22 years old, diagnosed with BPD, feel suicidal to some degree every day, lonely, scared, please help.  I can't get enough therapy.
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Don't ever give up on yourself, you are a worthy person. You must believe in yourself. Do you take your medications everyday as prescribed? Most people with BPD don't and then they run into recurring problems. You must keep reaching out to family, doctor, psychiatrist, don't stop. The right help will come along. But you must also follow the regimen prescribed as well. Good luck to you.
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It sounds like classical symtoms of depression. Do you have a doctor that you can confide in? If so, you should make an appointment right away, and get help. Depression is dibilitating...I've suffered from it, and it's pure hell! Here are a few sites that you may find useful. By all means, don't feel like a failure for asking for help! Believe me, you'll feel better once you can overcome it. I take a medication called Lexapro for mine, and I feel much better now. There were days I didn't even want to get out of bed, but I knew I had to because I had a family to raise. E-mail me if you'd like some support.
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I feel your pain.  I hate to sound like everybody else, but suicide does not solve anything.  I am not a therapist, I am simply a guy that knows exactly what you are going through.  I have been dealing with a severe case of depression for a coupple of months now.  I also have had some pretty dark thoughts about how things would be if I was no longer around.  I know you said you don't want to see a theripist.  That is exactly the same way I used to feel.  I at one time felt very alone in this  world.  I thought the entire world was hell-bent of making my life harder than everybody elses.  I would see happy people out and about and it made me want to throw up!  All I wanted was to just have one day where I did not feel any pain, physically or mentally.  I was not wanting to be the richest most popular person in the world, I just wanted to be happy... I did not think that was too much to want out of life.  One day I found myself sitting in my car looking for a good place to put an end to my suffering.  For some strange reason, I just drove home.  The next day I woke up and made an appointment with a theripist to try to get some help.  I have been seeing her for a few months now, and I am feeling pretty good.  I also was perscribed Zoloft.  I used to be against just "masking" symptoms with Meds, but I really do have to say the Zoloft really does seem to smooth out the bumps of everyday life.  \nBack to you... I know you feel all alone in your depression, just know it effects many more people than you would think.  It really does help to talk about what you are feeling with someone you feel comfortable with.  You say you are not afraid of death... I used to say the same thing, I used to think I had already lived "enough" life.  That is untill My best friend from college died a few weeks ago.  We were both the same age, It hit me like a ton of bricks... I have not lived a full life yet.  There are so many things I have yet to experience... I realized I was not ready to end things.  Sure I still get "down" from time to time, but the therapy has taught me to work through things, and not to always put emphisis on the negitive of every situation.  It may sound like a line of pure crap... But Positive Thinking really does work!  You are in controll of your life... try to look for the light at the end of every tunnel.... I assure you, things can get better, but you need to be willing to let those changes happen.  \nI hope I helped you out.  If you ever want to chat to somebody that has been in the same situation you are in, you can always e-mail me jam961@yahoo.com  Sometimes it is easier to open up to a sympathetic ear.  I wish you the best of luck!  I really hope you start to feel better.  Just remember, you are never alone, you have all of us here on Yahoo Answers to talk to.
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Sounds like you are having a tough time dealing with stuff.Try to keep busy. Enjoy  life with your family.My mum died a year agoand I still feel very sad but you just have to get on with life.I am undergoing grief counselling  so maybe you could dothe same. Your doctor might be able to put you in touch with someone that can help you resolve  issues dealing with death and also learning to overcome your fears about death. Take care.
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I can not say I know exactly how you feel but I felt the agony and suffered the pain that you are dealing with. You mentioned that you seen a shrink, and as a kid I did too and I hated them but when I finally realized I was almost at the end of the line I knew deep down I needed help. I have been seeing a psychologist, and he is amazing, you really have to find the one that you like. That may mean that you go through a lot of different ones but in the long run it is an amazing feeling and I look forward to my appt every week. Your coping skills have been lost some where along the way and you have learned to deal with situations that you don't want to be in by avoiding them, for example isolating yourself in your house away from reality. You owe it to yourself to find that doctor that you like and get help because life is a beautiful thing and you need to be able to enjoy it insted of trying to end it. It is great that you can say, you are who you are because somewhere in there you know that something is wrong. PLEASE, you know you do not deserve to go through this, no one does, so why let it continue when it can go away, it can get better, and if you get help IT WILL GET BETTER!!! good luck to you. my email address is ciao_baby19@hotmail.com if you want to email me anytime at all.
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I know your pain so much.  I live it.  Trust me.  It's really hard to make that first step.  It took me several years.  I went to a counselor, but she didn't help at all.  So now I'm going to sit here and wait a whole month to see a psychiatrist.  I don't feel like a person anymore, just a lifeless being.  Please, get help.  You know you need it as much as I know I need it.
