ago and caused so much pain and suffering for every one of us. please don't do it. Continue with your therapist as I will and you can email me whenever you like. Please don't do it. love you, V.
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I have suffered from depression since I can remember. I dealt with it by punching walls until my knuckles were bleeding, binge drinking when I was 14, smoking weed at an early age, and cutting myself. My depression would come and go, I'd feel good for a while then go through stints of depression. They'd last anywhere from a couple weeks to a few months. I probably was not eating as much because I'd sleep about 10-12 hours a day, so I wouldn't be awake to suffer. I was eventually put on Prozac, but I had to start seeing a psychologist to get the meds. I was on that treatment for about a year, then decided that I could deal with it on my own. I'm 23 now and even though I've stopped most of the self destructive behavior, I know that it's always there. For me it kind of feels like being a recovering alcoholic; you're never really get over it, but you gain the knowledge on how to cope with it. I just have to remind myself that there's bad days and good days; a rainbow comes out after the storm has passed. I'm a health fanatic now, I go to the gym and lift weights. It's my release... a lot of my depression manifested itself as anger, so instead of punching things and cutting myself I bench press and do curls.
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Hi, not many people on here been there I guess.\nI went through a long stage of what I would call madness, but the Doc's called depression.\nSome of that was drug induced, but I'm not sure if that made a difference.\nAfter some challenges in my life I had lost it all, forever, it felt, and found myself alone, weak, and angry.\nI blamed myself for everything, though of course there were other factors to my problems than myself.\nI have at times been very angry with myself and found the only person I could hurt was me.\nIt's true that the first cut it the hardest, it's certainly not the deepest.\nYour not a pansy, and if your down, do something about it.\nBut that's another question and answer.\nBe good.
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You will have to go to the doctor and be diagnosed and get written paperwork from him to take the the SSI office. You also have to go to the SSI office of course.\n\nSounds to me like you have a fear of public, medically referred to as "Agoraphobia" this is often caused by anxiety, or accompanies it.\n\nI have had GAD - general anxiety disorder, for about 20 years. I also have PTSD. I can tell you from experience that you need to get out of the house or you will only get worse. As someone posted above, you cannot die from an anxiety attack. Are you on any medications for this? If not I highly recommend getting some. It may take a while for you to find the right med for you as everyone is different, but it WILL change your life when you find it. I work full time and volunteer whwnever possible at my daughters school. My GAD had not completely gone away, but it has became much, much  more manageable. For me, Xanax has helped more than anything else ever has. \n\nI know several great websites and even a wonderful chat room where there are nothing except people with anxiety and related disorders. This has helped me alot. Just being able to talk to others who are going through the same thing you are can ease your mind alot.  If you wouls like this information I would be glad to share it with you. Just email me through here.  I will also be glad to chat with you and share my personal experiences and ways of coping with you.\n\nThe key to living with this order is learning how to manage it. You have to keep it under control and not let it control you!\n\nI wish you the best of luck!
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About 4 years ago I began experiencing that feeling quite a bit, I finally began to suffer with anxiety attacks and decided to seek help.  I was diagnosed with depression, mild agoraphobia, social anxiety disorder with panic attacks.  With the help of a mild anti-depressant, a great therapist(more like a friend really), my faith and my family, I am doing much much better.  It doesn't hurt to find someone you trust who is knowledgeable in this area and talk about it.  It takes alot of courage for you to realize you might have a problem and want to know what it is and how to fix it.  Good grace to you!
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Poor baby.  I do understand.  Been there.\n\nI have a couple of things to offer you.\n\nFirst, you might be depressed.  Check into the possibility of taking some medication for a while.  I had to take Zoloft for 3 months.  It did get me kind of over the hump so that I could stop crying and sleep and eat.  \n\nInvest in YOU... this is a time for you to look inward and grow.  Do something you have always wanted to do.. work out, learn to cook, a foreign language, ball room dance, something you have always wanted to doooo DO it!!!\n\nAnd, I sought help from a divorce support group.  I went to Divorce Care for a few months.  It was really helpful in learning about what I was going through and also they were soo sweet and supportive.  I also went to a few singles meetings.\n\nIt takes time... everyone is different.  It took me almost 3 years to fianally get to where I don't have that anger and saddness.... \n\nBut one thing is for sure, I am AM happier now than I ever thought possible, and I have found a man who loves me more than my ex ever ever did and it feels good.\n\nAnd, I am stronger than I ever felt possible.  In retrospect, it was a gift!  What I thought was the worst thing in the universe and it did nearly kill me, ultimately made my life so much better.  Hard to believe, but true.\n\nGood luck, dear
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I hear where your coming from.  You have cone to the point in life when you feel no longer like superwomen.  I felt the same way. now i'm 48 and new disease's is what my doctor has discovered. Lupas, diabetes and everything else is going wrong. I have depression too, I feel isolated.\nBut my feeling are like this, God is in Controll of my self being, even though I've had to slow myself down quite a bit.\nI have learned to seek out Nature, take pictures, paint\nshells and leave a few for other people to find on the beach. Especially the kids to find something pretty that they can take home. do things that give back to nature.\nYou will feel yourself at your very best. I wish you well, and let happiness shine thru you. Prayers to God will really help you to get ready! God Bless you Spiritually!
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My dad and I had a similar situation.  I moved in with him at 15 and we partied all the time.  But when I got older, I couldn't take the aftermath of a good bender. I didn't want to be like that drunk old man that didn't have a license, and broke his leg riding home from a bar on a bicycle.  I had a hard time breaking away, he was my dad and we'd be through hell together.  But I had to realize that he had at least started most of the trouble in the beginning.  And that I didn't want him to use me to validate his addictions.  Like saying "that's how we bond".  Usually I just resented him more after we partied.  I haven't seen my dad in 5 years.  I miss him, and I love him, but he's lost everything.  They have to want to quit like we did.  Sometimes, like once a year, I call him.  Make sure he's still alive and doing ok.  But from my experience, they only get worse.  Last time I called my dad had lost the house, his job, living with 4 other people in a house that should be condemned.  He's 51 and having seizures when he goes sober for hours.  I love him soooo much, but I can't bring that beer to him, roll his j, drive him around or keep his dealers off his butt anymore.  Just pray alot, think about the good times and move far enough away that she can't find you until you're independent enough to say no to her.