NUMB? My best friend (she's like a sister) basically reads my mind... she summed up my feelings and ended with the word NUMB. Sure, I'm not invulnerable - I can die I second I log off from here. It's a weird feeling that makes me feel sick, right to the bones. Like I don't have any more feelings. Of course I cry and laugh. It's just that with the situation I am dealing with in life... I'm all mixed up with emotions I can't describe. I don't care anymore. That's the problem, I feel numb, I can't feel the difference. I want to run, I want to stay. I can't think clearly... I talked to my teacher who set me an appointment with a school counselor. I hope it helps - talking to her.
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damm u shud make a poem or a rap out of that
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You could be depressed.  It's nothing to be embarrassed about.  If you cry alot, and don't get joy from things you liked before, it could be.  Why do you think she is wrong?  \n\nLife is too short to feel so sad.  It might help you to be open minded about depression.  You have a computer - get more information, help yourself as much as you can.\n\nYour school counselor is probably concerned about you.  You can talk to your parents if you feel comfortable with that.  If you don't go do a teacher, friends mom, or other adult you can trust.  \n\nI have been depressed in my life, and it is so easily treated.  I should never have suffered as long as I did.  There's counselling, and or medications that can help tremendously.  Please don't give up.  \n\nI always remember life is too short, and I don't want to feel so sad.  Please help yourself so you can be a happy and content person.\n\nGod Bless
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It is incredible, but it has no meaning anynore. No one cares like they used to. Everybody & everything is in a rush & it's a dog eat dog world. Things were different at one time. Today I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. Sad huh....( I could have if only my beloved didn't have to leave)
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Well, what I do when my friends do this to me, I let them know it. My ULTIMATE best friend in the world has done this to me, many times. Basically, all I do is tell her that I'm kind of upset how we seem like we are drifting apart, then I comfort her by saying that if something is bugging her she can tell me. You have to be the one  to do something, she won't realize that she is hurting you. I wish you the best of luck.
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ive been caught in this before. i got a whole childhood story on it and the more the girl went on, the worse i felt. but apparently this friend of yours must have been pretty traumatized (i cant spell lol) by what happened to her and still kinda haunts her. i can understand both of u, as u not knowing her past like that, and since u were friends u felt like u thought u could joke about anything. i guess some things are really still hurting deep inside. but she didnt NEED to blow up on u, cuz u didnt know. i get the feeling shes guna come to her senses eventually. try and see it from her side, being a constantly teased child and then getting it all over again, kinda like re-opening the wound.\n\nbest of luck with your bud.
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You are deffinatley showing signs of having and or developing a serious problem. I think you should go and talk to someone (a councellor, not a friend or anything cos they can be quick to condem). I went through something similar and found talking through my problems really good. You shouldnt drink to get drunk - thats simply binge drinking. Have you thought about why you want to be drunk? Is it to feel good, to block out pain, etc? Also, its troubling to think that you hide your behavour. I know that its hard to talk about it, but it is deffinatley worth it. Its amazing how good i felt after the first session, just to spill everything out to someone who was totally unbiased, knowing that its totally confidential and whoever your talking to isnt going to think your a nutcase is fantastic!!! I hope everything works out for you, and again, please go and talk to someone. Something that really woke me up was when i was told that you can actually die just from drinking too much - because its a depressant, it can actually relax your system so much that you stop breathing and just die in your sleep. Imagine your parents/siblings/friends/etc walking in to wake you up and not being able to - that thought freaked me out. So yeah, again, hope it all goes well, i would give you my email address if you wanted to talk but i dont really want to post it here! Take care
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If you could just explain what are you going through and what are your feeling you can be cured but you have given no details her so how can you expect anyone to answer it correctly ! Please edit your question and post some details !\nTake care
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therapy and meds are essential for helping you...but have you thought about support groups?  sometimes just going through it with like people can help.  as for your not being able to articulate how you feel, i recommend journaling...writing down what you are feeling is a great way to help yourself and others fiigure out what you are really going through.  dont forget diet and exercise too...good luck
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Awww so sweet. \n\nRide it out cowboy! Talking to people would help too.\n\nYour not alone.\n\nI feel alone, because I am sad, not because I don't have someone.
