Hello dad,remember me im the man you thought id never be,im the boy who you reduced to tears,dad ive been lonely for 27 years,yeah thats right my names bob im the one who landed the popstars job,im the one who you told look dont touch,im the kid who wouldnt amount to much,i believe in my senses sight and sound,i have always been to loud wont you help me drown it out im what i feel and what im feeling is surreal,im a mass of spinning wheels always digging at my heels,now ive got the faith...this is what my daddy told me i wish he would hold me a little more than he did but he told me my culture and how to live positive,i never wanna shame the blood in my veins and bring pain to my sweet grandfathers face,in his resting place i`ll make haste to learn and not waste everything my forefathers earned in tears,for my culture
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Ego Has Landed\n\nRobbie Williams
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While these words were originally written for the human, they apply equally well for everybody and everything.\n\nAll is Well\n  \nDeath is nothing at all. I have only slipped away into the next room. I am I, and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, that we still are. Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference in your tone, wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together. Pray, smile, think of me, pray for me. Let my name be ever the household word that it always was, let it be spoken without effect without the trace of a shadow on it. Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was; there is unbroken continuity. Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just round the corner.\n \nAll is well.\n \nHenry Scott Holland\n1847-1918\nCanon of St. Paul's Cathedral\n\nMay it bring you the peace it bought me when my parents died.\n\nDave B
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it is good man you got one of the best song in history! i love it i might be your #1 fan
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you dad must be about 40 to45,, i remeber those days well  good luck
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They will always remember you and miss you I once felt like suicide and my mom told me to think of little nephew who would no longer have me as an aunt what a wrong message of dealing with that suicide sends and the guilt people would have for not helping me My nephew loves me very much and I changed my mind when I thought of him crying and not having me to talk to anymore Life gets better with time IF you need to talk e-mail me just click on my avatar
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If an angel game and told me\nthat today was my last day\nI would list down all my loved ones\nAnd this it what I'd say\nMum, I always loved you, although I didn't say\nPlease dont be sad for long enjoy each and every day\nDad I know youll be alright, I hope I made you proud\nYou know I always loved you though I never said it aloud\nSister figure out what you from life, when you know just ask\nAnd I wil help from where I am, no matter how big the task\nBrother, if I could ask for another bro, I would ask again for you\nA better brother could not be found, I hope you felt this too\nLil sis, take care my lil sister, I still love you no less\nI wish I had more time for you, of that I must confess\nNow, my baby sis, a princess through and through\nyou are a special girl, you are pure and true\nDaughter, I love you my princess, daddy always will\nremember I always told you, well daddy loves you still\ndaughter2, grow up strong and smart, make your daddy proud\nI will always love you and visit when aloud\nwife, you know that you are my one, my love for you is true\nfrom heaven I will wait, till the day I can be with you
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Congratulations on your strong spirit. You should know you've crossed a great distance to being an adult, and rightly so.\n\nI lost my dad when I was 14, and it was hard. Real hard. However, in your case, you have no one of your parents left to comfort you anymore. Just knowing that is your first step into being a real human. God is testing you, and He will make it up for you, if not in this life, well, that's why we believe in Him.\n\nNo one can say anything to make you feel better. Many will try though, but look around, what about the maimed victims of war who lost their entire families? What about millions of poor individuals who know someday they're going to die a slow death, and that day isn't far away? God is testing them as well, believe me, the only thing that can help you is faith, faith in God, and in yourself.\n\nBe strong, and know you are not alone. Focus on your studies, and every time your eyes fill with tears from memories, let it be. Strong men also cry. It only makes them stronger.\n\nRegards,