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Hi Mitch,\nI'm sorry to hear you are having these feeling at your age. I'm a clinical therapist and work children/adults with many different disorders. I can only go on what you are telling so please bear with me. \nFirst I feel you really need to sit down with your gf and tell her what is going on. If you have plans to marry this women,you can't have any secrets.If you really love this women tell her you have not passed your courses.However, you will take some night classes or finsh online. Getting your education is going to be very important. If you want to be a stay at home dad you better let your gf know,you will have to know her feelings on this matter as well,be honest,open.\n\nYour parents what whats best for you, I'm sure if you tell them you have been overwhelmed and that you feel depressed. They might understand what is going on with you,and get you the help you need.\n\nLast but not least you need to go to see a Dr. to see why you are feeling down.Could be if you get on the right meds you will start to feel better and become your old self. \n\nAlso Mitch, drinking is not going to help you forget your problems,it will only numb it for a while. But tomorrow you will be facing the same thing.\n\nLike I told you sit down maybe take her out to dinner and tell her you have not been feeling well, you not sure why,but you think you should see a Dr. to see if her can help you get yourself together.I will be glad to help you..                                              email is lessnesmonster@yahoo.com\n\nHope to hear from you and God Bless
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You sound depressed and suicidal.  Hon, get help.  It's not here.  Good luck
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Honey, I've been exactly where you are now.  Please don't be so hard on yourself.  If you are depressed, see a professional, you may need an anti-depressant.  Sometimes the chemicals in your brain just get all messed up and meds can help that.  \n\nThink of how boring and empty the world would be w/o you in it.  No matter how bad things may seem, you were put here on earth for a reason, you just have to figure out why.  And even though life can be extremely hard most of the time, it is still worth fighting for.  Please don't give up yet.  You can feel better.  Your life can be better.  \n\nIf you ever need to talk seriously about this, email me anytime.  I know that I don't know you, but I am a good listener.  Plus, I do know what it's like to feel empty inside. A few weeks in an institution for attempting suicide really opened my eyes.  \n\nSurround yourself with good positive people that love you and keep telling yourself that your life is important.  My email address is on my profile if you need.  Write me anytime.   Take care of yourself and God bless!!!
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Smiley,\n\nIf you can, get yourself into inpatient treatment.  If that's not possible:\n\nGet yourself into Dialectical Behaviour Therapy (DBT).\nGet another counselor, preferably one w/ a PhD.  \nGet yourself in to see a psychiatrist (if you don't have on already).\n\nPeace be w/ you.
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Keith, you are presenting with the symptoms of Depression.  What you are going through is not your fault and there is help for you.  I believe medication would be beneficial, but I also understand that going to a doctor right now may be more than you are able to manage.  I urge you to call the suicide prevention hotline 1-800-273-TALK.  I am truly concerned for you.  You may also e-mail me through Yahoo Answers. Take care and let me know how you are doing.\n\nKeith I wrote my response  to you yesterday evening but I have heard nothing from you.  Are you ok?  Please give an update.
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Please, please, please don't kill yourself!  You may feel so hopeless and sad, but killing yourself is not the answer.  You are suffering from depression.  Depression is a disease, it is a chemical imbalance in your brain that can be fixed, sometimes with medication, sometimes just with counseling!  If you have health insurance, please go to your doctor right away and tell him or her how your feel.  He or she will send you to a psychiatrists who can help you.  \n\nYou put this question in religion and spirituality, so I assume you are religious.  If you can't get to a doctor please go to your place of worship and ask your rabbi/priest/etc to help you.  They may be a counselor, or they may know one who can help you for free or for very little cost.  Even if you do have health insurance, if you  are religious you should go to your place of worship because your rabbi/priest/etc might be able to help you by getting you more involved in church activities or other activities where you can make friends.\n\nIf you ever feel that you want to kill yourself, please call a suicide hot line instead.  The people on suicide hot lines can help you find hope, get help, and stay alive!\n\nGood luck, I hope you will keep posting so we know you are OK!
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You would benefit from a few one on one sessions with a good therapist.\n\nNot dealing with what happened to you previously is the root of your problem.
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Your not alone i have it to, i also see people too. Do anything to get better but i don't think killing yourself will help you . dyeing is the easy way out. if you do get better you will know that it iwas down to you working to help yourself. x x x x
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I have several suggestions. 1) Go to the doctor and explain how you are feeling and see if they will prescribe an anti-depressant to help you get through this. Being on anti-depressants does not mean you are crazy.  It means there is a chemical imbalance in your brain and the medication will even out the imbalance allowing you to function normally again. 2) Seek out a counselor.  If you have insurance start there.  If you do not, contact the local mental health clinic and request reduced fees.  There are multiple agencies that offer counsling and are willing to base your fee on your income.  3) Pretend that you are not depressed. This one is the hardest as far as I am concerned but it really does work.  Been there, done that!  I'd also like to add that I have a Master's degree in Social Work and deal with these issues everyday for many people. So my advice comes from years of practice.  Good Luck and please try one or all of these.  Your children need you!!!
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It's was a really hard time to get through...i know about the suicide because i once had my own death planned...I am know stable and would love to help you...when you feel the way i've felt you feel like the whole world has turned agianst you and that no one cares or wants to understand what's going on with you...i can say that even though i was in a christian i felt like my own parents didn't want me...what got me through is the fact that there is one person worth living for...ME! if i took my own life  i wouldn't be only hurting myself i would start a chain reaction across the nation starting with my friends and their friends and so forth...so i choose to live my life for me and do what i want and fulfill my dreams! so tell your clients there are are people that care and there are people like them out here...i've been there done that...there's no point of ending your own life with the effects it will do in the whole sceem of things...
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hun listen im right hear with you. like right now im doing the same thing and feeling the same way. but i think im a little a head of you. see im 15, i got cought doing it. and well snow ball from there. alot of people will tell you just to stop and stop feeling like you need to. but hun guess what its a mental problem. we got it and its there. go talk to your counsolor. have a friend go with you, i did. then they will have you make an app. with your family doctor and you will get checked out. weighted and talked to by him or her. from what the doctor thinks some different things can happen, you will go to rehad (most likely not if you get help now) you will get a theropys that what i got. or they will put you on meds. also what i got. you need to be willing to be honest trust me thats hard i know. but i have already lost trust of many for lieing about. but believe me it will get worse if not fixed soon.