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YES!!! its a long & lonely road but hang in there.\nit's ok to feel weak sometimes, we are only human.\nchange your lifestyle if you have to...\npositive thinking & self- worth is very important.\ni sincerely wish you luck & love!\ndon't worry about things you cannot control. change the things that's dragging you down.\nyou can't fly with broken wings.\nhope the link can help...
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I know how you feel. I've been there and its really a bad way to feel. If you want you can e-mail me. eula_hill7@yahoo.com I would be happy to be your friend.
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no you are not alone. for the longest time i got the same feelings only i would lay ther with my eyes open, not beeing able to move my body, it only lasts a few minutes but feels like forever. Take niacin(b12)
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Hmm. Of course its not weird. You are used to feeling a certain way, and there was a degree of safety in that. What you have now sounds like hope. Hope for the future, and in a way that can be a little scary. That goes for everyone. Its uncertain when you dont know what is coming.\nWell done to you for leaving your past behind you. You will now be able to empathise with others who feel like you once did - there sure is a lot of them!\nHow you feel is how you feel. Dont doubt yourself!
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Yes I feel a big empty space since I lost my best friend, my sister! I am not happy, I miss her, and nothing makes me happy anymore!When I visit her grave I feel better for a day or two but nothing can take her place!!
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i know exactly how you feel...i'm sorry, but ending our lives isn't the answer we would leave behind people who truly love us, i wish i knew what the right words to say...if you believe in god just pray to him to make you feel better & try to think positive that things will eventually be better....i feel ya...if you need to talk just email me, my email is available on here....just don't hurt yourself, god bless
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alright well everyone is tellin u to go see a shrink so i dont hav to say that. \n\niv always hidden how iv felt about everything, my mom dying, getting molested a lot of things and i never got over them. i felt so much pressure from all these things that i was hiding that i started mutilating myself to feel better. now iv been to the mental hospital and i still havnt really talked to anyone. even if u dont talk to a shrink just tellin sum1 u trust how u feel can help ur mind start to accept wat happened. i deny myself wat has happened cuz its easier to say, no thats just a dream, than to say, well yes, that happened and yes it screwed me up. \n\nto help myself i write a lot, poems songs stories and just writing about wat happened helps me. im not gunna recommend hurting urself but that has helped me too, just know that thats a really bad idea. in addition to writing a lot i do a lot of yoga and excerise just to take out frustration and to calm myself. i talk a lot to my best friend cuz i know that she will listen even if she doesnt care and if i cant talk to her then i sit down in front of the mirror and just tell myself yes, this happened and no its not ur fault. a lot of the grief process (at least for me) is to blame urself, i hav been blaming myself for everything in my life and its important to realize its not ur fault. and its no ones fault, it just happened and u cant change it now. he knows u love him, and if ur a religious kind of person then u could say that hes watching over u. \n\nbut mostly just take it slowly and make sure to admit to urself that it happened and its not ur fault. find a productiove way to take out all ur feelings and find sumthin calming to help u keep ur cool. \n\n<3
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Many  people experience what  your going through, but not many people talk about it.\n Back in  olden times they  called your experience a "night Hag" That paralyzing feeling caused  by "Her sitting on your body and  holding you down"  \nIt's a  thing of child hood past... not many people talk about that theory anymore, although it is in  some books!\n\nNow, as far as going to a Dr.  It may be a good Idea to talk to him..he might want to do  some tests, but most likely he will tell you it's normal and to not worry about it..it happens to everyone..I've had it happen many times!! It is not a fun experience..usually it will go away right away.. the longest  one i have had is like  a few minutes actually!!! THAT WAS AWFUL!!! \n\nwhen it happens to me it's helpful to relax and stay calm.. i  usually imagine my self "fighting it off" and that  usually works.   try moving your upper body  before anything else that has always seemed to help me out too.  if anything talk to your Dr. if you feel necessary..then try looking it up and doing a little research  who knows what  you might find!!