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didn't care for the movie but i love the song. its P.O.D youth of the nation\nLast day of the rest of my life\nI wish I would’ve known\nCause I didn’t kiss my mama goodbye\n\nI didn’t tell her that I loved her and how much I care\nOr thank my pops for all the talks\nAnd all the wisdom he shared\n\nUnaware, I just did what I always do\nEveryday, the same routine\nBefore I skate off to school\n\nBut who knew that this day wasn’t like the rest\nInstead of taking a test\nI took two to the chest\n\nCall me blind, but I didn’t see it coming\nEverybody was running\nBut I couldn’t hear nothing\n\nExcept gun blasts, it happened so fast\nI don’t really know this kid\nEven though I sit by him in class\n\nMaybe this kid was reaching out for love\nOr maybe for a moment\nHe forgot who he was\nOr maybe this kid just wanted to be hugged\nWhatever it was\nI know it’s because\n\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\n\nLittle Suzy, she was only twelve\nShe was given the world\nWith every chance to excel\n\nHang with the boys and hear the stories they tell\nShe might act kind of proud\nBut no respect for herself\n\nShe finds love in all the wrong places\nThe same situations\nJust different faces\n\nChanged up her pace since her daddy left her\nToo bad he never told her\nShe deserved much better\n\nJohnny boy always played the fool\nHe broke all the rules\nSo you would think he was cool\n\nHe was never really one of the guys\nNo matter how hard he tried\nOften thought of suicide\n\nIt’s kind of hard when you ain’t got no friends\nHe put his life to an end\nThey might remember him then\n\nYou cross the line and there’s no turning back\nTold the world how he felt\nWith the sound of a gat\n\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\n\nWho’s to blame for the lives that tragedies claim\nNo matter what you say\nIt don’t take away the pain\n\nThat I feel inside, I’m tired of all the lies\nDon’t nobody know why\nIt’s the blind leading the blind\n\nI guess that’s the way the story goes\nWill it ever make sense\nSomebody’s got to know\n\nThere’s got to be more to life than this\nThere’s got to be more to everything\nI thought exists\n\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\nWe are, We are, the youth of the nation\n\nYouth of the nation...we are(contin.)
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"O Lord, You have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit or stand. When far away You know my every thought. You chart the path ahead of me, and tell me when to stop and rest. Every moment, You know where I am. You know what I am going to say before I even say it. You both precede and follow me, and place Your Hand of blessing on my head.\nThis is too glorious, too wonderful to believe! I can NEVER be lost to Your Spirit! I can NEVER get away from my God! If I go up to heaven, You are there; if I go down to the place of the dead, You are there. If I ride the morning winds to the farthest oceans, even there Your Hand will guide me, Your strength will support me. If I try to hide in the darkness, the night becomes light around me. For even darkness cannot hide from God; to You the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are both alike to You.\nYou made all the delicate, inner parts of my body, and knit them together in my mother's womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! It is amazing to think about. Your workmanship is marvelous- and how well I know it. You were there while I was being formed in utter seclusion! You saw me before I was born and scheduled me each day of my life before I began to breathe. Everyday was recorded in Your Book! \nHow precious it is, Lord, to realize that You are thinking about me constantly! I can't even count how many times a day Your thoughts turns towards me. And when I waken in the morning, you are still thinking of me! \n\nSearch me, O God, and know my heart; test my thoughts. Point out anything You find in me that makes You sad, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
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My heart goes out to you and your Dad and your whole family. This must be really hard for you all. Especially around the holidays. I believe that everybody and every living thing on this earth has an energy about them. If I were you I would take his hand in yours and pour your energy into him. Give him as much as energy as you can. I cannot tell you how to do it because for me, it just happens. I can feel the love and the warmth intertwining with the other.\nThis is the time you of all people need to keep the faith, whichever faith that is. By you keeping the faith and sharing it with your Dad, it will help to keep his faith. More faith means more positive energy and a stronger recovery. Share your energy with your family and friends. It will be passed onto your Dad as well. \nDo not be sad. Sadness is not a good energy. You must believe all will be well. Know your Dad wants to be well. Deep inside he doesn't want to let you down. Show him how positive you are about it. Don't act it. Believe it and when all is said and done, things will be what they were. Maybe now, they will even be better. As a Dad myself, there is nothing more important to me than to make my daughter happy and I am sure your Dad is the same way.\nKeep the faith. Be positive. BELIEVE in your Dad recovery. Share your energy with him each and every time you see him. Tell him you love and not just in passing. Take an actual moment of time to convey this to him.\nChin up. Take note the beautiful day that is out there. Take a walk in nature. Let natures energy revive you, charge you, and bring that back to your Dad.\nTake care and remember. "Don't worry, be happy"!
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I am sorry,  my grandmother has lost her will to live after my father died three years ago, I do not believe you will ever get over it, I think you may be able to one day accept your child died,  but you will always grieve and feel your loss, I am not sure the goal is too get over it, I was devastated when my father died and I know this cannot compare honestly if my children died, I would probably semi lose my mind at least temporarily. and I know I would become a humanitarian worker on the international scene for human rights watch or red cross, in the thick of things. and I would have a very nomadic lifestyle, however I still  feel the hole that was ripped open in my soul the day my father died, I do not believe it will ever go away, church made me feel worse. the funeral was horrible .I told the priest he was full of it ,and so was his religion ,which offered no comfort .and I informed him  that my father detested religion,I can relate to not wanting to hear the empty god comments. what surprisingly helped me , was a support group for grief victims ,people who had the same or similar experiences .I would have never  joined a group like this, but it was a service offered ,because I donated his organs.and amazingly just the pamphlets generated from the group touched me and helped ease my grief, I know it sounds like it will do no good, but It is truly worth a try, for you to get in touch with other parents who lost their children, I know I saw a persons 360 page on yahoo ,the mans child died and the support from the online community was amazing .I am not sure this will help you as much as a real group ,but not feeling alone in your anger is crucial to feeling better, it is most difficult to hold on to yourself or soul ,if you believe in that, when you are filled with misery ,it is so much harder to love yourself,life, or anything than it is to hate .and making that human connection with others that can truly understand you rather than dismissively wish you well or try to say something they think you want to hear, is the first step in regaining the feeling of control and a new perspective , I also encourage you to visit my 360 page and dont read it ,cause I am bad and while I try to remain positive, I do tend to gravitate to the darkside at times, but go to my friends list  find Skyes avatar click on it and visit skyes page, this beautiful woman is a well of positivity, and spiritual well being .and just reading her blogs make me feel better and I am sure they can touch your heart as well
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U know,,i have beenthr this before,,and i can tell how hard it is,,but u know what,,i have learned many things,,if he was so weak,,or so whatecer,,the reason is,,to leave me alone,,with pain in my heart,,HE WAS NOT THE ONE FOR ME,,,if he was the one I trylu deserve,,he wouldnt have left me crying,,he would have rather die than see me weeping,,\nBe stong,,,have faith,,the better is yet to come,,try doing new things,,sports,,,reading,,going out,,try not to focus on him,,,\nI wish u all the best,,and i am sure u will find someone much better soon
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well i cant exotically,say,i know how you feel,..but,Ive been and threw going threw a depression,.i feel like i cant do nothing right,.and when i try i get minimized back feel me,.but what Ive been trying to find my self ,..by,..xploring my talents i didn't know i had,let to re leave my stress or sadness,Ive,...tarted drawing,..and now,i draw scenes of how i feel,and Ive experienced now with poetry,..and rhymes,...and now i can put a barrier on whats how i feel and how I'm supposed react and cope,..it all depends how you deal with it,..its only up 2 you hope to cope,..i personally am 21,..and i just did a year in jail,..because i couldn't deal with my depression,..and hung my self on a public bridge got lock up, 4 public disturbance and breech of peace,..so that's a bad example,of how not 2 let it get the best of you so,you need to go explore your self,..remember  time in life that Mae you feel safe and Happy,.and let you mind drift ,,..and don't yous it as longing 4 the past but,..a me-er reminiscing,..to alleviate you stress,..try to associate,with peeps that gonna up lit you ma truss,..cuz you don't want any friend that's gonna make you feel ls then a woman,..you need love from your family,friends,ma bey try dating,..and try not dwell on the sorrow, pre-occupied your time with some thing new,..and make sure he,..treat you like a Queen cuz you been threw alot,..you don't need no more drama,..and if need some1 2 holla at to talk I'm here,..I'm onyx,....  only1pain@yahoo.com
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Oh, sweetheart, I am so sorry. I can relate to you in two ways. My situation is the opposite. I grew up with my father and did not see my mother from age 6 to age 20. The second thing we have on common is that my father also died recently. He committed suicide because he was sick and depressed. It's gonna take a lot of time. I don't have kids, and it bothers me that when I do he'll never meet them. \n\nHere's what I do to cope...\n\nI play the Moonlight Sonata on the piano because he loved to listen to me play that. I burned a CD of songs that remind me of him. When I listen to them, I can hear him singing them and see him smiling. I burned another CD of songs that express how I feel about his death, which helps to get it all out. I write letters to him, and that gets it all out, too. I allow myself to be angry - it's hard to be angry with someone you love. I try not to beat myself up with what I could have done differently and all the things I never said. I know he knew how much I loved him without my having to say it. My faith in God helps, because I think of what the word eternity means, and when I do, I see that 70 years on this earth is just nothing, really. I don't blame God - I try not to blame at all, which is not easy to do. \n\nAnother good thing to know about is the grieving process. There is shock/denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. Since they are always written in that order, I thought that you go through one, then you're done with it and you go through the next. That's simply not true. You can be crying, then in a rage, then wake up the next day not believing what has happened. Knowing, but not believing. I find it hard to talk to people because I feel like it makes them uncomfortable. I also feel like it's old news to my friends, and that makes it hard to just bring it up again. But I do try to monitor myself and take good care of myself. If I'm in denial, I remind myself that denial only puts off dealing with it and makes it a longer process. If I am feeling guilty, I remind myself that it's not my fault and that my father would not want me to think it was. If I see that I am isolating myself, I call a friend and go out. \n\nI know that my situation is different, because you hardly knew your father, but I am sure that you loved him, and that he loved you. The one thing that gives me the most comfort is knowing that love is not killed, buried, or cremated. Love never leaves. Know that your father is very much alive in you, and so is his love. Give yourself time and be patient with yourself. If you want to talk more, email me.
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Baby i love you so much, more than anything in the world, and my heart is set  to do anything for you, why you trippen ? I dont feel like we getting old i feel like we need to take it to another level because we been on the same shit since we meet. I love you keosha and you mean the world to me but when i ask you to take it up ,you always complain about how you dont have time, i feel like im your girl and you should make sacrafices. With  the boys it was just a phase,(quick thing). I love your pussy,it's the best. I dont want anybody elses if im getting dick it's gone be from you dady promise. So drop the bullshit and tell me you love me,becasue you know we aint going no where  ,I ain even cooked dinner  in our new apartment yet. So lose the idea's ,im sorry i said all that, it was because i was (ya know) all day long yesterday !! So STOP IT!! now what you want me to do to make it up???  And fuck the nigga who said leave me!!! Yo ass better know im the only mutha-fuckin fish in YO sea!!!! GOT IT
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Trick Daddy I included a link to the lyrics
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You were the neighbor,just right down the road.\nWe were just kids, and you did not know.\nHow I did try to just get a glimpse of those beautiful eyes.\nBut I was so shy.\nMy brothers taunted and teased me, till I was begging on my knees. They would not stop harassing me. \nThis made me so shy that all I ever felt was deep,silent crys. \nWhen saw you I would hide, with tears rolling out of my eyes.\nI was afraid of rejection, Afraid that you would think of me as "weird."\nThe years slipped away and you never knew, how I really felt for you.\nSoon, to soon we moved away. It tore my heart out, deep in to the roots of my very soul.\nWhy did I not just tell you how I really felt?\nNow five hundred miles away, I lay in my pain,fear and my own doubt.\nBut why?